Alpha Red

Chapter 1

I feel like someone is watching me, the hairs on the back of my neck are standing up. I shouldn't have watched that scary movie I'm always so paranoid afterwards. crash! what was that oo s**t I think that came from the bathroom I have to pee I have to pee but I'm scared going to go check I move around my black couch very slowly think like a ninja I walked through my kitchen my hands brush on the kitchen island knocking over my coffee mug I bolted to the bathroom if there's someone hiding they know I'm coming now I turn on the lights I sighed in relief I go check behind the shower curtain i scream I'm going to kill you thank God there is no one there oo my shaver fell out of the holder on the wall what would youhave done if there was someone behind the curtain run away screaming like a little kid I got to get ahold of myself I'm going to piss myself I wish I didn't live alone or at least get myself a dog. I finally relieve my full bladder I feel better now but I'm awake maybe I should watch a really funny movie to get my mind clear usually works and I will forget about the scary movie and my shaved burgular so is it you watch a funny movie first than the scary I don't remember well f***** if I did that wrong hmm let's see I go over to my massive movie collection and grab two movies I don't know which one I want to watch. Should I watch a funny or a romantic hmm first what time is it? I look at the clock that's in the kitchen it's f****** 2 in the morning dammit I don't have time to watch another movie. I have to Be at my sister's wedding in the morning but how am I going to fall asleep if I don't watch another movie. I might have to take some sleeping pills and set at least three alarms. if I'm late she's going to kill me who the hell plans a wedding Saturday morning at 10. my sister Molly does some normal people like to party on Friday nights watch scary movies but I love her and I'm so happy for her I wish I could find someone who looks at me like Jake my sister's husband to be does to her. they met in college Molly was a true nerd taking AP classes always having her nose in a book she was reading a book wasn't paying any attention and then bam ran right into him did I mention she was a klutz probably lose her head if it wasn't attached anyways she bumped into Jake spilling his strawberry smoothie all over his white polo shirt he was pissed he was already late for his online math class poor fella hated Math took one look at her and you know the rest of the love story. I'm so freaking jealous I will find my dream man. what do I do I can't sleep the sleeping pills haven't kicked in yet and I'm still paranoid I'm going to bug Austin see if he is awake Austin is what you would say friends with benefits and my date for the wedding. I don't see a relationship with him but he is so much fun to look at. he has these bright blue eyes that you could get lost in he's about six four and I'm about 5 2 what a shorty he has arms that are so strong could push mountains short dirty blonde hair used to be a police officer but decided he wanted to be a detective I love man in uniform he is really good detective he plays detective with me all day it's kind of annoying what are you doing I know where you are more like controlling we have been friends for more than I can remember He helped me through high school when the kids would pick on me since I was overweight we work together to help me lose weight and improve my self-esteem I'm forever grateful for his help where did I put my phone anyways I swear I just had it always losing my phone let's go check in the kitchen I guess gosh it is a mess I should clean. I have pizza boxes that I probably shouldn't have eaten Shake container, chocolate ice cream buckets you heard me right ice cream buckets and I'm on my period Should be ending soon thank God I hate getting it at least I know I'm not pregnant every month one benefit that freaking thing brings me everyday let's look in my fridge I grab a drink before starting to look for my phone I'm lucky if I can see the counter I need to clean but I'm too lazy to clean it's too much work but my anxiety kicks in after a couple of days of dirty house I will clean it then or if I know someone is coming over.