BORN OF ENERGY

Six: Joshua Calinsky (A)

*Flashback(13 years ago)

"Josh....come back...give me back Emily" I whined while running after a seven year old Josh. I appeared annoyed with him,but I really had much fun when Josh would steal my doll;Emily and run away with her just to annoy me.

"Come back....hihihihi" 5 year old me managed to say while in a giggle fit and running after Josh.

After a while we got tired and lied down next to each other on the beautiful grass of the park we were in. After a while, I spoke

"Joshy we're just playing right? You wouldn't actually take away Emily right?" I asked while internally giggling at the silly nickname I gave him.

"No Maya, I wouldn't"

"Promise?"

"Promise"

I giggled as he ruffled my hair. That just resulted in us running around the grass playing over again.

*Flashback (6 years ago)

Josh is changing, I can feel it.

He hardly comes by anymore. When I force him to,he always gets frustrated and mad at me. I don't know what to do. He calls me childish and he's always staring at the box of jewelry my mum bought for me.

I caught him once trying to take it but he stopped once I got in my room. It's no problem though. I trust Josh with all my heart plus he promised we were just joking around.

He has started moving around with the mean boys at school. I think I saw him exchanging cigarettes the other day but he assured me I saw wrong.

I believed him.

............................................

"Hey Josh...hey Josh!!"I shouted as I rounded the corner and tried to catch up to him.

He turned around with a scowl and a bored look on his face.

"What do you want Maya?"

Ouch that hurt! He sounded so cold. What could I have possibly done to him??

"I.... I..." I stuttered.

"Get on with it,I have better places to be!" He spat out

I could feel tears stinging my eyes. But no. I won't cry. I'm stronger than anything. My dad told me so.

"Josh... I just wanted to talk to you, I don't want to jump to conclusions but I just wanted to know why you don't wanna hang out with me anymore,you always avoid me and you're always with Alex and Joey....." I said while fiddling with the edge of my sweater and staring intently at the floor. I didn't dare meet his eyes. I was scared.

I heard a groan.

"Stop acting childish Maya!" He shouted

"How do you ever expect me to take you seriously or think you're mature when all you do is follow me around and cry like a big baby....."

I touched my face. I felt droplets of water there. I didn't even know when I started crying. So much for being strong.

"You want me to always hang out with you alone?? What if I don't want to?? You're annoying and immature Maya. I don't wanna hang out with you ever again!!" He shouted out while fuming.

"Stay away from me Maya. I got new friends now." He said in a much calmer tone and walked away.

I slid down the walls of the corridor and cried. I cried till there was a little puddle on the floor.

I cried until all my tear glands dried of tears.

All I could do was stare emptily at the opposite wall,but I wasn't really enjoying the pink plaster on the walls. My mind was far off.

Far off to a time where 12 year olds weren't abandoned by their friends.

Far off to a time where 12year olds didn't feel the pain of abandonment

Far off to a time where 12 year olds didn't just stare at walls.....

I didn't Know what to do.

I was found like that by Aidsn who immediately called my parents,who came and took me home.

I guess after his fruitless efforts to make me talk to him,he gave up and decided on the wise solution to call my parents.

Thank God that day was a Friday.

I don't know how I would have been able to come to school the next day. I probably wouldn't have.

That weekend was spent watching movies with my parents, Jay,Aid,and lots of ice cream and popcorn.

Oh...the things food could do to a sad 12 year old girl....

I eventually got over my encounter with my former best friend. Luckily,Aiden didn't leave too. I avoided Joshua whenever I saw him in the halls and in class. I didn't wanna come close again because maybe....just maybe I might forgive him just like that. Deep down,he was still a little important to me somehow. I didn't know how catastrophic that would be to me till then..........

*Flashback ( Two years ago)*

"Hey! Maya!!" I heard behind me..

No it couldn't be. God no please. It couldn't be. Josh couldn't be calling me. He hadn't spoken to me in Four years. He was probably just calling someone around me with a similar name. After all I was walking in the hallway in a sea of students.

Yes that must be it.

That didn't stop my heart rate from increasing though.

Just in case,I pulled up my hoodie higher over my head and moved faster among the students. Damn...where was Aiden when you needed him?? I pondered while searching around for the familiar golden haired boy as I hurried along.

"Maya!! Mayana!!" The voice grew persistent.

No....it can't be me...

Well,unless there were two Mayanas in this school,it wasn't me.

In that moment, I really hoped there were two Mayanas in this school.

I felt a bead of sweat on my forehead. Did he really make me this scared?

It was when I felt a warm firm hand on my shoulder that I froze.

I totally froze.

I felt like a deer caught in headlights. Pretty sure I looked the part too.

I slowly turned around hoping and expecting to see anyone but Josh.

God please God please God please. I'll stop making fun of Jay and Aid but please

Nope. God seemed to have taken a pause in listening to me because right in front of me was Joshua Calinsky.

Whyyyyyyyyyyy?

"Hi Maya..." Josh spoke while scratching the back of his head and avoiding my gaze.

My internal lamenting was cut short as Josh spoke. Hi Maya?? Hi Maya?? Betrayal,hurt, four years of ignoring and the first words this jerk could tell me was Hi Maya??? Incredulous.

I suddenly felt anger. So much anger.