Posted: 01/25/2014
We weren’t a couple, not even in the broadest definition of the term. There was something real between us that we both had silently acknowledged; still we remained untethered to one another. It was brutal, confusing, knowing you were there, with me, but also not, like having a parasitic insect relentlessly gnawing on my brain stem but not actually doing any damage, not letting my mind wander too far into what might have been. Lord knows commitment was never once discussed. Over the weeks that followed the start of our … the start of us, I tried to think of ways to bring it up, but the timing was never right; it never felt like it was something we could even begin to discuss.
I heard the soft click of the door as you exited the motel room on our second night together, e
