Forgive and Let Go (Completed)

JP's point of view (8 years ago)

f**k. f**k. f**k.

That's all I can say over and over again as Liv sleeps hugged up to my arm in front of me. I did not mean to fall asleep on the couch with her.

Being this close to her only makes me want to rip her clothes off of her and make her scream my name. She has no idea the kind of effect she has on me. What sucks, even more, is the fact that I really don't think that I can have any kind of relationship with her besides a friendship. I'm going to talk to my lawyer about this. Why can't I have a relationship with someone if Maggie is sleeping around and she has our daughter? I shouldn't have to be miserable, should I?

Liv's phone begins ringing causing her to let go of my arm. She doesn't wake up though. Maybe I can pull my arm off of her and get up without causing her to wake up. I slowly pull my arm from off her waist and pull myself up off the couch.

Success! She moved just a little rolling to the back of the couch but she didn't wake up. I grab the cover off of the chair beside me and lay on top of her.

I have been with a lot of girls, that's no surprise there, but standing here looking at Liv makes me wonder why I couldn't give that up all together for her 2 years ago. She makes me want to be a better man. Liv has that natural beauty. She doesn't have to have makeup to make herself look good. She is the only plus-size girl I have ever been friends with let alone dated, but she is just perfect. She is perfect in every way you could possibly imagine. Olivia is the wifey type. I do wish I could go back and change the way things played out but I can't. The only thing I can do now is try to make up for what I did. Especially if there is any chance that I can take things further than just this friendship thing we have going.

I go grab my phone from the kitchen to check the time. It is currently 10:30 in the morning.

Going to the front door I open it and step outside into the morning sun. I dial Nick's number and wait for him to answer.

"Hello" Nick's voice sounds rough like he just woke up.

"Did I wake you?"

"Well.. yeah. It's fine though. What's up? Where did you stay last night? We never heard you come in."

"I'm at Liv's place. She had an eventful night."

"What do you mean?"

"Well when I got here for our plans, Austin was here. When I walked in Liv was in tears telling Austin to get off of her. He had her shorts shoved down to her ankles while he was .... well let's just say I'm glad I walked in when I did. I beat his ass and told him he better not ever show his face around here again."

"What the f**k! That piece of s**t!" I hear Becca in the background. Thanks for telling me I was on speaker Nick.

"Well since I am on speakerphone... I need advice. I might as well let Becca hear what I have to say too because I know you will tell her, Nick."

"What's up?"

"I miss her."

"You miss who?" Becca asked.

"I miss Liv. After staying here last night with her and talking to her, it made me realize just how much I miss her."

"Ok, so first things first. Have you told her this?" Becca asked another question.

"Of course not. There is no point in telling her when I'm not sure I can even have any sort of romantic relationship with her."

"What do you mean by that?" Nick asks.

"Maggie hates Liv. I have a feeling if she were to find out that I was with Liv she would do everything in her power to keep my daughter from me. As much as I like Liv, I couldn't chance it. I was thinking about calling my lawyer and setting up a meeting with him to just see what he says."

"Yea, I think that would be best. Talk to your lawyer and see what they think. I don't think it's right that you can't be with someone though. Everyone knows that Liv is a great person. It would be good to have her, if anyone, on your side. Romantic or not." Nick says and Becca agrees.

Just as I hang up with them the door opens behind me.

"Hey, I thought maybe you had left." Liv looks at me with a sigh of relief.

"Nah, I just came out here to make a quick phone call. I didn't want to wake you. Do you want to go to town and get breakfast?" I ask her as we both walk back inside.

"Sure. Did you want to go get your stuff at some point today and get it moved on over here?"

"Yeah, I'll go after we get some food. Did you want to tag along?"

"Please, if you don't mind."

"Nope, not at all."

"Ok, well I'm going to go take a quick shower. I'll be right back. I think I have some of your clothes in the hallway closet if you want a change of clothes."

"Ok, thanks"

She turns and I watch her as she walks down the hallway. She has on baggy pants but I can still see the outline of her ass sway as she walks. I can feel my gym shorts getting tighter around my manhood. I have got to make an appointment with my lawyer ASAP. If I don't I'm going to drive myself crazy. Olivia drives me crazy. Why she has this pull on me, I have no idea. One thing I do know, I want her. I want her in every way possible.