Returning to Liam's automobile felt like entering the void chamber after the emotional minefield that was the Rossi dinner. Ella leaned her head against the cool window, watching the neon blur of Brooklyn give way to the darker canyons of Manhattan beyond. Silence shrouded them thick, but within it, however, lay Aiden's unvoiced accusation and Liam's glacial reply.
'"He knows," Ella whispered barely audible; "He doesn't know what, but he knows it's not real."
Liam didn't even look at her. "Aiden's always been observant. Especially when it comes to you." He seethed in pause. "His threat was... unambiguous."
"This wasn't a threat against the charade," Ella said, turning her head to stare at his profile stark in the passing streetlights. "It was against you. If I get hurt."
Liam finally turned his head. His eyes, shadowed in the dim interior, were unreadable. "Then we ensure you don't."
So simple and emotionless, it almost felt like dismissal-empty as though avoiding hurting her were an additional clause in their contract. Looking aside, she saw faint warmth from Aspen, so very distant, foolishly dreamlike. The car halted in front of her apartment building.
"Get some sleep," Liam said, his cadence back to its CEO tenor, "around signing a Harrington contract, I suppose. Don't fixate on anything else."
Ella got out, keeping her mouth shut. Pressing down on her was the fake engagement, Aiden's unvoiced suspicion, and the icy tone of Liam. She needed somebody to cling to. Zoe.
Zoe Chen, Ella's college roommate and always a chaotic best friend, lived in a vibrant, plant-choked loft in SoHo. Ella found her amidst a sea of fabric swatches and sketchbooks as she was designing her latest avant-garde collection.
"Ells!" Zoe hurled herself onto Ella, enveloping her in a cloud of patchouli and silk. "Sough! What was it like after Mount Doom? Did you and the Ice King thaw? Got under the same roof?" Mischief sparkled in her eyes.
Ella sank onto Zoe's overstuffed velvet couch and buried her face in a sequined cushion. "Aspen was a catastrophe-the home of Aiden, family dinner, and Liam. It was... apocalyptic." Zoe listened with wide eyes as Ella spilled out the forced cabin intimacy, the waking terrors about being entangled, Liam's devastating "it wasn't terrible," Aiden's surprise reappearance, the awful dinner, and Aiden's dangerously protective threat.
"Whoa," Zoe breathed when Ella was done and handed her a mug of strong jasmine tea. "That's... a lot. Okay, first things first: Spooning? With Liam Sterling? And he didn't turn into a pillar of salt? Progress!"
"That's not progress, Zoe!" Ella groaned. "That's breach of contract! That's catastrophic lapse of judgment! I was asleep in judgment!"
"Or maybe," Zoe suggested gently, perching on the arm of the sofa, "your judgment finally shut up and let your body talk. Bodies are smart, Ells. Sometimes smarter than brains cluttered with rules and past baggage."
Ella shook her head vehemently. "No. It was cold. It was instinct. Nothing more. Liam made that clear-'We ensure you don't get hurt.' Like I'm a liability to be managed."
Zoe's face became sober. "Okay, about Aiden... pretty heavy. His brother radar's on high alert. And Liam's reaction?"
"Frozen. Like usual. Except...," Ella hesitated, recollecting the way his fingers lost color around his coffee cup. "When Aiden threatened him... Liam didn't back down. But he didn't reassure him either. It was just... cold acceptance."
Zoe analyzed her friend. "Ells, there's something I have to say. You know I love you. And you know I think Liam Sterling is a glacier who does not express feelings and keeps them in a refrigerator. But..." She took a deep breath. "Be careful. Serious caution. Not just because of Aiden. Because of Liam."
"Meaning what?"
Zoe leaned forward, dark eyes serious. "Commitment-phobia is not a cute trope in the case. Liam Sterling? His entire life is built on control. Like transactions. Like mergers and acquisitions. Love? Vulnerability? Real intimacy? Those are uncharted, hostile territory for him. His parents' marriage never made any sense. His father is a notorious control freak. Early life taught Liam that emotions are liabilities. That love is a weakness to be exploited."
Ella stared at her. "How could you make this out?"
Last year, do you remember my awful date with that venture capitalist from Sterling's board? He was drunk and chatty. He spilled so much tea about the Sterling family dysfunction. How Liam's father arranged marriages for social climbing and how his mother was... broken by it. Liam saw it all. He built that icy wall for a reason, Ells. To survive." Zoe touched Ella's arm. "This fake engagement? It's the perfect setup for him. The image, the convenience, the shield against gold diggers like Isabella - zero emotional risk." He gets to play the devoted fiancé without ever actually being vulnerable. Without ever truly committing."
The words struck her like blows. Ella recalled Liam's behavior, his transactional approach to their arrangement, his immediate retreat into ice after having beenifice after the vulnerability of Aspen. Zoe was right. The charade was Liam's ultimate safe space. "And you-" Zoe went on to say softly." "It is fire. You have history with him-painful history. Lovely, very minute daily illusions. You share cabins. You defend him in boardrooms. Wake up way, tangled together. Your body is responding, Ells. But your brain is screaming 'rules!' " She pointed to the notebook Ella had dropped from her bag onto the sofa. "And don't think I haven't seen you scribbling in that thing lately. Journaling about the hot CEO sharing your bed?"
"It is notes." Strategy!" Ella corrected, snatching the journal away. "Uh-huh." Zoe raised an eyebrow in disbelief. "Just... promise me you'll guard your heart. Liam Sterling might be thawing around the edges, but that doesn't mean he can do real warmth. And you?" She cupped Ella's face. "You deserve the real deal, not a contractual heart. Don't confuse the performance for the person. Don't confuse proximity for passion. And for God's sake, don't confuse 'it wasn't terrible' for 'I love you.'
The journal was warm in Ella's hands, with leather cover. Zoe's warning was resonant with all the terrors that lodged during the Aspen trip. To Liam, fortress built on fear. His thaw might just be a c***k in the ice, which would soon be repaired. Letting himself feel anything real for him was walking into an emotional minefield blindfolded. The performance was perilous enough. Falling for the actor playing her fiancé? That could be catastrophic. Zoe was right. She needed to guard her heart. Because, ultimately, he was the most dangerous variable of all; the real Liam Sterling behind the CEO and the fake fiancé.