The Climb Back to Your Heart

Chapter 1

His head was occupied by the floor. The longer he stood there, the more the water from the showers felt nothing. The water reached every inch of his body, no exceptions. He's been thinking of how he will be once he stepped into the world of real adults. He's been imagining a perfect settled life in a new country and possibly find a guy who's interested. Yes, Kiefer has been gay all his life. So dating has been quite difficult in all his teen days. But he experienced dating a bisexual guy. But is broken hearted to have caught him flirting with a girl. Well, he doesn't have any p***y to compare himself with the female species, plus, being jealous of both gender is quite tiring. He's got nothing to do but do well in college and look forward ro the future.

He finally came back to his senses and stepped out of the shower, he can't afford to waste more water because has been living on his own in a small unit, enough for him to live and afford with his part-time job. He was been balancing all his studies, his part-time job and his hobbies. And now he's living away from his mom. He actually had to beg her to let him live on his own unit.

Kiefer took a towel and dried himself. He dressed himself for University. He's unusually early today because he needs to read more about the literature throughout the history. He is planning to become an English teacher. A very assuring job, he will surely survive with that kind of profession. The walk to the University is just a ten minutes walk, but the walk to the library takes forever. The heat is never a problem for him, he lives up in the mountains where the climate is normally cold. It's the month of February, it's usually cold in Baguio City at these times, and the month when tourists come over. Aside from Valentine's day, Baguio City also has Panagbenga festival. A grand festival for Baguio City that is made up of flowers floats and tourists. Just tourists. Kiefer doesn't really like walking around Session road with all those huge flock of tourists, but he would go if he is with his two friends, Maya and Josh. A couple. A couple that he's been jealous of. He want the exact same intimacy between them. But his gaydar seems to be broken and can't find a guy that is interested with him.

He finally reached University and he luckily bumped into Maya and Josh. Maya is always jolly whenever she sees Kiefer, but it never troubled Josh at all. The three of them grew up together, and they all know each other. Nothing will make Josh think of anything about Kiefer. He actually sees him as a sister that he'll need to take care of.

They all went to the library. Like any library, the silence deafening. The only noise Kiefer can hear is the flipping page of books and faint footsteps. He then started reading a book. Time passed for the three of them. Josh was the first to leave as he is from a different department, Agriculture. Maya is from Accounting department. It is not so long until Maya and Kiefer started to head out to their classes. Kiefer entered the room and carried on with the lectures, it was funny that he can still carry on with this cycle everyday. Then lunch came. They are eating in the cafeteria when Maya said "Kiefer, today is Valentine's day and we have a plan to make your gaydar work again" Kiefer was excited to hear "Okay let's hear it" Kiefer answered with excitement. "We plan to go out partying and you will go on a mission to look for a boyfriend" "We are so tired seeing you single" Josh added with a little laugh. "Well, we'll see" Kiefer let off a giggle and they all continued eating.

The night for Kiefer came and the three of them are ready for a boyfriend hunting for Kiefer. They entered the club and the heard the deafening bass in the music and saw the blinding lights. They occupied seats and started to order their drinks. Maya and Josh started to shake it off and Kiefer is left, drinking, swiping through his phone and, alone. Kiefer continued on until a guy sat on Maya's seat. "Hey there, you alone?" "Oh I'm with my friends" Kiefer answered while pointing out to Maya and Josh. "Aha, I see. Would you like to drink with me and my friends, it's pretty boring right?" The guy seemed to be nice and he also pointed out to his friends. Kiefer stood up and followed the guy "By the way, my name is Adam, Adamson Velasquez. You can just call me Adam" "My name is Kiefer Diaz"

Adam cleared a seat for Kiefer, just next to Adam. "Guys! Let's welcome Kiefer, a lonely third-party in a couple's Valentine's day date" people in the table then started cheering and pouring him a glass. "So, Kiefer, are you working or studying?" Adam asked "I'm a college student, sir" "Gosh, you don't need to 'sir' anyone here, well, except for that grumpy guy in front of you" Adam concentrated his voice on Kiefer's ear, "That guy's name is John Hamish Black. He looks foreign right? His mom is a Filipina but she died after giving birth to him. And so his dad bea-" "What nonsense are you spouting Adam?"

A deep and terrifying voice stopped Adam from talking. The man's stare is very intimidating that it sent vibrations down Kiefer's spine and spreads to his arms until every tip of his fingers. "Well, I'm just introducimg you to young Kiefer here" Kiefer nodded his head and tried to smile while looking into his eyes. His face, body, even his voice is exactly Kiefer's type. Well, he doesn't seem to be the kind of man who is gay. Plus he has a girl right beside him, caressing his chest and is almost glued on to him. "The boy can call me Hamish" "He doesn't like to be called John because his dad gave him that name" Adam whispered to Kiefer's ear.

A whole hour past, Maya texted Kiefer, "Josh and I will be going to eat somewhere else, you seem to be enjoying there XD. I hope you'd be able to bag a man tonight" Kiefer then continued drinking with those people and had conversations with them. Adam was more like the organizer in their group. It turned out that they are a bunch of business men and the owner is their business partner. Since it was all on Adam, they all continued to drink until they are wasted. Kiefer managed to control himself as he didn't know them that much. Kiefer remained sitting as the guys started leaving, all is left is Adam, Hamish, some two other guys and Kiefer. Time went by and Kiefer is so entertained by Adam. But Hamish's stare made Kiefer worry as the hours passed. It is as if he can look through him, and he saw the gayness that sits within him. The more of them leave, the more it is suffocating for Kiefer. He wants to run away and never go to that club ever again. And finally, it's just the three of them left. "How old are you boy?" Hamish asked. Kiefer is almost stoned by his question yet managed to answer "I'm 20 sir, how about you guys?" "That guy is an uncle, he's 30 I'm 25" Adam answered, it's so obvious that Adam is so drunk yet he can still manage to talk. "He is the oldest in our grou-" "Can we dance?" a soft yet seductive voice held on to Adams arms. Adam, with all his speed left, agreed to dance with the seductress. And now it's just Kiefer and Hamish. It was quiet and awkward. Kiefer tried to start a conversation with "Well, what do you do in your business?". The man didn't answer, just looked at him. Kiefer is so intimidated and was even more when Hamish spoke, "Are you gay?"