Against Her Will

Episode 6

“It was nice to meet you Lani but I have to go now, only a select few servants are allowed in here.” Lavendar said smiling at her before she left as Leilani walked around the room in awe before she heard the door open and he walked in from behind her.

“What the hell are you doing here?” She asked as she turned around to face him.

“This is my room, where else would I go?” He asked her bewildered as he tried to stand still but his head was really feeling weird, he’s never felt like this after being drunk, what was wrong with him and there was also the aroused state he had been in for ages, he had never wanted a woman as much as he did now. He had controlled it though because he wanted to see his son who had been fast asleep. He had smiled at that before he bent down to gently caress his head as he said, “Today I did something I thought I’d never do again and yet here I am, it’s all for you mi pequeno. I love you so much and I hope that she’d come to give you the mother’s love you deserve.” He then kissed his son’s forehead before making his way to his room, it was hard for him to navigate where he was going with the amount of alcohol he had drank but he had thankfully made it.

“This is your room? Then where is mine?” Leilani asked him now confused.

“This one obviously.” He answered as if he was talking to a child.

“Absolutely not, I am not staying in the same room as you.” Leilani immediately refused before she noticed that he was walking towards her and she started backing away from him in alarm. She suddenly found her back pressed against the other side of the wall as he caged her against it. “What the hell are you doing? Get away from me!”

“You are my wife now and therefore you will stay in my room or the servants will talk and then the rumours will spread so stop struggling, you’re staying with me, are we clear?” He asked, he didn’t even wait for an answer before he bent down and kissed her, it wasn’t gentle in any way and she struggled against him trying to push him off of her, finally she managed to push him off of her and slapped him right across the face as she backed away from him.

“What the hell is wrong with you!” She shouted as she wiped her mouth with a disgusted look on her face. He turned to look at her with enraged eyes before he walked up to her and grabbed her arms painfully, and she couldn’t help but cry out, they had been hurt too much today, she really didn’t think she could take anymore, it was literally throbbing. He threw her on the bed as he got on top of her and she froze at the position she was in, it was so familiar and immediately the memories came to the forefront of her mind causing her breathing rate to increase as she tried to get away from him to no avail, he was as hard as rock.

“The contract specifically said that we were to consummate our marriage so stop f@#$&! struggling.” He demanded and she could smell the alcohol on his breath, god he was beyond drunk, how many frigging glasses did he drink she thought before he forcefully slammed his lips down on hers as his hands roamed her body causing her to sob as she frantically tried to get away from him.

The memories that she had tried so hard to supress started to play on repeat in her head and she knew she was in the midst of another panic attack. She was too weak to push him away and he didn’t stop, her wedding gown and lingerie littered the floor as he took advantage of her in the most horrendous way, she had long since stopped sobbing but the tears kept on flowing. She had tried calling for help in the hopes that a servant would here but he covered her mouth with his hand as he bit down her neck and down her body, she hissed at each bite, she knew she was going to have bruises all over, added to the ones she already had. If he wasn’t drunk he would have probably seen the scars littering her frame, most of them given to her by her oh so precious uncle.

She had never done it before and she was so frightened but no matter how much she had tried to beg him to stop, he didn’t, he was in a world of his own and there was nothing she could do to snap him out of it especially when she felt like she couldn’t breathe and this sapped out all the energy she had, she couldn’t even manage to push him away at all but when he lined himself with her entrance and thrust into her, she couldn’t help the scream that came out of her mouth at the agony she felt, he didn’t stop, he didn’t give her time to adjust, so every thrust felt agonising until he finally finished inside her and laid down on the bed immediately falling asleep.

She lay there staring at the ceiling with tears falling down her cheeks before she hurriedly wiped them away and limped painfully to the bathroom. She walked inside and turned on the shower head until it was scalding hot, she stood under there not caring about the burn as she scrubbed herself raw, once she finished cleaning herself she switched the water off before collapsing in the bathroom stall curling herself into a ball as she cried for the loss of her innocence. She remembered the day that she had nearly lost it, the day that people her uncle owed money to had shown up at their house and had demanded payment. She had been 16 years old at the time, it had been right after… she didn’t even want to think about that day that she had lost everything.

When they had been shouting about the money her uncle owed them, she didn’t say anything and she wasn’t stupid enough to open the door but in their anger they had broke it down, not expecting that at all she had ran to her room, or at least she tried to but they had grabbed her and had tried to r**e her instead. They had gotten so close before Lucas had arrived to give her her phone which she had left at his house and after seeing what was happening, he had gotten so enraged that he had beat the s**t out of all of them before calling the police who arrested them thankfully, if she hadn’t been injured, he would have probably killed them from what she had seen that night.

After that day she had had panic attacks and she flinched when a guy came near her so today had been a nightmare. She couldn’t even tell Luke or Isabella because she knew they won’t let this go and they would get her away from him but she couldn’t let that happen no matter how much she wanted to run out of here as fast as possible and never look back because that would mean her friends would pay the price. She had never felt so helpless, even when she was being lashed with her uncle’s belt, this was worse, she had never ran away when she was younger for fear of going to foster care and being given to someone worse than her uncle. She’s heard stories of some girls who had been taken advantage of in foster care and she’d rather be beaten up than used like that and yet, that had happened to her anyway.

She dried her tears before painstakingly lifting herself off the floor, she was thankful the walk-in wardrobe was connected to the bathroom so she went inside to find half of it filled with men’s clothing and half of it hers so she quickly got a nightie to wear before changing into it. She walked out the room and not wanting anyone else to see her in this state she walked to the sofa on the other side of the room and lay down there after grabbing a pillow from the bed.