Entry 32
I’m starting to believe that I am a truly horrible person. My two best friends in the entire world took me to lunch today and made a ginormous announcement, and all I felt was apathy, tinged with a hint of envy.
When both of your closest friends share news like they had for me today, a good person would be truly happy for them. What is wrong with me that the strongest emotion I can manage to feel is jealousy? I don’t want to be that way. I can’t continue to live my life with nothing but negativity.
I know it’s simply because I miss Diego. It is like there is a giant void in my chest where he belongs. I keep telling myself that it will lessen over time and that I’ll start to get over him or meet someone new, but I’m starting to wonder if that is really the case. It doesn’t feel
