The Alphas Mate

Chapter 14

Kaiden looks deep into my eyes its as if he can read whats on my mind and to tell you the truth all i wanted at that moment was him. If he really could read my mind he would deffinately know all the dirty thoughts i had imagined.

we just lay there with him staring into my eyes. but before we could continue anything he stopped and moved away from me.

whats wrong? i asked

i dont think its the best idea to get into all of this before we have actually sorted out whats been bothering you. i know that we are married but i dont want whats supposed to be the best and most memorable time of our life to be regarded a mistake by you later on.

i respect you too much to hurt you Sierra. if you havent noticed my life is yours now. my heart beats only for you. and i live everyday now for you and you alone.

Then tell me everything kaiden. your past and your present. i cant trust you completely if you keep secrets from me.

as i say that kaiden approaches the bed with a worried look on his face.

you know kaiden nothing you tell me will ever make me leave you. nor will i judge you or disrespect you. you telling me is going to be good for us and our future. trust me please

The man from lastnight is Karl. He was once my fathers bestfriend. He worked side by side with my father. Our families basically lived together. if his family werent at ours than wed be at theres. I grew up infront of him. Cici and i grew up with his kids. He had 2 sons James and Isiah and a daughter Julie. Julie and i were really close and from a very young age she started liking me even though i knew she wasnt my mate because i didnt feel a deep connection with her but our families made a perception that we were mates. But when the time came for our 18 birthday she found out that Liam my bestfriend at that time was her mate. She couldnt handle the truth. she always supressed her feelings and made herself believe that i was her mate. she rejected liam. because of this liam and his family started causing problem in town and were banished. as for julie she decided that if i couldnt be with her than she wouldnt be with liam so she took her own life.

From that day onwards julies family and mine drifted apart. her family blamed me for her death. her father shows up time to time at places or events to tell people that im not a good person. but everyone in town new that julie was obsessed with me. she wouldnt let me go anywhere without going with me. i felt caged in my own house but because i didnt want to hurt her i just accepted what she did and never corrected her.

everytime i see her family i feel this guilt in me that i cant get rid of. i blame myself for not helping her or correcting her.

Its not your fault Kaiden. you have to understand that your actions were only to protect her. Julie made herself love you without realising the consequences it would bring both of you. and never once did she realise that you would want your mate in time to come. mate bonds are different from actual feelings. even if you decided to play along at the end of the day you would want your real mate. she didnt give liam a chance and she just didnt end up hurting herself but she hurt her family and liam as well in the process. now he has to live with so much pain.