Our Contract Marriage

Ignoring Him

Sleep wouldn't come even though i tried my best. Next morning my body was tired not from the physical but mental exhaustion and i stayed in bed as long as possible then got ready and left the room to go and search Jayen our driver so that i can stay away from this place.

Ryan and Sheena were sitting in the living area having breakfast when i made my poor attempt to hide and leave. "Hey Shailene, good you woke up, we are getting really late for the water activities. Finish up breakfast cause we are very late already" she huffed in that petulant voice. 

"I was thinking of taking a detox day, why dont you guys go-ahead and I will catch up" I told her. "We all go together or we cancel" Ryan said still not looking at me. "But she said she will catch up, come on baby you cant keep me locked-up only because she is tired. Let's go and  Shailene   will join, wont you  ?" Sheena was smiling showing her perfect fake smile happy with the fact that i wasnt the third wheel today.

"Yeah! Totally i will just hit the massage center and come to Kuta for the water sports" with that i quickly ran out of the villa. Getting a massage was great idea, i actually enjoyed my day alone going around the local and understanding how attached they are to their religion. I sat in a beach-side cafe little far from the villa for as late as possible.

Since it was a secluded place getting a transport back would be very difficult at midnight hence i finally left at 10 pm dreading going back to same emotional roller coaster. Once i reached the reception of the villa i saw many people on phone along with Ryan. 

"Ramatoa eto!" someone yelled after seeing me and every looked up. Ryan got up  walked towards me and slapped me right there infront of everyone. "Where were you? Do you think this is your local area that you can go around and come back so late! Dont forget in here you are my responsibility ! How can you be so irresponsible?" I just dint realized i was crying until the tears started falling from my face. Ryan looked at me and realized what he had done! He cursed himself and tried to come closer. 

"Dont you dare!" i said and ran towards the villa. I locked myself in the bedroom and cried for what i have gotten myself into. This was supposed to be simple fake marriage with us trying for a baby without any feelings and us getting divorced in next 3 years. Ryan banged on the door for very long and pleaded, explaining how worried he was that i was kidnapped or hurt and was extremely sorry. I am sure he heard me too since he kept asking me to open the door and stop crying but i was just really angry on myself for letting this happen.

Once i had no more tears left i washed my face and packed my bags. Ryan was sleeping on the chair in the living area. As soon as he heard the doors open he rushed to me and saw my bags. "I am so sorry, i was so scared of what might have happened cause you were just not reachable" He said with regret & guilt in his eyes. " Let me go please" i told him in my hoarse voice he pleaded with his eyes trying to hold my suitcase. " Please i cant do this anymore i cant cry so much for so long i will break Ryan!" my voice broke and tears pooled in my eyes.

" I want to go back" I told him. " I will ask Sheena to pack and we can leave in couple of hours" he said. "No, I wanna go alone Ryan" i tried again. "Please give me sometime when you are ready we can talk about kid, but please let me go now".