Marilyn Monroe said, "It is better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring." I did both, then what’s next? Being bored and being ridiculous are nothing compared to the emptiness I felt. It occupied so much space inside me, like a typhoon raging in the open field. I almost died twice and was saved twice by the only person in my mind and in my heart.
What if I died? Lucifer may be a better companion than my emptiness. What if I kill myself now? My enemy will laugh at my inanity; who cares?
I was not born with strength. I have learned how to be strong on my own, but my strength is not enough to fill the blank space inside me. I have read that love is an open sesame to my soul; it lights the path to finding the essence of who I am. Is this who I am? A cowardly fool, I can’t even u
