Becoming The Werewolf Queen

Chapter 012

~~Esmeralda~~

It had been two days since I told Lily about Aurora. I’ve not heard or seen anything since that day, Aurora and her friend saw me and just went their own way. I had no idea if Lily had done something to them or they were just planning something.

Either way, I really love the temporary peace. I wouldn’t even call it temporary peace, because there wasn’t peace at all. Aurora still gawked at me as though she was waiting for the perfect time to strike.

Though she had a pained expression on her face each time she saw me, it was almost like she didn’t like the fact that she couldn’t touch me. Lily wouldn’t tell me what she did to her too.

But that wasn’t even the worst part, it was Killain. He avoided me like plague like always, but his eyes followed me around like a hawk. I couldn’t even really do anything without feeling like he was right behind me.

His presence was around me at every time, and it looked like he didn’t ever leave my head too. He had been distant, but his recent stared burnt deeper than the accusing ones he used to give me when I first got here, when he used to see me as nothing but a spy.

But now? The bond between us had tightened so badly too. I honestly didn’t understand what was going on between us. It was really driving me insane. It definitely wasn’t a mate bond.

If it was, I’d have felt it in my soul. There’s no way we’d be mates and we’d both not know. It wasn’t a mate bond, what exactly was it then? My heart ached even more, I’ve been doing a lot of thinking these days.

The sensation I felt with Killain was darker, very different from what it felt like with Thorne. It felt more like an ancient entity trying to break free.

The fact that I barely even have time to think about other things always ends up making me angry. I should be thinking of what to do with my life here, I definitely won’t be on probation forever.

The pregnancy? I have to let them know very soon. A lot of people have started warming up to me. And I miss my father so much.

But I’ve not had time to really think about those things since that night, since that night that his wolf took over and his touch was on my skin. That night that his voice made me wet underneath and I inhaled my favorite scent again through me.

Killain, what exactly are you doing to me?

“Don’t you like the food?” Lily’s voice brought me back to reality. We were in the dining hall, having lunch.

“Uh, I do.” I mumbled.

“Why did you keep turning the food and playing with it too? Are you okay?”

Then I realized that I really haven’t taken anything into my mouth since I zoned out.

“Oh, I was just thinking. The food is good.” I took a spoonful of it as soon as I said that. The food really tasted good. And it’s not like anyone in particular cooked for the pack, it was all based on rotation.

Lily told me my name had been added to the list too, and I’ll be among the people making breakfast next week. I took that as progress at least, and it meant that I was slowly getting off probation.

“What are you thinking about? Is it Aurora? If it is, then you have nothing to worry about. The girl is mentally ill in my own opinion. She blames anyone if something she wants doesn’t go the way she planned. And she dares not touch you.”

A small smile found its way to my lips, I didn’t even realize that i smiled. It came instinctively.

“She’s the least of my problems actually. But thank you for having my back though.”

“Is it Killain then? I already told you that he’ll come around. They won’t accept you that quickly, but they will.” She was talking about Carson too.

I told her everything that had transpired between me and Killain since the first day. I only let out the pull stuff, and the things that happened on that night. I didn’t know if Killain would appreciate it if I told her.

It’s just the pregnant news that I’ve not broken to her, and I think I want to do that now. It’s not until the baby bump starts showing that I’ll do that.

“I actually want to tell you something.” I cleared my throat, putting aside my food. The timer for lunch went off, meaning everyone had to evacuate the hall.

Some boys came to get Lily almost immediately, reminding her that it was time for practice. She had to ask that we postpone the discussion.

I walked out of the dining hall after clearing our table, going to get ready for training too.

I was on my way to my room when I perceived my favorite smell again. Killain. I stiffened as soon as he got near, I didn’t even realize that I had stopped walking.

“You really should stop tensing up around people, it makes them think you’re hiding something.” He said.

“I’m not.” I mumbled. It’s just that I forget how to do the simplest things with him around.

“You shouldn’t be here, you’re not meant to be here at all.” He said, making me look into his eyes.

“Why? You want me to leave your pack?“

“I didn’t say that.” He said back.

“Then what did you mean by that?” I asked him.

“There’s something embedded inside you that even you don’t know yet. That part of you calls out to a dark part of me that I’ve buried deep for years.”

For some seconds, fear gripped me. He was talking about the pull, I knew that. But what does he mean by a part of him that he had buried?

“What do you want me to do then?” I just had to ask.

“You shouldn’t be here in this pack with someone like me, we can never cooperate. One of us will die.”