Avenge

Understood

Liv

Shit. There was no break from any of this. It all seems to be growing thicker and thicker.

It's fine though, I can push and survive it. My people, my friends, my mates. They all need me to make it all work at the end of the day. And I will.

Whatever the universe has to try and knock me down, I'll get back up. Break me and I just rebuild myself to new version.

A monster as they say. It didn't matter. No words did. My actions to do whether it's ask or not is what matters.

I didn't die all those times to just stop breathing now. Not now, maybe never.

Trying to get less in my head, I take a moment to read some things in the study. As my company, Gamma sits by as I also fix a small brew to work down the anxiety inside.

Not just mine.

Lately I had notice Gamma a bit fidgety, and for Sarah to be anything other than her stone demeanor, something is up.

My eye aflame to see her clawing at her leg, a tick I'm aware of myself.

"Sarah, you much slow down your heart rate. The little one will be born with a permanent scowl."

Her eyes were low and she didn't take my joke at the end. I pull my full attention to her. Sarah took a deep breath like it was gone for such time.

"I'm sorry, Luna. Do not let me distract you."

Pulling an assuring grin, I reach to place my hand over hers. "We can speak freely, Sarah. I'm not just your Luna."

She seems to find those words warming. Once she nod I felt such a heavy dark web coat over her scent. Both my witch and vampire side sense it.

"Kan has just been trying to get me to take off some work. Especially this week."

That's a very hard request, plus, Sarah is pregnant and already hates her limitations.

"Time is good. Enjoy the rest before the pup comes. Your husband is looking out for you both. Or he just want some sweet alone time before the pup steals it all." I point out.

One second she chuckle but goes back to the demeanor. Dark web, why?

"It's more than that." I tilt my head trying to understand the hidden line but couldn't, not without her actually words.

It felt like she froze for sometime before she was capable to speak to me. But giving her time may seems best rather than rush her.

"Years ago. When Alp- when Travis had announce who was sentenced to be his Beta and Gamma. It made talk." Her body steady just a bit. "One day when I was force to take time off. I wondered out of town. I got lost and I guess I was being tracked. Everything happen so fast and I tried but.."

She lost her words then. Slipping her hands away. Her eyes shifted off and I see where her dark web was coming from.

"Next thing I knew was pain. Everywhere. The days never lit up. What was worst was finding out that our Alpha at the time knew of my kidnapping. He thought is was a blessing. Thought the same as everyone when it came down to having a woman as a Gamma."

You can see it. The way she spoke, she thought she would never get out. Her Alpha had abandoned her with no thought.

"I accepted that. Still fighting I soon heard familiar growls after the days." A curl seep from the corner and she brought her eyes back to me. Straighten her back the Gamma she is.

"I can never repay Travis and Mason, along with the others who join for my rescue. Yet, after everything. After healing and mentally building myself up from it. My body still gets triggered on the days. And I- I've been pushing through it."

That's why Kan asked. He can feel it. His mate needs this. Despite her telling him to allow her to work, he has been coming by and checking on Sarah himself. That includes her extra doctor visits. Her body needs it and she has working overdrive to keep being the Gamma she is.

"I'm sorry that happened to you. But know this, Sarah." I reach over with open palms. She stares at them before meeting my eyes. "You are more than just our Gamma. You are family and we look out for one another. I'm so happy to have met you, your bravery and courage helps me so much. But listen to your body. Don't strain yourself, lean into us to lean on ourselves."

For the first time in other than her pregnancy, Sarah cried. She took my palms and buried her face into them. I don't move. Allowing her to weep what she need.

"Take the break. What length your mate request and more. We all need it once in a while."

"But, Luna-"

I shook my head, not accepting it. "I am not asking you. Besides, I know someone else can guard me during your absence. I'll be fine but you," I drop my chin to her. "You heal. Regain yourself. Don't let the past win."

Accepting, Sarah brought herself to agree one last statement. "It is my duty to protect you before myself. This time included."

I wave her off, "Don't worry. Some French slug can help."

Who knows when he'll even leaves. He's a f*****g watch dog as it is.

"Oh, I'm sure he'll love that. Not so much as Alpha though."

"Doesn't matter. You being in good health does."

With that sorted. Her time was set. I had called her mate and Kan walks in with pointed ears. Thanking me, he and Sarah head off.

Giving Kan my last bit of my herbs to help soothe his mate. I was in need to restock from my special garden.

Kneeling down, I get a scent of one of my most favorite people in the world.

"Hey, girly? Playing with dirt or are you dealing with the gloom?"

I brush off my hands and look over to the forest. It has been more gloom and I know I will need to make my trip by the entrance soon.

As much as I can tell I assure her of my takes of it, "Nothing I can't handle. Even tonight I really want to go forward."

"You sure. That's a hard hit. I watched the clip Milow showed me and-"

"It's best we train higher for our people. This will motivate them. We'll set the risk."

"Get it, girl." I nod at my best friend's concern over our train task for the pack and coven. "We'll move forward tonight then. Just a show, right?"

It was clear she's worry. We just started but this new task was just finish. I had practice and creating the two new levels was hard. Our people will get there, I'm sure of it.

"It will set a bar. For us all." She still looked unease but 'ok' my words. Connie will always have my back. Encourage me even at the risk of danger.

Maybe that was a bad thing, but I'll do the same for her. Hell, there's stories we can't tell.

Connie huffs herself down to the ground. And I find myself asking her of a very obvious suspicion.

"Connie?" I waver. She hums. "Did you have anything to do with the three wolves dying of poison. It was an odd source."

Her eyes flared. Her little tilt made it confusing. "I know you know they were involved in the Challenge among Travis. So I ask again. Did you have.."

She shrugs her shoulders at me. Then a light tug curl at her lips. My eyes narrowed. "Not fully. Travis came to me. I didn't question but when I handed him the herbs I may of told him what amount was unsafe and lead to... well, you know."

And just like that, the confession to how three wolves deaths spill from her mouth. I refuse to ask Travis. But knew regardless. I saw the way he glance at her and her back to him when it happened.

My mind fell under the suspicion and now the wolves are found dead in their homes.

Just a second looking at each other, our eyes spoke of the confession.

And just like that we both burst out laughing. Leaning over watching as our bellies tighten over the Karma inflicted.

"There's nothing I wouldn't do for you, girly. You're irreplaceable. I'm beyond grateful to have you in my life."

Our laughter panted down and I felt the same. I would die for her, sacrifice at whatever cost.

"If only we were sisters." I admitted.

"Oh, girl. I believe we were of made a hell of a storm if we were, yet being besties now is the closest."

"Love you, Connie, deeply."

"I love you too." A deep embrace and brought myself to remind her of our other arrangement.

"After our class. I need the three of us to cut the bond."

She nods. Her smile did fade at my request the first time and nor did it this time.

"I understand."

"Neither of our mates should feel the insecurity from it. I'm sure Milow feels the same."

She grins a little shyly. "He's a good man. He understands more. Milow's wisdom words is like old school but it makes me think of what he had been through. So when I speak of things such as this, he understood. He didn't said I was crazy or force me with threats like my exs."

"You think you love him?" I ask her, after all the boys she has never said I love you.

"I think so." And before I can outburst my excitement she says, "it's just early. But let's see. A lot is going on, girly."

Deeply down I knew what she meant and I hate how I always bring down those close to me. Like they had to pause or slow down their lives because mine is in chaos.

Sinfully my mind started playing it all back. Telling me what I had done and what I needed to do. At what cost it takes, and selfishly I wish I can do it alone.

Feeling the guilt of that. The choices of life always feels to be a burden on others.

Slipping away I do what I had to do to shut it off best. "Punish for my sins."

Wishing Sun God didn't bless me from his shield. "Would it feel like hell fire?"

Repeatedly hearing the words as I drown the sins away. Yet, this time it felt overwhelming, but I couldn't stop as the blood dried out. "Keep it flowing. Then complete." I mutter the burn, the ache, the smell, or crack. Drowning the noises in my head must be stopped.

Waiting, the buzzing noise covered my hearing and my eyes flutter down until it was all dark. Time had no work when all of a sudden I was taken pass the complete and awake at the aftermath.

A terrible ache shot at my ache. "Damn it." Running my hand over my body I feel the deep mark that's left.

I went too deep. That's Okay.

"I can cover them. They'll vanish soon." This was needed. Do not feel sorry, strength over it. Get up and keep going.

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Connie

After showing the class Liv's amazing new idea to power us all, so many people wanted to boost themselves.

I was worry it may be too much, the power it took to creative the two last spheres were a lot. It was dangerous but once you got it, the ball will combust in a beautiful way, showing your strength beyond the ordinary. So far Liv was the only one to succeed all 4. Each harder than the next.

I trust her and her ideas. I know her dreams are more than what others believe. I'll stand by her side and cheer her on. As she does for me.

Hours later we finally finish our day. Even ending a deeply connection between Mason, Liv, and I. But it was for the best. Didn't hurt but I can't lie and say I didn't feel a small dread.

"Were you worried, Blue?" Taking deep strive to me I caught my breath.

Trembling smile fades under his touch, "I-I thought something could have."

Caressing my cheeks he towers over me with those eyes. "It was safe. We just explained the matter to the class. Luna and I practiced, we were never in harm. Don't worry your mind, Blue."

"It's not that. Completely." His brows furrow to me. Reading what really falter my mind.

Yes, I worry about the sphere tasks, the last two were beyond dangerous. I seen it. The aftermath it does when you fail. Yet, only Milow can pass the third and Liv was the only one to pass the forth. It's impossible really.

"I see." He said in a softer tone. "Well, for the test just know I wouldn't risk if it cause me to spend less time with you. I adore seeing you grow as a witch, Blue. I know you don't think so but you took the first two spheres with no hitch. I feel it. You're stronger than you believe." He assure me.

Deep down I question it because of my goal of life. "I'm not a fighter like the rest of you." Secretly I was afraid.

Milow lean down to plant a chaste kiss on my lips, it heated and I groan to him ending it so soon. "We all fight in different ways. Now what is bubbling in your head? The cutter change something in your mood, you said no but you lying now isn't gonna help our communication."

Shit. Biggest thing in our relationship, communication. Through our large gap and responsibilities, and more, we agreed to communicate and not lie.

I just don't want him to think I'm weak. He grew up different than I. And Rose, what if I'm the wrong role model in her life that he rejects me as his mate.

I'm flaw and defeated. I reach for both his wrists. Holding on to him tightly to not push me away. He hasn't once but I fear he would one day.

"They're a huge part of my life. I love them both. More than blood itself." He took my hand away and replaced them into his. Waving a washing spell over me. "It hurt. A very important piece of me felt like it was taken away.." the words fell out and I didn't know how to end it.

So he did, "until it didn't feel missing at all. Blue?" He called my name like glass. "That bond is still there just without the magical force connnected. You three never needed it. However, at the time you guys did."

"They saved my life. Liv and Mason." Saying Mason's name makes Milow's face itch.

I remove my hand and stepped back a bit. I hate how he feels that way towards him, but it's understanding and still I hate it.

Mason was just a wolf-boy then, now he's my annoying older brother. At some point Milow will have to accept that truth.

"We never thought to have the life we do now but we had only ever had each other. And now, we're just a package deal. You understand, right?"

I know I don't have to outline my relationship with both Mason and Liv. I'd been told Milow every detail I can. But he is man and not just that, he's my mate who has to see a man who touched me in a way I only want him to touch me now.

Milow doesn't hate Mason, he just hates the past of it. I pray it will blow and he doesn't keep this red aura for long.

"I do understand. I'm trying, Blue."

Milow walked just a few steps closer. A pull tugged in us. "Life is just not right without them. They don't use me. At first glance neither of them used me."

"Tell me what happen, Blue. Your eyes, they're lighter." He said as he end the space but didn't touch me. Instead his wave of magic through our bond wrapped over my body. Comforting me.

"My grandparents. The coven my family grew on. Right at birth they said there was something about me. Something to do with beyond strength of our kind. They did things or tried to, they planned stuff because of this sense of my magic." I pause to take a sniff of his scent. Keeping me leveled. "My parents wouldn't have that. They knew what it meant. They endured pain and shame for it. Their decision to leave was their only option. It was to keep me from being use by the coven and my own blood." My voiced rasped out near the end.

"Oh, Blue."

Falling back to the connect I confessed. "She's family. I owe her everything. Same with Mason. Before all of this it was just us three and it was gonna end that way."

"And now?"

"Now I stay by their sides. I'm grateful I at least have you and Rose too."

He caress my face, his large thumbs circling my skin. "Your loyalty to them is precious. Bless our Ancestors for giving me you."

Cupping my face, he force me to look at him as my tears fell down my face. My heart pounded hard like never before. "Understand this, Connie. You are not some offering of any kind. Not me, ever. It pains me to know I could have been there more for you and never were. But I bow to you that from the moment we met I'll never allow any suffering to take you from me. You're a part of my life I can not lose. You're mine, eternity."

Everything felt apart then. I sob like a damn child. He didn't care though, bringing his lips to mine he mix the taste of him and my tears together, it felt like a huge collision. Our bodies press and without a thought he throw me up and sat me down on the counter.

I gasp to the quick movement but not once did our lips part. Willingly my legs open as he slips in. Dropping his hands down he clasp onto my flesh that expose more from my bathrobe.

Needing to be closer, my hands tug on his belt. Wanting to remove it, the life of adulting is called at the end of the shift.

"Uncle Milow! Uncle Milow! Uncle Milow!" Rose called over and over again from her room.

He drops his head to my shoulders. I chuckle at the bulge pressing on me.

"Uncle Milow, hurry. My wolf man needs his-"

"I'm coming, Rose. Pick a book." He yells back to her in a tender voice even though his face was not tender at all.

Milow kissed over me until he ended at my lips. "If you ever questioned what my sister was like, it's that."

I chuckle to his plain annoyance. "I would have adore her as I do her daughter." Giving him a kiss, "go on, we'll continue after bedtime, Red."

A deep growl burst off his chest. "Indeed we will, Blue. Don't fall asleep as I attend to another woman."

"I'm just gonna watch tv. Your Blue will wait eagerly for you." I winked and it surely did not help as he yells for Rose to climb into bed as he headed her way.

We had only dated shortly and just recently have we started becoming intimate. We agreed to take it slow but s**t. We waited long enough and that connection just exploded. It changed our bond, stronger even.

Now I lay on our couch waiting for him to put his niece to sleep. Putting my favorite show to pass the time, I knew he would take long.

I may or may not have made a deal last night with Rose to try and get her uncle to read as much bedtime stories as she could before he loses it.

Wrong night to bet.

Not only has my mate fighting his blue balls, so am I. I try to edge it off but got a wave of magic to hold me back, telling me to wait. As his good Blue, I listen until my eyes started to close on me.

Still hearing the tv play, my eyes rested. A grin seeps in when I feel a hot air against my ear, whispering. "Are you defying my command, Blue?"

A soft groan was let out. "Never, Red. I await as you ask."

He jumped over the couch like an animal. Only to wrap himself next to me at the edge, my hand swung the air as a large furniture item it connected to have his larger body rest easy with me.

"Mmm, you smell divine." Nuzzling his nose into me. My pelvic ache into him. "Why did you played with me, Blue? You costed us time with that trick with Rose."

My body froze, eyes widen he bites my lips as my deal was revealed.

"She snitched?" His eyes were hungry. "I-I, Red." I swallowed. "Last night. It was for jokes."

"And now, is it funny? You made we wait when I waited so damn long to have you that hurts being this close and I'm not climaxing already."

I couldn't respond for a bit, but when I did all I could say was, "ask and I'll repay upon my apology, Red."

"I take not ask. You're my mate. You, Blue. You are mine to take when I want to take. You will ever only feel me. Your mind and body will never recall another."

I nod in the good mate he wanted right now. I trapped and f**k was I wet for him right now. He can feel it. I'm dripping.

My body was quickly turn onto him, however for my apology I slid my body down and kneel on both knees.

My hand played the part when they touch his thighs. Rubbing up and down I edge myself to feel his swollen c**k.

"Oh, Blue."

Taking my time I found myself wanting to taste him but moving my head forward was all. I felt embarrass like I didn't know what to do next.

He was already in his boxers and the his slit was right there.

I took one breath and as my hand took his flesh to come out her stops me. My head snaps to him. Wondering if I took to long overthink it.

I was biting my lips hard. Thinking how to start, to rub, spit, twist, lick, or suck. Damn I feel like a virgin again.

"We don't have to do more but lay."

No. I want more. I just want to pleased him.

"I want to. I just never done this before." He tilt his head. Confuse as to the fact I had a s****l past and this may be our third time together.

"This. I've never done this." Gesturing to his thick c**k and my mouth. His eyes widen in shock and I cover my eye in embarrassment.

As sweet as he is, my mate removes my hands from my face. His eyes coated in deep look that trapped me.

Even as I feel so dull and young with a very experienced, wise, older mate. He looked at me like I was some treasure. Like gold. Just like his eyes. I see gold.

Milow purrs to me as his large thumb Rand over my lips. Tracing it from side to side. My top, my bottom, together, and apart. "I love how pure your lips are." His eyes locked. "I'll teach you. When you're ready."

He may of spelled me into him with that. Wanting to pleased my mate more I responded quickly with, "well. I kinda was thinking. Now."

Tracing my lips again he pulls me close. My never slid off into a pleasure take over. Sensing it he smirks to me.

"Take what you can, Blue. One inch at a time. And soon." His voice deepened. "I'll get to f**k these lips of yours to show you how just much more I have for you. Just. For. You."

My mouth to started to drool at the thought. My p***y ache at his words and I'm edging myself on the ground to climax at this whole conversation.

Licking my lips I suckle the tip of his thumb. Eagerly need him. "I need the taste of you. Like now." I whined.

Releasing me from possessive hold, he leans back on the couch. Scooted himself to the edge while he stared me down the whole time.

"Begin, Blue. It's yours."

I do. Taking his thickness out to view. Milow guided me the whole time. Letting me take inch by inch, lick by lick, and soon it felt just natural to have him in my mouth.

As thrilling as it is to have mind blowing s*x with him. This. This right here was everything I need to know that I'm falling for him. In the whole I want it all and get married with kids.

This. This is certainly a core memory.