Chapter 20I am going to try to quit thinking about the future from now on. I am just going to live in the moment the way I want it to be. I am going to live it to the utmost, armed with the knowledge I have gained in the past. That is something I have not been able to do in recent years. I am constantly so worried about how things will end out that I forget to live in the moment, and as a result, time has passed and I have not had the opportunities that my contemporaries had. I do not want to have any regrets, therefore I am going to enjoy my life to the utmost. My spirit is ecstatic. I felt as though a huge object had been lifted from my shoulders. As I felt the rain, I grinned. Oh, how I adore it. It feels so lovely to just lie down in the grass and not think about anything or be conc

