Forgive and Let Go (Completed)

We are over (10 years ago)

The night turns into morning. I tossed and turned all night and did not get a wink of sleep. JP never even texted me to let me know that he had made it home. I sent him at least 10 text messages asking him to please let me know something. Finally around 7 I pull myself out of bed and go downstairs. Luckily my mom and dad are still sleeping. I put a pot of coffee on, I know I'm going to need this entire pot. I'm still not sure where last night went wrong, even after a long night of thinking I'm still stumped.

Around 8:30 I send Becca a text.

Liv: Are you up?

Becca: Yeah, I'm at Nicks. How was your date?

Liv: I was good until it wasn't. Do you happen to know if JP made it back there?

Becca: He's not with you?

Liv: No. He brought me home and left.

Becca: Oh. I'm sorry Liv. We aren't sure where he is. Nick said he will text him and see where he is if you want him to.

Liv: No don't worry about it. If he wants to talk to me, he will eventually come around. Have a good morning. I'll see you and Nick tonight at dinner.

Sliding my phone back into my pocket and finishing up my cup of coffee I go back upstairs. If JP didn't go home last night then where is he? I have all kinds of thoughts running through my head, none of them are good.

***

It is now 6:00 P.M. My parents and I are on the way to the restaurant where we will meet up with Nick and Becca.

"Did you tell JP he could bring his sister with him?" My mom asked me from the table once we were all seated.

Before I could answer Nick spoke up, "His sister?" I looked over at him and saw the confused look on his face.

"Yeah, JP said he couldn't come tonight because he had already made plans with his sister."

Nick looked over to Becca then back at me. "Oh"

"What is that look for, Nick?"

Nick glanced at Becca.

"Umm.. Liv. JPs one and only sister died 5 years ago." Becca answered for him.

"Oh. Ok." Everyone could see the disappointment fall over my place.

"Honey, are you ok?" My dad asks.

"Yeah. I'm fine. Let's order."

About an hour in my phone starts going off. JP was calling me. I ignore the call of course. Not too long after that, I get a text message from him.

JP: Please call me. I need to talk to you

Liv: I'm out with my parents, Becca, and Nick right now

JP: Ok. Well, where are you? I will come to you. I need to talk to you.

Liv: We are at Texas Road House

JP: Ok. Be there in 5

"JP is on the way. He says he needs to talk to me" I inform everyone. They all nod.

"I'm going to the restroom. Becca, want to join me?"

"Sure, I'll be right back babe," She tells Nick and gets up to walk with me.

As we enter the bathroom my phone dings.

I take it out of my pocket and my mouth nearly falls open. It was a video of JP. Not only of JP but also Maggie. He was wearing what he had on last night when we went on our date.

"Liv, what's wrong?" Becca comes over to stand by me. I turn my phone so she can see.

The video showed JP sitting on a bed as Maggie strips for him. She walks over to him and kisses him before slowly getting on her knees and helping JP take his pants and boxers off. Well, you know what comes next.

Becca yanks the phone out of my hand turning my phone off. "You do not need to watch that. I'm going to kill him."

I feel a tear slide down my cheek. "I don't understand. I don't know what I did. Or maybe it wasn't me. Maybe he really hasn't changed."

"It was not you Liv. You did everything right. I'm sorry."

"No wonder he needed to talk to me. He wanted to make up some bull s**t excuse before I saw the video."

My phone dings again. It was JP letting me know he was outside. He wanted me to come out. Of course, he did.

"Will you be ok?" Becca asked me.

"Yep. You know me I may be hurt but I can handle it." She hugs me and we walk out of the restroom. Becca goes back to the table and I head outside.

As soon as he sees me he walks up to me.

"Hey." He says

"Hey"

"I'm sorry I didn't text you last night when I made it home. I crashed right time I got in"

Already with the lies. I don't know why the f**k he would think that he could lie to me about being home. He must not remember that my best friend is dating his best friend. I keep my calm though.

"Oh, it's ok. Don't worry about it. What have you been up to today? You haven't called or texted me."

"I just stayed around the house mainly."

"What about your sister? Is she in your truck?"

He looks away from me and then back at me before lying once again, "Oh no. She left about an hour ago. She only came over for a couple of hours"

I didn't say anything I just stood there and looked at him, waiting for him to come to his senses and tell me what really happened. He doesn't though.

"I'm sorry I acted the way I did last night."

"Why did you?"

"Honestly, because you told me you would be leaving. I took it as you leaving me"

"JP, I have had these plans long before I met you. I wasn't leaving you, I was just following my dreams. I wanted us to stay together. I would come back to see you and you could come to see me. Hell, I know it's early but I even thought that maybe you would consider moving too."

"I know this now. I'm sorry. I shouldn't have acted that way. Can we put this behind us?" He steps closer to me. I take a step back.

"Of course we can. But in the process of putting this behind us. You need to go ahead and put me behind you. We are over JP."

"What?"

I laugh. I can't help it. I just laugh. After I control myself I look him straight in the eyes and say, "f**k you JP. I knew from day one I should have walked away. But I gave you a chance. I thought maybe you could change. I honestly thought you had changed until about 10 minutes ago."

He went to speak but I cut him off, "I'm not done yet. You told me you went home last night, but you didn't. You never went home. Then to tell me you had plans with your sister. JP, I don't know what kind of f****d up game you are trying to play with me but I know your sister passed away 5 years ago. I also know you were with Maggie. She sent me a nice video of you two. I wouldn't have believed her but you had on exactly what you wore on our date last night."

"What video?" He asked. Obviously still trying to figure out a way to talk himself out of this one.

I pull my phone up and pull the video up. Pressing play I turn my phone around and show him. I couldn't read his face. I have no idea what he was thinking at that very moment. I lock my phone and put it back in my pocket.

I give him a chance to say something, anything at all. But he just stands there looking at me.

"That video, that f*****g video JP." At this point, I can not control my feelings anymore. I have tears running down my face. "It was honestly nice to be happy for a little while. But as usual, nothing lasts. I am so grateful you pushed me away last night. If you hadn't I would have done something that I would have completely regretted." I turn around to walk off but he grabs my arm.

"Please, Olivia. I made a mistake."

Yanking my arm back from him I had to ball my hands into fists so that I wouldn't punch him right this second. "A mistake? No, you made a choice. I may not be the best-looking girl in the world but I am a smart one. I deserve better than this. Have a nice life JP."

I don't even go back into the restaurant. I send a text message to Becca to let her know I was going for a walk. I couldn't go back in there and face them. Not when I could no longer control the tears running down my face.