Destined to be

chapter 77

Previously ;

Emily: " Mo I am not going to my house because I guess I don't belong there . I am going to the place I live . "

Marie: " Emily are you not aware ? "

Emily: " About what ? "

Marie: " About your dad , Kevin . "

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Emily: " What is there to know about him . He must be sitting in his home with his wife and his daughter complaining about me . How I am a nightmare child . "

Marie: " Oh dear God you don't know . "

Emily: " What are you talking about ? "

Marie: " Kevin passed away ! , I am so sorry . "

Emily: " What ?" "

Emily was not able to believe what she just heard .

Emily: " What are you saying ? "

Marie: " I am so sorry . I hate to be the one who break such devastating news to you . "

Emily: " No . . . . . . . no . . . . . . . . . it is not possible . It can't be true . . . . . . . . It can't be true . "

Marie: " I am sorry for your loss child . "

Emily: " How can you even say this ? . . . . . . . Oh , I get it now , you must have heard something wrong . Yes that could be it . But don't worry I am not angry it could happen with anyone . "

Marie: " No I wish it was not true but Ava called me and told me that he got a heart attack . "

Emily: " Ava called you ? "

Marie: " Yes , didn't she call you ? "

Emily: " Does it looks like I was aware about this news ? Oh my God , I can;t believe he is no more . I can't believe he left me . He was my only family and now . . . . . . . and now . . . . . . . . I am all alone I have no one . I can't believe this . "

Marie: " I know you are going through a really hard time but try to relax , calm down . "

Emily: " You want me to calm down. . . . . . . . . have you not heard me . I just lost my father . My only family how could you expect me to be calm . I know we were going through a rogh phase and he said that he wanted nothing to do with me but it was a relief just to know that he was there . There was some one out there in this big world who I can call my family but now he is gone . . . . . . . . . he is just gone . Everyone that mattered to me is dead . What will I do now and Ava didn't bothered to tell me ? She didn't even thought that it was necessary to inform me . I am sorry , I am sorry , I have to go . "

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Emily was heart broken . She was shattered on learning the truth that his dad was dead and she found that out from some stranger .

Her mother was dead , her biological father was dad and now Kevin was also dead . ' Where did she belonged now ? ' , this question was bothering her .

Kevin himself was shocked when he found out that letter from Erica which said that Emily was not his daughter . He was wrong to abandon Emily and her little daughter but his emotions were not wrong . All his life he loved Emily more than his life and just one day he finds out that his entire life was a lie . Emily was not his daughter . . . . . . . . . . . . .

When Erica dies Emily was lost but she pulled herself back because she had her father . He was there with her through thick and thins , through high and lows but now she was all alone .

The years in hospice made the acutely aware of how quickly he would be leaving her .

One day she was very upset and was crying how cruel her father was and she said that it would have been better if he was also dead , Estella told her ; ' I don’t care how long you do hospice nothing will prepare you to lose your parents ' She was right .

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The question she was facing with the death of her parents was , ' Who am I now without them ? Daily phone calls with mom were always there , and if I didn’t call her she would call me and say I haven’t heard from you . She could always tell by the tone of my voice if I was happy or troubled . What now ? How are those kinds of experiences just gone ? It has been the strangest feeling for her to be on this earth without parents physically in her life. . . . . . .

She accepted her fate when her mother passed away but today she felt like she was back there and she has not moved on even a single day .

Aging is about reminiscing , recalling moments in time with people we loved . Like every child , she thought her mom and dad would live forever . She remembered part of grieving for her mother was to try not to hold on to the way it was , by that she mean getting to the point of acceptance . Moving forward in our life without our parents is about opening up to the loving memories . And how can you be fine with loosing something you have spend years in building ? If only anyone could answer that . . . . . .

Her father's death was hitting her harder than her mother . She was not aware why .

I mean it was hard for her realizing that her mother will never be around her .

Who was she now without them on this earth ? Life is not an easy journey it is even more difficult on knowing that you are all alone in this darkness . She still get lost sometimes . She know Erica was in everything not physically though !

She knew she was a woman who resembled her mother , she have been told that very often . Her eyes , her heart , her kindness ,everything was reflecting in her . She was the daughter of a great lady . She moved on through life knowing the gifts she imparted on her will continue on forever .

But now Kevin was also gone . This was hitting her heart . She felt like she was loosing her senses . She rushed to her house to bid her last good bye to her father before Ava also took this opportunity from her .

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She ran in ;

Ava: " No one can understand how I feel as I see you go . My anxiety and the impeding fear of loneliness , no one will know . All I can say is that I will be lost in darkness while you are gone . Loneliness is too shallow a word to describe how I will feel when I will miss you . It is not as simple as missing someone special . It’s as complex as a watching dawn without sunshine , sleeping at night without darkness , listening to music without sound . . . . . . and living a life without meaning . Being away from you, is like being away from the meaning of my life . The more beautiful the memories, the more they hurt. I had never thought that all the happy moments in our relationship would come back around to become by biggest weakness . Good bye Kevin ! "

Oh how she was faking it , She must have taken out this speech from Google but Emily had no time to think about it . She saw her father lying in front of her .

Emily: " Dad ! "

Ava: " Emily , Excuse me everyone just give me a moment . "

Emily ran towards his dad . Ava grabbed her by her arm " Come with me . " She said sharply .

Emily: " No I want to see my dad . "

Ava: " You can't . "

Emily: " And who are you to tell me that . "

Ava: " His wife . Now I can ask you the same thing who are you ? . . . . . . . Can you answer this ? "

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