Ocean Of Lies

Confronting

JASONS P.O.V.  

After Mindy and Ron left the room Willow broke the silence while I was still regaining feeling in my arms  

“So, she still does that” Willow said laughing, God I missed this laugh, I want to hear it for the rest of my life, oh god you i***t, stop thinking like that. You are supposed to stop yourself from feeling this way.  

“Yeah, she still does that” I said chuckling back. Rubbing my neck  

“So, we need to talk” Willow said fiddling with her hands.  

“Yeah, we do... but it's okay, because its important.” I said reassuring her. Putting my hand on her leg she looked up and gave me a small smile. 

“Okay, Jason. You know how important the mate bond is to me. And I would never be with someone who broke it for me.” Willow said with a face of determination.  

“I know Willow, I need to learn to control myself. We were not meant to be for each other and I see that now” I said back to her with a smile on my face. It may be forced but it's what she needs to see.  

“I’m glad you do Jay, but know that no matter where we end up in this world. A piece of my heart will always be yours, even if we aren't together or meant to be.”  Willow said to me. Her eyes are full of hope and wonder, for the future.  

“Willow, I’m sorry for how I acted, I shouldn’t have---” I started to say sincerely before she cut me off.  

“I know, and it's okay. Apart of me liked it; which Is why I pushed you away. It is hard for me Jay; I just came back and everything is still raw. I don’t really know what to do or how to do it anymore, I was used and abused. I was...I can't even say the word. Forced to do things I didn’t. For years. And every day I wished for death. I know it sounds bad but I did. And I couldn’t help myself. I fell back into what I used to know, before everything. With you; but Marissa, it's not fair to her for you to be here with me. Which is why I think it would be best for me to stay alone tonight...” Willow trailed off and I knew I couldn’t bring myself to leave her. Or to ask her to talk about that happened in the past but a part of me really just wanted to know what happened so I could help fix her, fix it.  

“Willow if you ever want to talk” I started to say but was interrupted  

“You’ll always be here to talk, I know. I just don’t feel like talking right now Jay.” Willow said fiddling with her hands again  

“Okay, I understand. But I'm here, for whatever.” I said giving her a knowing look and a reassuring tap on the shoulder  

“I know, thanks Jay. I can always count on you.” Willow said standing up and opening her arms for a hug.  

I stood up and hugged her, of course I wasn’t going to deny her a hug; but maybe, I have just been finding ways to touch her? Like not a s****l touch but just in general? Maybe I just need to find Marissa and apologize about everything again and hope I can make it right. 

“Are you ready Willow?” Aunt Mindy popped her head in to check.  

“Yeah, I’ll see you later Jay.” Willow said releasing me from our hug I didn’t even realize was still happening 

“Yeah, okay... Later” I said waving to the door. And next thing I knew I was all alone again.  

WILLOWS P.O.V.  

Mindy and I set off, with the doctors okay of course. To a therapist? I’m not really sure, I just know I'm supposed to talk about all my problems, but there's one problem that’s weighing heavy on my heart right now, and I really don’t want to talk about it.  

“Hi Mindy! It's so good to see you again!” A strange voice said as we approached an office, I was already tired from the walk, which the doctor said I would be and gave Mindy some snacks and drinks to help me regain energy.  

“Hi Lena! This is Willow, I’d like to talk to you for a second before she comes in...” I heard Mindy say.  

“Mindy, can I have my drink please?” I asked with a low voice  

“Of course honey.” She said while handing me one of the 5 drinks out of the bag.  

When I looked up, I was met with a beautiful woman, probably about late 40s, Brown hair with silver streaks through it and beautiful brown eyes, almost like chocolate, with glasses that fit her face perfectly. 

“I’ll be right back, okay?” She said as she walked in the office and closed the door. I just nodded, what was I supposed to do? I'm confused as to what I'm supposed to do anyways? Go in there and talk about all the problems and stuff I went through in the last 5 years? Talk about all the stuff I had to do? All the stuff I was forced to do? I don’t even know where to start. I don’t know what to say, and what am I supposed to do with my hands? Oh god I should just leave and walk back before they come back out, I should just leave---- and before I could react to all the thoughts going through my head the door opened.  

“Hey Willow, would you like to come in now?” Lena asked me, she was nice but I could see the pity in her eyes, Mindy told her.  

“Yeah, is Aunt Mindy going to stay in there?” I asked with a crack in my voice, I really didn’t want aunt Mindy to hear what happened to me.  

“Just for a second, and then she will leave and we can talk all you want.” Lena reassured me.  

“Okay” I said standing up and making my way through the door.  

“So, Mindy filled me in on some things but I really just need her to be here to sign for you since your parents aren't here and you’re under 18, okay?” Lena said sincerely.  

“Okay.” I answered trying to get her out of the office as fast as I could. I know it's hard when someone comes back from being kid napped but on the other hand, I don’t want to tell her anything right now.  

“So, Mindy you can go now and I'll bring Willow out when we are done.” Lena said to Mindy and with that she put down the bag of snacks and drinks and left.  

“So, Willow, would you like to make yourself more comfortable?” Lena asked me, I knew she was trying to get me to trust her; but I didn’t have any reason not to.  

“I’m okay where I'm at, and I really don’t know what to do here.” I responded trying to get her to realize I'm not fragile. 

“Okay so typically we can talk about whatever you want to, Mindy told me something happened a couple years ago but we don’t have to just dive in; we can take it slow and figure out our own way to go about this If you would like?” Lena suggested to me.  

“Would we be able to record all of it?” I asked her with a tone of confidence in my voice 

“Can I ask why Willow?” Lena asked me confused.  

“I don’t want to have to explain what happened more than once, if I'm going to explain it; I want to be able to just record it and be done.” I answered holding my head high and trying so hard not to cry.  

“Okay, if you would like to record it, I can do that” Lena answered me with a smile and grabbing a tape recorder and setting it up perfectly so that way it could see me and hear me.  

“Okay, so just for record purposes. What is your full legal name, and what is the reason for this meeting?” Lena asked.  

“My name is Willow Elise Heart, and I was Kidnapped and held captive for almost 5 years; This is my story.” I said with the upmost confidence.  

“Okay Willow, so tell me what happened” Lena said as a respectful older woman that I didn’t know I knew I wouldn’t have much of an issue talking about the things I was forced to do.  

“It was Wednesday, fall to be exact a week before my birthday, I was supposed to be meeting my friends at the mall, which I walked to because I was already in town with my parents and they had my body guard follow me. Just in case. Before I knew what was going on I woke up in a room I had never seen before, door was locked and bars over the windows. I started panicking. Then the door open and 3 men came in and 1 woman. I didn’t know who it was at the time. But soon I started putting the pieces together. I was locked in the room for days or even weeks at a time. I tried to escape when I was allowed out and struggled to live, for months it was like this. I was starved and beaten. I was forced to do s****l things on the Alpha. His name was Kris. Nothing he did ever left physical scars expect one.” I started to tell her what happened but was cut off.  

“Can you show me the scar?” Lena asked politely. 

“Yeah” I said standing up and making sure the camera could still see, I pulled down the side of my pants and took off the bandage that was on it, in all its infected glory.  

“Okay, continue please Willow” Lena said as I fixed myself and sat back down.  

“For a while nothing bad happened, I didn’t try to leave because I tried and failed a lot. I waited. And for a while nothing happened, No one came. I was allowed to watch tv but not a lot. And not the news. Unless it was something about giving up the search for me so then I would think no one cared enough to keep looking. I struggled to sleep most nights and spent them showering or preparing to make food for the next day, I got really good at drawing. Being afraid to sleep I was able to keep myself occupied with the little things, sometimes I even enjoyed what little food I was given, chewing more so that way it felt like I was eating more. When I was beaten for not doing something right it was with whips or something that wouldn’t leave scars, expect of course the one time. It was about a week before I was saved. I had dropped a plate, and of course it broke. I hadn’t eaten in a few days and I was so tired from the lack of food I just dropped it; I was cleaning it up when someone came in and saw what did and immediately, I was drug up to Kris, I had never submitted to him, and I never did. I vowed I wouldn’t until the day I died. His way of trying was cutting me with a silver knife, which I'm sure you know is the worst pain for a wolf, But I didn’t yell, I didn’t move, I didn’t flinch. It burnt like a b***h but I knew that’s what he wanted. Directly after he touched it and made me wince; he called me darling. I got a lot of that, darling this darling that, slut, w***e. Whatever he wanted to until he got what he wanted he told me he branded me. How f****d up is that? Like I was a prize-winning cow only he got to touch. Well, him and his wife. His beta came in. He was always nice; sneaking me food. Letting me do whatever I wanted as long as I didn’t leave the pack house. I think he cared for me...Felt sorry for me maybe? I don’t know, What I do know is that for almost five years I was beaten, starved, I was forced to do things I didn’t want to that giving in was just so much easier and maybe if I pictured doing it with someone else it would be better, which it always was. So, whenever I would be forced to do things, I would think about doing them with someone else. It wasn’t always easy. But it worked; and for one more day, I wasn’t killed. Until one night, about 2 am. I heard a loud noise outside of my door. And it opened. I was surprised to say the least when I saw Luka. He found me. He saved me. He brought me to his pack and went to mine. And for that I will be forever grateful. To him I owe my life I so desperately prayed would be taken away.” I said, trying to get as much out as I could. I hadn’t even realized I was crying I was so focused on everything that had happened, flashback after flashback. I was just trying to find the right spots and put the pieces together.  

“So, you said you didn’t know who the woman was, do you know who she is now?” Lena asked me and rightfully so.  

“Her name is Cece, and her husband is Kris. They were mated and marked. They knew what they were doing when they were doing it and they got off on it. Sometimes Kris would do stuff to me and Cece would watch, sometimes the other way around, sometimes alone, and sometimes together, but they always knew.” I said looking at her. Trembling from the flashbacks coming all at once again.  

“How old are you Willow?” Lena asked me.  

“I’m 17, 18 in a week.” I answered.  

“How old were you when this started?” Lena asked me again, I know she’s trying to figure it all out, so I don’t have to explain it to anyone else, but it hurts so f*****g bad.  

“I was 15 when it started, and it didn’t stop until the day I left.” I answered again. Tears still streaming down my face trying to compose myself. Trying to collect my thoughts.  

“Did you have s*x with anyone else before you went missing?” Lena asked.  

This one caught me off guard, I should have expected it but was I really ready to tell everyone I slept with Jason? 2 days before I went missing...  

“Yes...” I answered briefly  

“Who?” Lena asked quickly.  

“Jason.” I answered quickly which took her by surprise, hell took me by surprise.  

“When?” She asked after collecting her thoughts 

“2 days before I went missing...” I answered again.  

“Had you slept with anyone else before Jason?” Lena asked, man she was really popping the questions out and quick  

“No, I was a virgin.” I answer quickly  

“Was Jason also a virgin?” Lena asked as she wrote stuff down again. More focused this time then not  

“Well of course there are always rumors but Jason told me he was and I believed him” I answered honestly.  

“How old was Jason?” Lena asked.  

“He was 15.” I answered quickly just trying to end this.  

“What kind of things did you do during your kidnapping?” She asked again  

“I cooked, cleaned, laundry, dishes, did yard work sometimes. Mostly I was made to stay in the room.” I answered again.  

“Okay, and what happened if you didn’t get that stuff done?” Lena asked  

“I was beaten, forced to submit which I never did. I was forced to do s****l things.” I answered lowly, basically a whisper. I was tired, and tired of this.  

“Okay Willow. Please state your name again and the reason for this meeting.” Lena said again giving me a reassuring look 

“My name is Willow Elise Heart, and I was kidnapped 5 years ago, this is my story!” I said and tears started falling from eyes again and I couldn’t stop them.  

“Thank you Willow, I'm going to turn the camera off now.” Lena said sweetly  

“Okay, but can I say one more thing?” I asked.  

“Of course,” Lena said gesturing to the camera  

“Today I shared everything that happened to me. I don’t feel stronger, yet I don’t feel weaker. I know that you are watching this, and I’m sorry for telling you this way. I don’t think I could tell you myself.” I said again with my head down and tears streaming from my eyes.  

“Are you done now Willow?” Lena asked again and I nodded my head. I didn’t have anything else to say. I couldn’t have anything else to say. I said what I needed to.  

“I turned the camera off, I'm going to call Mindy in, is that okay?” Lena asked and I nodded my head again 

“Mindy, please sit.” Lena said  

“Did everything go okay?” Mindy asked me and I nodded my head again.  

“She talked about a lot, more than I expected her to. Once you ahold of her parents I want you to bring them here so I can show you all. Is that okay Willow?” Lena asked again. I nodded my head again, I just wanted to leave. Go back to my room curl up in a ball and go to sleep. 

“Okay, that’s all for now but I would like to talk to you later Mindy” Lena said again before waving us off. I walked back to my room drinking the last 2 drinks that were left, it was like I couldn’t drink enough, I was scared. I really didn’t want to be alone tonight but I knew I would be. When I finally reached my room again  

“Do you want me to come in with you?” Mindy asked me 

“No, it's okay. It's getting late and I really just want to sleep.” I answered  

“Okay honey, I put a cellphone in there with my number and Ron’s number in it. Oh, and the kitchen. If you need anything just call, okay?” Mindy said as we said our goodbye.  

“Okay, Thank you!” I said as I opened the door and Mindy walked down the hall.  

I opened the door to the biggest surprise I have seen in a long time. Jason completely re-did my entire room and was sitting on a floor bed setting up a tv. There were sparkling lights all over the room and a bunch of blankets and pillows, but the best thing of all was the fort he had set up for me. Not to mention all the snacks and food and drinks he had.  

“Hey!” He yelled and waved me in  

“Hey” I said with a smile  

“I know you said you didn’t want to be alone but I figured if you were going to be here bit why not spruce it up for you? Child style” He said and winked. I started laughing I couldn’t hold it back anymore 

“Child style?” I managed to mumble out through my laughter.  

“Yeah! Like when we were kids and would have sleepovers? We used to build the best forts!” Jason said laughing  

“Thank you, Jay” I said and hugged him. 

As much as I didn’t want to admit it. Being alone didn’t sound so great after all. Especially after that meeting I just needed to feel close to someone, someone that wouldn’t make me talk about it. I couldn’t possibly pass up some time with my best friend. And that’s when it hit me. Why not sneak all my friends here into the hospital for a midnight sleepover?  

“Hey Jay?” I said looking up at him while sitting beside him 

“Yeah Willow?” He answered keeping his eyes on the tv  

“Is this just something for you and I or?” I asked fiddling with my hands  

“What did you have in mind?” He asked with a smirk on his face 

“I was thinking about inviting Jess and the girls...” I said still fiddling with my hands still  

“That’s a great idea Willow!” He said and ran out of the room. I sat there dumbfounded and confused. 5 minutes later he came back. Jess, Alyssa and Megan walking in right behind him.  

“See I knew you wouldn’t leave us hanging!” Jess said excitedly 

“What?” I asked confused. 

“I kind of already told the girls to be on standby in case I made it weird again “ Jay said rubbing the back of his neck  

“Awe, Jay!” I yelled pulling him into our group hug. The girls were just a little taller expect for Megan. But Jay towers over all of us. He looked down at me and I up at him, this wasn’t a look of pure lust or true love. It was the type of look where I knew he loved me, but boundaries were set, he rested his head on my and he kissed my forehead. Finally, I felt safe. We stayed up half the night just talking and watching different movies, eating snacks and just having fun like children again with random dance parties and sang along to movies we remembered. Eventually everyone else had fallen asleep but Jason and I.  

“Jay?” I asked him quietly  

“Yeah?” He answered to my surprised, I figured he would have fallen asleep  

“I can't fall asleep” I whispered on the whole other side of the bed, I was in between Megan and Alyssa and Jess was beside Jason because Jason wanted to make me comfortable.  

“Come here” He whispered again, I tried to grab my blanket but Alyssa was using it to, well she basically stole it from me.  

“Just leave it” Jason whispered and left out a small laugh at me struggling to get it back.  

“Fine!” I whisper yelled and threw my hands up and walked over to Jason 

“Sit” Jason said patting the bed beside him 

“Jay...” I started to say wearily before he cut me off 

“Willow sit down or I will make you” Jason said sternly  

“Okay fine” I said and plopped down beside him  

“What now?” I asked sarcastically, rolling my eyes. 

“You’re a big goof.” He said letting out a small sigh and wrapping his arm around my shoulder pushing my head down onto his shoulder. He covered me up with his blanket and playing with my hair.  

“Is this okay or too far?” Jason asked concerningly  

“It’s fine Jay, we both agreed we are just friends. If you feel like it’s too much then stop. You are mated, I’m not” I said reassuringly  

“That’s the problem Willow. I can’t seem to find the line when I'm with you so I need you to tell me” Jason said looking down at me.  

“How would Marissa act if she was here right now?” I asked him as if I didn’t know.  

“Oh, she would kill me” He answered and left out a small chuckle. I lifted my head and removed his arm from around my shoulder and placed his hand on his lap. 

“Then, that’s how you know you’re crossing the line” I responded and sat there quietly finishing the movie.  

“Willow...” Jason said to me trying to get my attention  

“What?” I answered without looking at him 

“I’m sorry, I don’t know how to act around you...” Jason said knowingly.  

“I know, and the sad part is I don’t know how to either, it's been so long since I've been around someone who actually respects the mate bond that I forget what it's like.” I said reassuring him  

“What does that mean?” He asked questioning me.  

“Well, it's like when someone doesn’t care about the mate bond and they do things in order to hurt the other person, but the other person actually gets off to them being intimate with someone else.” I responded eyes fixated on the TV. This wasn’t something I wanted to talk about.  

“Willow, I don’t know what to say...” Jason responded again I could tell his eyes were on me, I could feel them burning into my soul while still watching T.V.  

“Nothing Jay, please...” I said looking at him with pleading eyes.  

“Okay Willow. If that’s what you want” Jason replied returning his gaze back to the T.V.  

“I’m still going to treat you like I would any other time though so come here” Jason said pulling me back over.  

“You are crossing the line again Jay....” I said started to get anxious.  

“Willow we are friends, sometimes if Jess is having a hard time, we sit like this to and Marissa is fine with it. She can’t be fine with one and not the other. Willow you were my best friend before you went missing; you will always be my best friend through and through.” Jason said looking at the tv playing with my hair again.  

“Till we die?” I asked looking up at him.  

“Till we die” Jason said looking down at me and then back to the T.V.  

Slowly after sitting there for a bit, I started to drift off to sleep; but not before I saw Marissa peak her head into the room and look at Jason. After a few more moments I felt Jason move but to my surprise he wasn’t getting up he was laying down, and pulling me down with him so I was laying on his chest. I felt at peace and safe. Right here in this room, will forever be one of my best memories.