Dandelion

Chapter 14

                                                                                   Never cheat

I feel like when I was a student I used to study less for exams than I am right now. Having a new life was not supposed to be this annoying and difficult. 

My bed was filled with papers and notes as if I was in exam season. The laptop had so many windows open that it had started to overheat as I could feel the bedsheets warming up underneath it.

My eyes were stinking a bit from staring at it for the amount of time that I had and my wrist had started showing the pain, all the things I noted down had brought to it. I definitely need to organize all these and keep them somewhere safe. If anyone was to see them they definitely would wonder why do I have such a thing around.

From the day of Zein's debut to the most recent article, I had read them all and tried to keep whatever seemed worth noting down. I seem to currently be filming a project. A police drama in which I am the lead. Well, Zein is. The director is someone she has worked with before, therefore I took some time to learn a few things about him too in case I ever come to meet him. I will be an amateur no more. I will take being Zein seriously.

I encouraged myself as I stretched my arms then proceeded to gather the scattered papers while in my head the thought of food returned again. I am starving. I didn't manage to eat in the morning with everything that happened nor I called to service as Elia told me to do if I wanted anything. It would have been nice if he was to tell me what was the way to call service too that is. I have no idea what phone number that may be and I can't even leave this place to go buy anything again. Ordering passed my mind, but I wasn't sure if that was a common thing that Zein would do. I definitely didn't want to make Elia mad at me again. So, here I am, starving.

Would it be rude if I were to text Tian to bring some food over? Do I really want to bring him once again in this house is an even bigger question though. He is risky to have around or better to say, he is tempting to have around. He is too touchy and expressive with his feelings and I definitely can't handle too much affection. To not mention the s****l tension that he creates out of nowhere. No, no, let's just stay without food. One more day won't kill me.

"Zein, my love~" A voice called making me literally jump from my place in surprise and hurry up immediately after, to collect all the notes and papers I had around. I quickly put them below the bed and rushed to the laptop, closing all the tabs I had open right before I turned down the device itself. 

The door flew open just as I closed it shut, making me shot my head in that direction. 

"Here you are. Didn't you hear when I called you?" Ren said with a smile as he approached me, looking happy to see me. I guess I should be looking the same.

He took hold of my wrist and gave me a hug, action to which I couldn't help but be stiff under. Nonetheless, I hugged him back not wanting to behave in a non-logical way.

"Sorry, I couldn't come earlier. Work was really something today. Have you been feeling better?" He cupped my cheek and left his thumb to caress my skin slowly as he gazed into my eyes waiting for a response and I stared back at him for an instant, realizing that Zein seemed to be like a charger for him. He looked too joyful just by seeing her.

"Yes, I am all better." I gave him a wide smile and without any notice, he leaned in and gave me a soft quick kiss, that had me froze instantly. 

This guy is more dangerous and affectionate than Tian it seems. I am in trouble.

"Glad to hear that. Come, I brought dinner. I hope you haven't eaten yet. I really wanted to dine with you." His words brought genuine happiness to my face and I couldn't help but jump at him and give him a quick hug while muttering a ' thank you' right before I run out of that room with only one thought in my head. Food!

Once I reached the living room, I was met with a pleasant aroma which was coming from the bags that were placed on the table and which I hurried to unpack and lay them on the table correctly. I never was someone that loved doing house chores but setting the table sure was a favorite part for me. Not as preferred as eating but it went hand in hand. The cleaning after sure was something I would like to skip, however. Life is life, you can't have just the good part without the equivalent opposite of it. Balance never sounded more unfair.

"My love looks happier to see the food than me. I am disappointed." He claimed as he left his lips to tag a bit upwards and I just straight out laughed at his remark, cause it was absolutely true.

I had nothing against him or anyone but they weren't familiar enough to me to feel happy to encounter them however truth was that even the ones that could have been familiar enough to be, I wouldn't have been as happy to see them as I am when seeing food. It's just how it is. Priorities.

I invited him to join me as if he wasn't the one who brought it over and Ren did so without hesitation. I found myself eating in comfortable silence with him, accompanied by some occasional eye contact that we shared which strangely didn't make me uncomfortable. He didn't smile much or anything but the way he looked at me, felt friendly. Just like a kid would look at a toy they adore kinda gaze. It almost made me feel overvalued but I would never know what that feeling tastes like to actually recognize it. No one valued me much.

I was absorbed in the heaven that my tongue was tasting and the satisfaction that having a full stomach was giving me, till I looked up and caught him staring at me. Surprisingly he didn't falter his gaze nor pretended like he was looking at something else, a thing that made me feel a bit pressured.

I averted my eyes elsewhere and never looked back again, till I was done with my food, then Ren spoke, making me face him.

"Does it bother you?" He asked and I gave him a confused expression, eyes slightly widened as my head tilted to the side.

"What?"

"The fact that I am looking at you. You seem uncomfortable." Oh, so I was being that obvious huh.

"Em..no, it's okay." I lied. How could I say that I am not used to this much attention and it makes me uncomfortable? I was supposed to be an Actress who literally is in the center of attention 24/7  and attracts attention for a living. 

My hands moved to my neck out of nervousness as he kept staring at me and his gaze followed my action for a bit, soon his expression changing to a darker one. I freaked out a bit as to why, since I didn't think I said anything that would possibly disturb him in any way but soon he spoke up and clarified my wonder.

"What's that on your neck?" My hand froze in place and my eyes grew wide a bit as a result of his question.

"I said what's that on your neck Zein?" Ren repeated himself this time reaching his hand towards me and taking a hold of my arm, pulling it away from my neck so he could have a better view of whatever was that had drawn his attention.

He stared at my neck for a bit then left his eyes to travel back to mine, making a shiver run down my spine from the intensity they carried.

"Care to explain why is there a hickey on your neck, love?" His voice firm and demanding entered my ears, like a sharp knife that took my breath away as I recalled from when that was. The first time Tian had come over, he had left that mark on my neck rather too passionately, why had I forgotten about that? Why had I not tried to hide that yet? I messed up.

"I...It's not-" I tried to come up with something to reply with but as his face grew closer to mine, I felt my voice failing me to come out.

"You have not dared to betray me, now have you?" His grip on my hand tightened up a bit as those words escaped his lips, making it evident that he would not have liked such an outcome. Too bad that it was true though cause Zein had more than betrayed him but I was in no way going to admit to that and pay the price of her mistake.

"I would never," I replied, trying to sound as confident as possible while I stared daringly back at him.

What a pity that despite my try, I  only witnessed his facial expression morphing to anger right before I felt his lips roughly collide with mine, bringing me into an eager and demanding kiss, which made my thoughts vanish and my anxiety to hit the roof.

I felt the pit of my stomach firing up as his tongue dominated my mouth, stealing my breaths as if that was what he lived out of.  I had no time to speak or do anything but slightly end up enjoying the rough pleasure he was offering me despite how much I thought in my head that I shouldn't and that this was not right. 

He had the ability to made the temperature of my body rise and my heartbeat thumb in nervousness and anticipation.  I could not trust this man and I barely knew anything about him but one thing was for sure and that was that if you were to ever get caught between his lips, you would have it difficult to reject him.

Who the heck made him such a good kisser?

"Never dare cheat on me, love. It better never crosses your beautiful mind...otherwise-"Ren whispered against my lips as he had finally given me a pause to get in my lungs some much-needed air. His eyes burning in mine with a determined gaze that made me forget the fact that he was actually threatening me at that moment yet the word 'Otherwise' echoed in my mind for the rest of the seconds that he remained silent.

That simple word that was as terrifying as his gaze seemed at that moment made me realize how important it truly was to keep the relationship with Tian hidden forever. There was no guessing what could happen if he ever was to find out and I definitely wouldn't want to find myself caught in between such a storm.

I will never let him find out. Just like Zein had managed to keep them hidden both, I have to do the same no matter what. I will not risk my safety for anyone's feelings. Let them be cheated on, let them be getting fooled behind their backs. It was not my doing, it was not my fault. I will just play with the pions I am given.