The Heart Of Everything

18. White pants?

I wake up to small footsteps and I find little Bella, with her teddy bear in her hands.

"Hi." I say and rub my eyes as I sit on the edge of the bed. She smiles and runs towards me, I pick her up in my lap.

"I'm hungry." She tells and I nod as I yawn. I am pretty sure the clock is six in the morning.

"Yeah, let's find something for you to eat." I smile and then lean back to kiss Kimmie's warm cheek. I walk down to the kitchen with the little one in my arms. It is so quiet and dark here, last night, it's kind of nice to be alone, with Bella. I step towards the refrigerated barefoot to find something for her to eat.

After finishing eating, we sat down on the couch to watch TV. As like Bella is to Kimmie, she always wants to sit on my lap. I lay my arms around her as I lean my head back on the couch. Waking up after just five hours of sleep. Makes it is not easy to keep my eyes open.

"Hi, Bella." Well, that was for my five seconds of relaxing until Molly came in to interrupt.

"Hi." The little on say, too busy to watch the cartoon on the television.

"Hello, babysitter." Molly says, grinning at me as she sits down next to us.

"Good morning." I tell her, not even bothering to be offended by her and she snorts. There is even no need to be insulted, I like being with Bella. I jump in my seat as I feel a couple of arms around me and a kiss on the top of my head.

"Hi." My princess whispers in my ear and then kiss the side of my head.

"Hi." I tell her and kiss her cheek.

"Okay, you two need to stop before I throw up." Molly says and I clench my teeth.

"Swallow it." I tell her as I turn to kiss Kimmie on her lips.

"Grows." Molly complains and it makes Kimmie smile on my lips.

"You are early up." I tell Kimmie as I lean back in the seat and she laid her arms around me again.

"Well, you weren't there." She says as her mother comes in the door.

"Oh, there you are." Kate says, looking at her youngest daughter.

"Yeah, she came in and said she was hungry, so we ate and then sat down to watch TV." I explain to her.

"Well, thank you. I got to sleep a couple of hours more." She says satisfied and I am just glad to help.

"No, problem." I say as I mess up the little one's hair. Kate smiles brightly to me.

"Okay, who want's coffee?" She asks and Molly and I raise our hands. Kate wanders into the kitchen. I move Bella of my lap and stand up.

"I need to change..." I look at Kimmie up and down.

"Clothes." I say to the girl who has stolen my black tank top and my sweatpants.

"Comfortable aren't you?" I ask with a raised eyebrow. She nods with a happy grin on her face.

"If you are going to use all of my clothes, what am I going to wear?" I ask her and itch my neck. She bites her lower lip, and I put my hand over my face while shaking my head.

"You steal her clothes?" Molly asks as Tyson sits down next to her. His black hair a little messy.

"I like her clothes." Kimmie says as she put her arms around me. She looks up to me and I roll my eyes.

"They are comfortable and they smell good." She says and I smile as I kiss the top of her head.

"I'll come back." I tell her on my way to leave.

"White pants!" I hear her yell as I am on my way up the stairs and I roll my eyes.

"Oh, my god." I mumble to myself.

"White pants?" Kimmie's granny asks me as I met her and I feel my cheeks warm up.

"She wants me to wear white pants." I tell the confused women.

"Why does she want that?" She asks, confusion written over her face.

"Because she likes my ass." I tell her straight out and she burst out in laughter, and it makes me chuckle.

"I like you." She says as she rubs her eye.

"You should probably listen to little Kim, she has a high temper." Mary says and winks, I roll my eyes.

"Yeah, I am not so sure. Kimmie does weird things when I wear them." I tell her and she laughs again.

"You just say things right out don't you."

"Sometimes." I tell her and keep on walking to my room listening to the laughing old women laugh.

"You do it."

"No, you do it." I walk right into a discussion between Kimmie and Molly in the hallway. They both look at me in quiet.

"You do it!" They both say and point at me. I scratch my neck in confusion.

"I-I have to do what?" I ask.

"You have to go out and play with Bella." Molly says, and I shrug.

"Sure, I can do that." I say and look down at the little red-haired who is already dressed. She jumps up and down with a toothy smile. How can you say no to that? And I get to go out in the snow, away from Molly for a little while. Kimmie kisses me fast on the lips.

"Thank you." She says gratefully. I just smile as they both walk away.

After getting dressed, I am finally out of the crazy house. It's cold, but the look of the white snow makes me glad.

"So, what do you want to do?" I ask the little girl who is holding my hand.

"I want to make a snowman." She tells me eagerly, shaking my arm.

"Okay, okay," I say laughing.

"Then we do that."

Technically, I was the one ending up with making the snowman, but Bella was good to find rocks to use as buttons and eyes. She even went inside to her granny to get a carrot for the nose.

"What do you think?" I ask my little friend.

"I like it." She says so happily and I agree with her. It looks nice, but I think it is time to go back inside. It's getting dark and my feet and hands are cold. I take Bella's hand and walk inside.

"Hi." I say as Kimmie comes towards us.

"Did you have fun?" She asks us and Bella starts babbling while I take off my clothes. When I finally have taken of mine, and Bella's, I follow both of them into the living room with the rest. Bella sits down in her father's lap. Percy and Tyson sit next to each other talking with a beer in their hand. While Kate is having a conversation with her mother and sister. I look at Kimmie who just wrapped her arms around me.

"Sorry, that I made you take Bella out." She says guilty, and I shake my head.

"No, it's fine. We had fun and it was nice to be out in the snow. It's been years since that happened." She looks at me smiling now.

"But, since you weren't out in the cold with me, I am going to give it to you." I say as I put my hands on her warm skin on her back.

"SAM!" She shouts and jumps away from me, everyone stops talking and look at us. I chuckle at her reaction.

"You are not allowed to touch me." She says, pointing her finger at me, and I have to suppress my laugh.

"I am not sure if you can handle that." I tell her teasing. She is always the one that can't take her hands off me. Kimmie looks at me irritated.

"Fine." She sighs and takes my cold hand in hers, leading me to sit down in the chair and of course she sat down on me like yesterday. The rest has gone back to their conversations. I kiss Kimmie's forehead, enjoying her warmth. She lays her arm behind me, and start stroking my neck. It feels so nice that I could have fallen asleep. I am so tired after just five hours of sleep and being outside with Bella for almost an hour.

"So, Sam, what are your plans for next year?" I hear Molly ask me and I look at her with my tired eyes.

"You mean school?" I ask to make sure and she nods. College is not something I have thought much about since I got an offer from a scout for a couple of months ago. He said I was good enough to be their second goalkeeper for the first team, and I was flattered. The best of all is that the school lies in the same town, just a twenty-minute drive.

"I got an offer from a scout in soccer and I guess I am going to accept it." I tell them and shrug. I have no idea what I want to be, but I love soccer.

"What position do you play?" Percy asks wondering.

"Keeper." I answer lightly.

"Are you good?" Molly asks, with the usual teasing tone.

"She is very good." Kimmie interrupts me, but it's nice that she can answer for me.

"She is so eager when she plays that sometimes she gets hurt." Kimmie tells and I feel my cheeks turn warm.

"You didn't have to tell them that." I say a little embarrassed. She smiles teasing me and I roll my eyes.

"You got kicked in the head once." Kimmie says with a raised eyebrow.

"It wasn't that ba..."

"That bad? You were almost unconscious, Sam." She says making her statement and I roll my eyes.

"Like that is something new." I joke making Percy and Tyson snort loud. Kimmie looks at me irritated. Hey, I have been punched and kicked a lot. It's nothing new when it comes to me.

"Well, you have been really good to keep your face pretty, lately." Kimmie says. I snort and put my hand over my face as I feel the heat in my cheeks.

"You fight a lot?" Molly asks curiously and I look at her as I clench my teeth.

"Umm... not on purpose." I explain Molly uncomfortable, and she looks at me confused.

"I am just very unlucky." I say, well I am. Most of the fights I have been in is not my fault.

"So people just hit you without a reason?" Molly asks in confusion, but most of all to get under my skin and it is working as I grab Kimmie's pants. I stare down on my own hand.

"Molly, stop." Kimmie says irritated by her aunt, noticing my hold on her.

"She has never hurt anyone." She says and I take a deep breath to calm myself down.

"Are you sure about that?" Molly asks I don't look at her, my eyes are attached to my hand. Kimmie turns to me and I meet her doubtful eyes. I swallow hard as I push myself out of the seat. Leaving everyone as I walk up to our dark room, thoughtfully. I sit down on the bed, completely lost to the world. Did I really hurt someone? I mean I said many bad things to them. I never really thought about it, I was busy having fun.

There is a knock on the door, but I can't get out of my zone. I stare at the floor until Kimmie sits down in front of me. I met her eyes and she looks at me worried, but still doubtful. She has all the right in the world to look at me like that.

"Are you okay?" She asks me concerned. I just look at her, lost in my thoughts.

"Did-did I ever hurt you?" I ask, feeling so damn guilty that the tears run down my cheeks. I am most scared if I have hurt her, because I promised myself not to. Now I am afraid that I have already broken that promise, long ago.

"I'm sorry, if I ever did." I tell her before she can answer me.

"No, Sam." Kimmie says and stand up to cup my cheeks. She takes the tears away and I wrap my arms around her, leaning my cheek on her stomach.

"Sammie, you have never hurt me." She says and brushes my neck with her fingers.

"You never did, okay, honey." She says so worriedly. I nod at her, still crying. It's been a while since I did that. She takes my arms off her and leans down to look at me again.

"You have never ever hurt me, I wouldn't have loved you if you did, okay?" She says smiling, but still, she is worried.

"But... but..."

"No, honey." She says, looking straight into my eyes, and I swallow hard.

"But..."

"Sam, shut up!" She says loudly, making me quiet.

"You need to calm down. You are scaring me." Kimmie says and a tear goes down her cheek.

"I-I'm sorry." I say and take the tear away from her skin.

"Don't be sorry. Let's just go to bed a little earlier. We can relax, and I think you need sleep because you look exhausted." Kimmie tells me and I nod.

I am lying on my stomach with Kimmie stroking my back. It makes me calm down, and the sleep is not far away. Kimmie is the answer to everything. I close my eyes on my way to sleep but open them as I hear a knock on the door.

"Yeah?" Kimmie answer, but don't stop brushing my back.

"It's dinner." I hear Kate say lightly. They eat late in this house, but I like it.

"Is she okay?" She asks then. I just lay here pretending I am sleeping. I don't want to talk or eat. Simply I just want to be here.

"Yeah, she is fine. She was just a little scared if she had ever hurt me." Kimmie tells her mother.

"No, mom, she has never done it. No matter how many times I have hurt her." She says guilty, I want to argue, but I just don't have the energy.

"You have hurt her?" Kate asks curiously.

"Well... I may have hit and kicked her a lot, and hit her a couple of times with a book."

"Kim..." Her mother sigh.

"She has never even laid a finger on me, never touched me. Not until she kissed me. You should have seen her face afterward." She chuckles, and I swear I am going to tickle her for that later. Kimmie's mother chuckles. Her laugh makes my cheeks turn red. Kate and Kimmie, they have in some ways the same laugh. It's kind of funny listening to them at the same time.

"Sam was paralyzed and shocked." She says and I clench my teeth. If she does not shut up soon I am going to pinch her ass.

"Well, there is food downstairs if you are hungry okay?" Kimmie's mother tells her one more time.

"Yeah." Kimmie answers her mom and I hear the door close. Then I jump as I feel Kimmie's lips on my back and it makes her snort of me. It's not my fault that I shiver when she touches me, sometimes the shivers are so annoying that I have to move away from her. My whole body turns into goosebumps, and it makes me so weird. Kimmie doesn't stop either, so I have to jump or roll away from her.

"Sam?" She says as she brushes the hair away from my back.

"Hmm?" I mumble lightly, even I could barely hear it. I am so dead to this world right now.

"I am just going to go down..."

"No." I say and turn to lay my arm around her as I bury my face in her chest. Kimmie moves her fingers lightly on my neck. I want her here, so badly. God, when did I become so needy?

"I am just going to go down and kick my aunt's ass for making my girlfriend feel guilty." She says, trying to cheer me up and it works as I smile.

"You don't have to do that." I tell her.

"Are you sure, because she really made me angry."

"No, I am going to kick her ass myself." I grin and Kimmie chuckles.

"I think that is a better idea." She says and kisses the top of my head. Then I hear her stomach growl and it makes me laugh.

"Okay, fine you can go." I tell her and let my arm off her.

"No, I can be here. Until you fall asleep." She says and it makes me shake my head.

"Then the food will get cold."

"Sam, shut up!" Kimmie says irritated and I just close my mouth. She takes my arm and laid it over her, and start stroking my back again as I bury my face in her chest. I surrender to her light touch and I close my eyes.