Foolish man…You do not dismiss a muse at whim. Nick Bantock Evan appeared thunderstruck as he confessed, "I have found things new in myself since we met. Sometimes I think it's the reason we met. Something pulled me into that club and I think it was you." He contemplated matters for a moment and asserted, "You are wrong about me leaving you, though. I can't leave you. I would be losing myself." I only smiled sadly at him. I wished that I was wrong but I wasn't. We finished dinner and cleaned the mess together. I had to ask Evan how to use the dishwasher. He asked with shock, "You've never used a dishwasher?" I shook my head and explained, "The house I grew up in was old. There was no dishwasher. I cleaned the kitchen in most of my foster homes, but I was the dishwasher. We had o

