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Cold sweat breaks out on my skin , my eyes blurring and my mind warped in panic . It's as if the ground has been swept from underneath me , my mind being lunged to the memories I never wanted to remember . As Evie's cries sink into my mind , I sit frozen , unblinking and helpless , trying to push out comforting words . I'm trying my hardest to fathom what she must be feeling , but I know . I known what she's feeling right now and the anger and sorrow rushing through me is so f*****g blinding that all I can do is plead at her to just run . Run away , just like I should've .
Please no , not again . I try to hold my breath , demanding my mind to calm down and my limbs to stop shaking . Mama said that if I make noises at night , James will hurt me and she said
