COMPLETELY UNDONE BOOK TWO

Chapter 15- They Look At Me...As I Look At You..

Chapter 15

Olivia's P.o.v

I lay there motionless, replaying my words... realizing I can't take them back.He slowly sits up, resting on his elbows.He let's out a slow, almost exaggerated exhale."Via... don't... don't do this." I sink further and further into the mattress, hoping that somehow it'll swallow me whole.He tries to pull me towards him... but my body just goes limp, as if he's dragging a corpse across the bedsheets."Olivia... don't, I need you, please don't shut me out. Not this time." He tries to kiss me. I turn away from his embrace.I stare off into the distance, unable to look him in the eye anymore, fearing if I do.... somehow, the power he has over me will win once again...only I won't survive it... I won't survive Him.He traces the curves of my face as if he's searching for a small trace of wanting... of desire ... of him left in me, and I pray he doesn't find any.

He takes my face into his hand.."Via, please look at me, baby." I do as I'm told, and he sees nothing looking back at him... just empty, hollow eyes."I asked you to leave.. Leo.. please. " Something in my voice is missing as if it doesn't belong to me.He releases me and slowly climbs off the bed as if I'll beg him or take it back before his body completely rises from it's surface.He stops himself before reaching the door as if some invisible force is pulling him back..back to me.."Olivia...I don't know why..." his head drops as he searches for the words..."I do love you, I don't,... I won't hurt you anymore."I sit up, hugging my legs to my chest,staring blankly at him because I have nothing left in me to give... to say...I search in his eyes and see it.."I know you do... I know you th... you think you love me, Leo.." My words begin to sink into him, and I see the hurt written all over his face." I know you don't wanna hurt me... but you did... and you will... and ...now...now I've hurt you.Now I'm as bad as you... Does it feel good, baby? You still want me."I begin to let out a small sob.. I try to stop myself.. I push my knees closer to my chest, forcing all the air out of my lungs til it feels like I might suffocate.He slowly walks away, a moment later, I hear the front door slam and the air all around me feels ....heavy.

I lay in bed for a few days...til my sheets no longer smell like him.i gotta get out of this house, out of this bed.I look out my small window, and it's already dark outside..I need to get him...both of them off of me, out of me...I scream as the scolding hot water burns my bare skin, I wanna tear it off... I don't wanna be her anymore... the stupid fat girl ... I don't wanna be this. I get dressed and head out.My brain is in a fog as i step into a cab. I get out in front of a crowded bar and push past the sea of people as I struggle to get towards the open bar stool, the counter is sticky and smells of stale beer and lime.I order vodka and soda as if somehow that'll lessen its affect on me.I chug it down as quickly as I can as if I'll change my mind mid gulp and stop myself. I order another one... deciding to slowly sip it because my head is already beginning to spin. After my third attempt at finishing the glass, I felt something nudge my shoulder.I turn and look up from my glass and see a pair of dark eyes staring back at me.His lips part as they sip from his red solo cup. His face is flushed, and his square jaw relaxes in a half smile.His words are impossible to make out over the crowd and the music blaring over the sound system.I shout at the top of my lungs that I can't hear him.I take another sip and I'm starting to feel my body sway to the music.He pushes up against me, getting close enough to my cheek that his stubble makes me try to push back a bit.."Let me buy you a drink.."He's practically shouting in my ear. I raise my glass towards him in hopes that he takes the hint.He pulls me in closer, and I feel the warmth of his chest against my forearm... He smells like Ralph Lauren and liquor... "Come on, let me buy you a drink, you look like you're looking for some trouble.." I smirk and take another hard sip of my drink.I put my hand on the back of his neck and pull him closer to my lips..."And what if I am?" My words are slurred, and I feel warm all over as he slides his hand on my lower back.I knock back the last of my drink and push myself back from him.I make my way towards the bathroom but stop and look back and see he's still watching me before I head inside and shut the door behind me. I wash my face in hopes that the cool water would help the room stop spinning. I let the water run as I stare in the mirror, my face is flushed from the alcohol and I can barely stand to look at myself when the door opens.Before I can say a word I realize it's him....he shuts the door behind him and locks it, I stare back at him from the mirror and don't say a word. He walks towards me, and I'm forced to face him.He places his cup on the counter and barely grazes my thigh... He uses his other hand to tuck back a loose strand of hair behind my ear before he follows the curvature of my jawline...."Trouble, huh?" I grip the counter of the sink behind and don't respond.. He caresses my cheek before he slowly traces my bottom lip with his thumb.I watch as his dark eyes follow down my body... His black shirt fitting closely to his body..I see part of a tattoo exposed on his left forearm. His dark bown hair complimented his tanned complexion..."You sure that's what you really want?"...Without saying a word I took his entire finger into my mouth and took it as far back into my throat as I could...twisting my tongue around it and applying pressure before slowly pulling it back out of my mouth as if somehow that was a way to answer his question.

He bit his bottom lip and wrapped his hand around my throat... I close my eyes as his hand goes up my thigh, past the invisible barrier of my dress, and finds my panties. He pulls them to the side and begins making circles on my clit...He pulls me closer to him "f**k girl, you're already wet?" I nod into his cheek.I find his lips and he taste like rum and sugar.His lips trail down my face before briefly resting against my ear.."You sure you wanna do this, I don't even know your na..." I cut him off before he can finish his sentence...I don't want to think anymore.."Stop f*****g talking.." I tease his c**k through his dark colored jeans...He cups my ass with his free hand before smacking it hard and I moan into his mouth.He props me up onto the counter and continues to tease me with his fingers as I struggle with his belt... I bite down hard on his bottom lip as I feel him slip his two thick fingers inside of me.He breaks his kiss..."You..want to baby?"I free his c**k from his jeans and spit into my free hand and begin to stroke it."f**k me.."A look of surprise and adrenaline flash across his face ...letting out a sharp exhale before roughly grabbing me by the face and kisses me once more. He struggles with a gold foiled wrapper from his pocket, and I begin to lose my patience...I take it from him and slowly roll the condom down the shaft of his dick.He pulls me closer and tilts my hips towards him before ramming every inch of himself into me..."Harder..."He complies..I wrap my leg around him and begin to match his pace.."f**k you feel so good girl.." I shut my eyes and try to drown out his voice...I bite down on my bottom lip..."Har...Harder ma..make it f*****g hurt"....I begin to dig my nails into his back and he let's out a loud groan..."f**k you like it rough don't you baby.." I nod..He grips my throat tightly to where it's becoming difficult to breathe..." Yeah... you like that baby?" I nod again... I tilt my head back, he pulls my dress down, exposing my bra..."f**k you're so sexy..." I tell him don't stop... I barely notice a tear falling from my face..

He quickens his pace, he's slaps me hard across the face and I smile as if I like it....I grab a fistful of his shirt to level myself to push into him harder..."f**k baby I'm so close"...The doorknob begins to rattle followed by a banging on the other side.He bucks into me faster...the banging gets louder and more rapid..."We're f*****g busy go away". His voice is horse and deep..dripping with excitement and lust....He pushes my head into the mirror and let's out a deep moan "Fuckkkkk..." I feel his c**k pulsate inside me as he cums.

He tries to steady his breathing before pulling me in for a kiss.He slowly pulls out...tosses the condom in the trash can..I study him without saying a word...I begin to fix my dress and climb down from the counter...He traces my lips once more.."Can I know your name beautiful..."The banging becomes more aggressive...I shake my head ..."I ...I have to..to go".I slowly push past him and unlock the door and I'm met by an angry woman yelling what the fuck..I push past her ...I hear him vaguely saying something but his words are lost in the crowd... I feel something rising from my chest... I have to get out of here quickly... I barely make it to the door and onto the street before I feel the bile rising from my stomach and splatter onto the pavement....my breathing is ragged and my head is pounding as a voice begins to scream back at me....

My name is Olivia Jane Vega.... and I'm a f*****g drunk whore....