Chapter 8- Loss for Words
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Paxtons POV-
I just stood there looking at her in silence. I was shocked to say the least, I was going to be a dad. Was I ready for this, did I want this, can I be this? Obviously I was taking to long to say anything as I saw Selene's face drop as she started to head towards the door. "Wait." I said. "I'm sorry it is taking me so long to respond, I am just trying to sort out what is in my head." I laughed slightly and she looked at me with this scowl on her face. "I guess you can say I am at a loss for words." She opened her mouth to speak a small tear running down her cheek. Oh no did I make her think I didnt want this. "Selene, please don't cry, trust me I want this baby with you and I am over the moon about it, I was just scared because of what I do, of who I am. But I promise you that with everything I am I will be there for you and this baby and protect you both with my life." I told her as I cupper her cheek, slowly wiping away the fallen tear with my thumb.
She leaned into my hand as a small smile spread across her face, She looked up into my eyes and I think at that point I knew exactly what I had to do. How long would I be able to keep from her my plans I do not know. "You really want this baby, our baby?" She asked me, it was almost a whisper but I heard her loud and clear. "Yes, I want this baby, this is our little miracle. Our everything." I told her with the utmost sincerity. I may be a vicious mob bosses son, but that does not mean that I cannot care for the woman I love or the child of mine she is carrying inside of her. "I do have one question though." I said. "How long have you known, did you know before you left or after?".
Selene looks at me, her eyes brimming with tears. "I knew before, that is why I left. I am so sorry Pax, I never meant to hurt you but I was scared, Scared of raising a child into this life, scared of what they would become. Please forgive me." The tears now streaming down her face, she buries her face in my chest and I can feel her sobs. I sit there while she cries, wondering if I am mad... After some time I tip her head up so I can look into her eyes. "Selene, baby I am not mad, Honestly I think that if I was in your shoes I would have done the same exact thing you did. But I have to know, if you have been pregnant this whole time who did you train without hurting or loosing the baby?"
That was the biggest question on my mind. Any woman who is in this mafia and is pregnant are not allowed to train, it is our law. So how did she do it without hurting our child? "It wasn't easy at first, we had to come up with alternate ways for me to train that avoided me getting hit, but being able to learn how to take a blow and strike a blow any time I needed." She said. I looked at this woman with adoration. She was perfect for me, and knowing that she was carrying the next heir of the mafia was tough. No one could know about this yet for her safety as well as our child's. I saw she was getting tired so I walked her over to the bed and lied down with her head against my chest. "Sleep now my sweet queen, and soon very soon, we will have our happily ever after." I can feel her breathing even out so I know she has finally fallen asleep, I do not move as I do not wish to wake her. I need to get a plan in place to protect them both as well as making this woman my wife.
( AND THAT IS EXACTLY WHAT I DO.)
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