nomi and beau

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Nomi and Mr Haze has finally arrived at the Los Angeles International Airport (LAX). Mr Haze feels so excited and relieved that they have arrived safely but not for Nomi. He is glad that they have arrived safely, but the more the day of the show is getting near, the more heavy his heart gets. Nomi looked through the window to see the sky is dark as if it is night time. He does not know what time it is at the moment.

"Oh my God! We have arrived! Finally!", Mr Haze said excitedly with a big smile. Nomi did not say anything but just giving him a smile that he knows how fake it looks. He does feel bad for Nomi. He does not know what to do but just pray that everything will be alright. To be honest, Mr Haze is not as happy and excited as he looks on the outside. The only thing he is excited about is being able to get off the plane after 18 hours. Mr Haze could feel his seat feels very warm as if the seat is a baked Mac and Cheese that has just got out of the microwave after 18 hours. Only God knows how nervous he feels in the inside. He does not know how to face Mr Greg when he meets him. He feels like he has burden everyone here, espicially Nomi. He feels really bad for Nomi. To him, Nomi acts like he is okay with this but he knows that he is not. He can see how tired and exhausted Nomi is just by the look on his face. He just acts like he is happy infront of Nomi to calm him down but apart of him feels like he is being such an arse to Nomi for asking him to join the show in last minute. He feels like a bad person deep inside. He could not even face Nomi's mother for burdening her son as she has been with that serious face since yesterday.

Mr Haze helped Nomi to take out his luggage from the plane. Nomi thanked Mr Haze for doing so. He took his luggage and is about to head out the plane. Before heading out, Nomi looks around the plane to see where is his mother. Nomi felt a little panic that his mother has disappeared from the plane. Mr Haze slowly walks towards behind him while pulling his luggage.

"Teacher, do you see my mum?", Nomi asked Mr Haze with his eyes widened a little.

"I don't know..I don't see her.", Mr Haze said and continues walking towards the plane's entrance.

Nomi continued walking out although his stomach churns a little. He took a breath and exhales. He does not know why is he panicking about this. He tries to think positive that his mother has already gotten out of the plane.

Nomi's guess is right. As he got out of the plane, he can see his mother is already waiting for him outside. He thought what was he had to be so panicked about? Mrs Aleena has already got out of the plane earlier than Nomi and Mr Haze. Nomi saw Mr Haze walks towards his mother and they both wait for him to come out. The plane is crowded with so many people that it is kind of hard for Nomi to walk out. He tried to stay patient until the crowd is gone.

After a while, he can finally get out of the plane and he fastens his steps towards his mother and his teacher who are waiting for him. Nomi felt relieved that he has gotten out of the plane. He had a thought that they would left him behind and not waiting for him. This 18 year-old boy is always anxious of everything.

Mrs Aleena's jaw dropped a little seeing her son's appearance after getting out of the plane. She noticed that Nomi is looking so messed up from head to toe. His hair is brutally messy. His face is sleepy and his eyes are still sore and red. His tie has loosen from his shirt's collar. She thought as if her son has gotten into a fight with someone. Meanwhile, Mr Haze is still looking fine and fresh since yesterday. He still looks good in that pastel peach traditional Malay dress like before he got into the plane. She starts to wonder what did Nomi had done to himself?

Mr Haze whom have also noticed the same thing on Nomi starts to feel concern,"Are you okay? You look like a drunk guy who just got into a fight with someone.", he joked and chuckled a little looking at Nomi's apperance.

Mrs Aleena looked at Mr Haze seriously, not liking the joke he made about her son. Her light brown eyes gave a glare at Mr Haze and continue to look at Nomi. Nomi saw his mother's reaction and his heart started to beat fast. Gladly, Mr Haze did not notice that.

Nomi felt embarrassed about both of their reactions on his appearance that he kind of blushed a little. He realized he does look like a mess and he is embarrassed thinking about what he did to himself before. He can feel his cheeks feel uncomfortably warm from blushing. He smiled and looked down.

"C'mon, lets go find Mr Greg. He said he has been waiting for us for about three hours. He must be thrilled to see you.", Mr Haze said and they started to walk into the airport. The night at Los Angeles feels cold and Nomi could feel the breeze touched his body.

"Who's Mr Greg?", Nomi asked curiously.

"He's one of the teachers of the Drama and Musical Club in the Los Angeles High School. I've been friends with him for three years. Don't you worry. He is a kind person. I told him about you and he feels pretty bad for you. He will guide you and your other partner for the show.", Mr Haze explained. Nomi could not think of a response to give to Mr Haze as he feels so embarrassed of his appearance as if he is naked in the public.

They walked into the airport and the place is silent. There are barely people waiting for their flights in there. Nomi looked at one of the digital clocks set againts the wall at the airport and it shows 1:24 a.m. Nomi is surprised that he arrived at the midnight time here.

Nomi tries to find a toilet at the airport as he feels embarrassed of his appearance. He is worried if Mr Greg would have a bad first impression when he meets him for the first time.

"Teacher, may I go to toilet?", Nomi asked Mr Haze in a panic tone.

"Sure. But I don't know where the toilet is.", Mr Haze replied with a confused face.

"It's okay. I can find it myself.", Nomi answered with an awkward smile.

Nomi walked away from his teacher and his mother in order to go find a toilet for him to correct his appearance back to normal. He tries to find a signboard that shows where the toilet is located. After a while, he finally found the toilet by looking at a signboard that shows where the gents' toilet is located.

Nomi tries his best to straighten his thick hair back to normal as he gets to the toilet. He hates his hair as it is really thick, it is hard for him to take care of his hair. Especially, ever since he got depressed last year, he could not really take care of himself. He tend to forget to take care of himself. He took out a small comb from his backpack and combs his hair. He is frustrated that he could not straighten his hair very well. It still looks messy that his tears start to fill up in his eyes. Gladly, there's no one in the toilet so he can let out his tears dripping from his eyes in peace. And again, he started to think about hurting himself. He is worried if Mr Greg does not like him. He sniffs a few times as he is crying for a bit. He wipes his tears with his dark blue shirt's sleeves and tighten up his maroon tie perfectly around his collar.

He does not have time to straighten up his jet black hair back to normal anymore. So he turned on the tap water of one of the toilet's sink and washes his face. His eyes are still sore and red and he does not know how to avoid that. He took out his toothpaste and his toothbrush to brush his teeth at the sink as he has been sleeping in the plane. He is worried about the smell of his breath. He brushes his teeth more than once, for about three to four times just because he is worried about his breath. He is a little satisfied that he had brushed his teeth. He does not care about his eyes anymore. He is now just worried about his hair. He looked at himself in the mirror and he hates that he has to see a monster standing infront of him everyday. He just...hates it. He is disappointed that he fails to look good to give Mr Greg a good first impression. The more he looks at the toilet mirror, the more urge he has to hurt himself. He is glad that his school bag is with him. He slowly unzips his bag. He then takes out his pencil case and slowly unzips it. He takes out a pair of his scissors that he always use for school. 'f**k you! You're a failure!' , he thought. He starts to walk towards one of the toilet stalls.

The toilet's entrance door suddenly opens. Nomi turned around quickly and he was a little shocked when he heard the sound as if his heart stopped beating for a while. Gladly, it is just Mr Haze coming into the toilet, looking for him. Nomi sighed in relief but in the same time, he is scared that he has his scissors in his hand. He quickly hides the scissors behind his back. 'f**k, I can't do it!' , he thought in feeling unsatisfied.

"Great, you're here! God, I was looking for you. What took you so long?", Mr Haze said in concern.

"I'm sorry, teacher. I just want to fix my appearance.", Nomi replied awkwardly with a smile.

"It's after midnight, man...what are you doing? He doesen't care how you look.", Mr Haze laughed. Nomi just smiled without replying to him. He came back to the sink and secretly hiding the scissors in his pocket so Mr Haze would not see it. He just continues fixing his stubborn hair. Mr Haze notices Nomi's hair so he opened his bagpack and took out his hair gel and lends it to Nomi. Nomi got confused and his eyes widened looking at the hair gel and he turned to look at Mr Haze.

"Take it. Fix that hair.", Mr Haze smirked a little.

"Thank you.", Nomi thanked slowly and took the hair gel that Mr Haze gave. Surprisingly, Mr Haze still managed to look good even after an 18-hour flight. Meanwhile, Nomi feels like he just got back from an earthquake.

"Hurry up, Mr Greg has been waiting.", Mr Haze said while looking at his watch. He walks into one of the toilet's stalls.

With the help of the hair gel, he can finally get his hair back to normal. He sighed in relief. It has been blood, sweat and tears to get his hair back to normal. He hates his hair. He is hoping his hair does not get ruined again, espicially when he meets Mr Greg later.

"You done?", Mr Haze said as he got out of one of the toilet's stall. He washes his hands and took his bag pack.

"Done.", Nomi said simply then gives the hair gel back to Mr Haze, "Thank you.", Nomi said.

"You are welcome.", Mr Haze smirked a little and put the hair gel into his bag pack.

They both head out of the toilet. Nomi meets his mother who has been waiting for him impatiently. Mrs Aleena looked up to see her son in his better look. She smiled a little when she sees him. Mr Haze told Nomi to go to his mother as he wants to look for Mr Greg.

"Where have you been?", Mrs Aleena asked.

"Toilet.", Nomi said simply and sat beside her on one of the benches at the airport.

"Are you okay? Why you have been looking like a mess before?", Mrs Aleena asked in concern.

"I'm okay. I just slept a lot in the plane haha.", chuckled Nomi, trying to cover the embarrassment of what he did on the plane.

"That must have been a brutal sleep you had.", Mrs Aleena said sarcastically and rolled her eyes away from her son. Nomi could not think of anything to answer but just smile.

"And what's with those eyes?", Mrs Aleena raised her eyebrows while looking at his eyes.

Nomi's heart beats a little faster when his mother asked him the question. "It's nothing.", Nomi answered simply, acting like nothing ever happened.

"Are you sick or something?", Mrs Aleena asks again.

"No, I'm not. I'm okay. I promise.", answered Nomi while trying to hide his irritation towards his mother's questions. He feels like he wants to be alone for a while but he has to wait for Mr Haze.

He took out his phone and he received notifications from his best friend, Isaac. He forgot to tell Isaac about his journey to Los Angeles. He felt relieved that he can finally use his phone after 18 hours of his phone being on flight-mode.

Nomi opened up the w******p messages from Isaac to see him sending a lot of memes pictures. Nomi laughed looking at those memes.

He replied with a laughing emoji and then replied, 'lmao this guy' .

Isaac started to type instantly, 'bro where have you been? hahaha' , Isaac replied.

Nomi typed to replied to his best friend. 'lol forgot to tell you. I'm in LA with my teacher. Imma have to join a show here.' , Nomi sent the text.

'LA? ur joking right?' , Isaac replied in disbelief.

'lmao i'm not tf' , Nomi sent the message. He took a picture of his pastport and his flight ticket to Los Angeles and sent it to Isaac as a proof.

Isaac replied with a shocked emoji and sent another text, 'WHAT? BRO WYD THERE???'

'my teacher chooses me to do a show in a highschool here. i'm fuckin nervous. it feels like i'm having a baby lol.' , Nomi expressed his feeling into a text and sends it to Isaac.

'you???? how come ur teacher choose you? you dont like being on stage right?' , Isaac replied as he knows his best friend very well.

'ik..but i have to. some asshole quit in the last minute so i have to replace him.' , Nomi replied with an irritated emoji.

's**t! that's too bad. when's the show?' , Isaac replied.

'in four days..' , Nomi replied with a sad emoji.

'what's the show about?' , Isaac replied.

'i looked at the scripts and i can say it is a horror genre.' , Nomi replied.

'lmaooooo you? horror? u cant even kill a coackroach.' , Isaac teased with a laughing emoji.

'f**k you hahaha.' , Nomi replied.

'but i think with ur mysterious handsome face, u gonna suit well.' , Isaac replied again with a smirking emoji.

'u gonna do the show alone or???' , Isaac asked again.

'my teacher said i'm gonna have a partner. i'm gonna do the show with a girl. idk who she is.' , Nomi replied.

'mannn goodluck. take a lot of pictures and send it to me. don't forget to hook up with her. hahahaha.' , Isaac said.

'tf isaac. stoppppp!' , Nomi replied in feeling annoyed.

'oops! someone is mad! sorry boss! hahaha! btw forget about that asshole who quit. you can do betta!' , Isaac motivated Nomi while teasing him in the same time.

'thanks bro. :)' , Nomi replied.

'oh and btw hmu if there are hot girls. i heard LA always have a bunch of hot girls. man ur lucky.' , Isaac replied with a crying emoji. Nomi rolled his eyes and shook his head after reading Isaac's text as he knows his best friend very well when it comes to girls' topics. Then, he smirks thinking about it.

'tf isaac. alright i will if i give a f**k about it.' , Nomi replied.

'ugh cmon man. enjoy urself out there. have fun. stop thinking about melissa.' , Isaac replied.

'lmao melissa who? ya boy moved on.' , Nomi said as he does not like to talk about his ex-girlfriend.

'proud of ya, man. now go get some hormones there my friend! trust me,ur gonna love LA girls. hahaha.' , teased Isaac.

'stop it Isaac! ugh i'm drowning here with these long ass show scripts.' , Nomi sent the text.

'okk sorry just jk jk! goodluck! lmk how it goes!' , Isaac wished Nomi.

'lol i will. we'll see. I hope I dont mess this up. gtg bye.' , Nomi sent the text as he already saw Mr Haze is walking with a tall white man towards him and his mother. He is guessing maybe the white man is Mr Greg.

'byeeee brooo' , Isaac replied. Nomi does not reply to the text.

As they both, Mr Haze and Mr Greg already got to him and his mother. Mr Haze introduced Mr Greg to Nomi.

"Nomi, this is Mr Greg.", Mr Haze said politely.

"Hello, I'm Mr Greg Thomas. Welcome to Los Angeles. Nice to meet you.", Mr Greg said with his British accent politely with a dimpled smile on his face. He takes out his hand to shake hands with Nomi.

"Hi..", Nomi said shyly with a smile while bowing down as a respect for Mr Greg. He takes out his hand to shake his. He then looked down as he is shy to look at Mr Greg. His heart is beating as he is nervous to meet him. Mr Greg thought Nomi is cute by the way he talks. He smiled at Nomi.

"So what can I call you? I already know your name. But I don't seem to know how to pronounce it correctly. Hahaha. I apologize." , Mr Greg laughed.

"Just call him, Nomi. That's what his friends always call him.", Mr Haze explained.

"Oh, Nomi? Oh, jolly good! Glad you have a nickname. But in order to respect you, I wanna know to pronounce your real name.", Mr Greg said delightedly.

"Najmi Khan.", Nomi said simply.

"Again?", Mr Greg asked Nomi to say his full name again.

"Najmi Khan.", Nomi said clearly.

"Oh, so I wasn't wrong in pronouncing your name! Hahaha! I'm not that bad! Hahaha!", Mr Greg said proudly. They all laughed at Mr Greg.

"And this is Nomi's mother, Mrs Aleena.", Mr Haze introduced Nomi's mother to Mr Greg.

"Wow, your mum is very pretty.", Mr Greg turned to Nomi and praised his mother. Mrs Aleena does not reply anything but just smiled looking at Mr Greg. He took out his hand to shake Mrs Aleena's hand. Mrs Aleena does the same to shake hands with him.

Honestly, she does thinks Mr Greg is handsome too. He is very tall, fit and he has a brown wavy hair, and his light green eyes amazed her the most. He has a bright smile with dimples on his cheek. She is guessing maybe this young English man is just as young as Mr Haze.

"So are you guys tired? It must be really tiring to be on an 18-hour flight.", Mr Greg said with concern.

"Oh, yes. It's been hell.", Mr Haze said and shakes his head as an expression.

"I'm so sorry for that. I booked a hotel for you guys. I'm gonna send you guys there.", Mr Greg said delightedly.

They continue to walk towards Mr Greg's car. The weather is cold and windy which is why Nomi notices Mr Greg is wearing a Gucci winter coat to warm himself.

"Man, the weather is so cold here.", Mr Haze said while crossing his arms tightly.

"It's still winter here in January. Ugh..forgot to tell you guys to bring thick clothes so you won't feel cold.", Mr Greg said in regret.

"It's okay. We already bring it in our bag packs. We know how cold some countries would be in winter.", Mr Haze said.

"Oh, great. But don't worry though. This season is going to end around February I guess.", Mr Greg said. Mr Haze nodded as he understand what Mr Greg was saying.

"How about Malaysia? I never went there. Hahaha.", Mr Greg asked and chuckled.

"Oh, it always rains on January. But I guess it's gonna be as sunny as usual when we get back.", Mr Haze explained.

They all get to Mr Greg's car. Mr Haze sat beside Mr Greg at the front seat, while Nomi and his mother sat at behind.

As Mr Greg is driving to the hotel's destination. Mr Greg asked Nomi a lot of questions in order to get to know Nomi.

"So Nomi, how old are you?", Mr Greg asked.

"I'm 18 now. But I'll be 19 on July.", Nomi said.

"Oooo so, are you a cancer or a leo?", Mr Greg smiled.

"Cancer.", Nomi answered simply.

"Oh, wow! Thought you were an aries or a scorpio.", Mr Greg chuckled.

"No. Hahaha.", Nomi laughed shyly.

"When's your birthday?", Mr Greg asked.

"July 6th.", Nomi answered.

"Oh, alright. Do you have a girlfriend?", Mr Greg asked with a smirk.

The question made Nomi kind of sad, 'I wish..' , his little heart spoke.

"No.", Nomi smiled and answered.

"Oh why not? You're this handsome and charming! You're lying if you don't have one.", Mr Greg chuckled.

"No, I don't have one.", Nomi said honestly.

"Are you an Indian? Cause your name have Khan at the back? You know like Shah Rukh Khan!", Mr Greg said delightedly.

"Yes, I am.", Nomi said with a smile.

"Oh what a coincidence! So do you like to watch Bollywood movies?", Mr Greg said excitedly.

"Sometimes. Haha.", Nomi chuckled.

"Do you watch 3 Idiots? Omg That's like the most brilliant movie that has ever been made!", Mr Greg asked delightedly.

"Yes, I love that movie.", Nomi agreed as it is one of his favourite movies too.

"What movies do you always watch?", Mr Greg asked.

"I always watch English movies.", Nomi said.

"Do you watch Netflix?", Mr Greg asked.

"Yeah.", Nomi answered.

"Do you watch Stranger Things?", Mr Greg asked.

"Yes.", Nomi answered simply.

"What else do you always watch?", Mr Greg asked.

"Uhm...To All The Boys I've Loved Before...", Nomi said shyly.

"Hmm...I think I've ever watched that before...that movie is famous. Uhmm..what's that boy's name? You know, the one who pretends to be the Lana Jean's boyfriend?", Mr Greg asked in feeling confused.

"Peter Kavinsky. It's Lara Jean by the way.", Nomi corrected Mr Greg and giggled a little.

"Oh my God...you guys watch that? Ugh.", Mr Haze said, rolling his eyes.

"What are you talking about? That movie's great! Right, Nomi?", Mr Greg praised the movie.

"Yes.", Nomi answered with a smile.

"The girl named Lara Jean is cute! Wow, my ideal girlfriend! Hahaha!", Mr Greg giggled.

"Are-are you English?", Nomi asked, trying to be talkative.

"Oh, yes I am. I was born in Cheshire, England. I got a job as a teacher here. So that's why I moved here.", Mr Greg said, feeling delighted that Nomi actually asked a question about him.

Meanwhile, Mrs Aleena who sits beside Nomi is worried if Mr Greg asks her son very personal question that might get Nomi sad. She is praying that Mr Greg does not ask Nomi questions about his father or his sister such as, 'How many siblings do you have?' or 'Where is your father?' . She is praying that Mr Greg could get to the hotel faster.

"Mr Greg, may I know which hotel we are staying?", Mrs Aleena asked Mr Greg politely as she tried to cut off the conversation between him and Nomi. She appreciates that Mr Greg is very kind and friendly to her son, but she is scared if Mr Greg would ask him questions that is very personal to him.

"The Beverly Hills Hotel. Man, you gotta love that hotel!", Mr Greg said excitedly.

"Isn't Beverly Hills is a place for rich people?", Mr Haze asked in curiousity.

"Usually. That's the only hotel that is nearby from our school. I don't want you guys to stay far away from our school. The hotel is affordable, so don't you worry. You're gonna love that.", Mr Greg said with a smile.

"Haze, I'm gonna have to meet you by 8 a.m in the morning to discuss about our situation here with the principal. This has been a messed up.", Mr Greg told Mr Haze.

"Oh, I know..I'm sorry.", Mr Haze said in regret.

"Not just that. My student who will be Nomi's partner got her ankle injured so there's no chance for us to continue for the show in just a few days.", Mr Greg begins to explain.

"Oh, no. That's horrible.", Mr Haze sighed.

"I know. So I'm thinking of postponing the show to next two weeks. That way, our students will have more time to practice and make it perfect.", Mr Greg said.

"Oh, really? Hmm..", Mr Haze sighed and started to feel bad for Nomi. To Nomi, the news makes him feel relieved and worried at the same time. The relieving thing, is that Nomi can have more time to practice for the show. In the same time, he is nervous because he might be missing a lot of his class and he is worried of not being able to catch with his assignments.

"Uhm..are you okay with that? I think this is a good idea...don't you think?", Mr Greg asked.

"I do think this is a good idea...but Nomi has a lot of assignments. I'm worried he will miss that.", Mr Haze said in sympathy.

"It's okay, teacher. I can handle that. I will ask Mimi to update me. Don't you worry.", Nomi said, trying to calm down Mr Haze.

"Aye, there you go. I'm deeply apologize to you. My student, Beau who is going to be your partner has exams coming up. I feel bad, you know? I know this is not really a smart idea. But I have to do this. If I postpone to when Beau completes her exams by the end of February, the principal will be crossed. She does not want to postpone any shows longer. She does not like to wait. So I have to just postpone it to next two weeks. I apologize.", Mr Greg explained in feeling regret.

"Wait..what's her name again?", Mr Haze asked as he did not hear Beau's name clearly.

"Who?", Mr Greg asked back.

"Your student. I think you said her name if I'm not mistaken?", Mr Haze said.

"Beau. Beau Diana.", Mr Greg pronounces Beau's name clearly.

"Beau? Beau Diana? How to spell the Beau name?", Mr Haze asked.

"B-e-a-u. Beau.", Mr Greg spelled Beau's name.

"Oh, Beau. I thought I heard 'Bow', b-o-w. 'Bow'.", Mr Haze chuckled.

"No. It's a french word. I don't really remember what does it means, well I'm no french. You pronounce it in a french way. Beau. Don't ask me why is that her name. I'm not her parents..I do not know. Hahaha.", Mr Greg giggled.

"Is she french?", Mr Haze asked curiously.

"No. She's American. Hahaha. It's just her name is french-like. I teach her History in the class.", Mr Greg said.

Mrs Aleena just sighed listening to their conversation. She's worried if Nomi will miss his studies just because of this show and they are in a foreign country. She just hopes that her son does not get stressed out from all of this.

'Beau Diana.' , Nomi's heart spoke. He wonders what this girl will look like. Is she going to be okay doing the show with him? Apart of him is nervous to meet her. He is hoping she could accept him to be in the show with her. Or worst, he hopes that Beau does not get embarrassed to be with him in the show.

Mr Greg's car stops infront of a huge building with a huge signboard that said, 'The Beverly Hills Hotel.' , the hotel looks very beautiful at night with the lights on. As they come in, they were greeted by a few workers there with full of polite. After done making payments, they get to their rooms. Nomi asked his mother if he could have a room of his own as he is not comfortable with having anyone as his roommate. He just wants to be by himself and feel comfortable. Mrs Aleena lets him have a room for himself with a heavy heart when she actually wants to share a room with Nomi. She wants to be with his son but she knows Nomi is a grown up, he should be by himself for sometime.

Nomi feels happy looking around the hotel. His jaw drops when he looks around the hotel. It seems luxurious. He feels like he wants to turn on a 1950's song and dance around the hotel but it would be better if he has someone to dance with. This reminds him of when Jerry mouse from Tom and Jerry went to the Manhattan alone and he was happy looking around the Manhattan City in the episode of 'Mouse in Manhattan'. The music that plays behind the scene of the episode is also starts playing in his head. Nomi started to dance a little when the song is playing in his head but he tries his best to hide the dance so people will not see him and think that he is a creep. He begins to smile a little. The hotel makes him feel happy. It feels like he is in heaven. He knows he has ever been to other hotels before, but this hotel is the best for him so far.

He looks at the hotel hall at the receptionist area. It is big and spacious. He can see himself dancing so gracefully. He imagines if he has someone to dance with. He can see how he dances with the imaginary girl without a face dancing so gracefully under the shining lights in the middle of the night. Like when Christian Grey danced with Anastasia Steel in the 'Fifty Shades of Grey' movie. He always wants to have that moment with someone.

Nomi longs for a friend, or maybe a soulmate. He longs for someone to love him. He longs for someone to accept him the way he is. He longs for someone to hold his hands and tell him things are going to be okay someday. He longs for a hug. He longs for someone to see his worth. He longs for someone to see him that he is still matter in this world. He longs for someone to save him. He longs to feel loved, to be loved and to give love. And mostly, he longs for love.

"Okay, Nomi. When you get to your room, you take a rest. Mr Greg says you can only come to LA High School by 9 a.m in the morning. He will pick you up.", Mr Haze said with a smirk as they got to their rooms.

"Of course. Thank you. Goodnight, teacher.", Nomi said while heading to his room.

"Okay, night.", Mr Haze said and gets to his room.

Nomi turned to his mother who is walking behind him, smiling at him, "Goodnight, ma." , wished Nomi to his mother. "Goodnight too.", Mrs Aleena replied with a smile.

Nomi got into his room and he throws himself onto the hotel room's bed. He checked his phone and goes to the world clock to see that it is already around 2 a.m in Los Angeles. He quickly got up to take a shower and could not wait to sleep comfortably.

•

Beau sighed while looking at her phone screen. She looking up on a YouTube channel, named 'Piano Boy'. She is wondering where the hell does the owner of the channel has gone to? The cover was uploaded on September 2018 with the title 'khalid-saved (cover)' . This YouTube owner barely uploads videos ever since last year. She's tired of watching the same videos. She is hoping Piano Boy would upload more. She typed to comment on the video, 'Pls come back! I miss youuuu!' , with sad emoji and a love emoji. A lot of people commented the same on most of his videos.

She fell in love with Piano Boy's voice. His voice sounds soothing and soft. She can tell his voice sounds like Tim Curry in the 1970's. So many people in the comments tells him that he sounds just like Tim Curry. She wonders how Piano Boy looks like? What is his age? Where is he from? How he is like in real life? Is he really a human or a robot? This boy has never shown his face or reveals anything about him since he started his channel on 2014. He never even replied to any comments of people asking about himself. He only replies to the comments of people praising how he sings by just saying 'thank you.'.

She can only see his hands while playing the piano. Sometimes, the boy would play a guitar. Beau fell in love with those hands. His hands are perfect and manly. She feels like those hands are strong and protective looking. It is like a superhero hands. His nails are always pretty looking as it always shine. Beau is guessing maybe he wears nail polish. Beau could tell he has a tanned brownish skin by always seeing just his hands while playing the piano. Beau wishes she could meet him in real life.

"f**k! You're not asleep yet?", Ben who is awake from his sleep interrupted Beau who is busy with her phone in the kitchen at night. Beau's dreaming about Piano Boy is interrupted by her brother. She is shocked by how her brother interrupted her like that.

"Bro what the f**k! I almost dropped my phone! Yell at me louder next time! Stupid!", Beau yelled in irritation.

"How did you walk all the way from upstairs?", Ben said while walking to the fridge to take out a bottle of water as he feels thirsty.

"Uhm..there's this thing called a walking stick?", Beau said sarcastically then rolled her eyes away from Ben.

"Why are you here?", Ben asked while filling a glass with water from the bottle.

"I was hungry, okay? So I ate some Oreos. Now, shut up!", Beau said.

"Okay but you should go to sleep. Mum and Dad could hear us.", Ben said while holding the cup of water then started to walk out of the kitchen. He turned off the kitchen lights in order to make Beau more annoyed with him.

"You stupid f**k! I'm still here b***h!" , Beau yelled.

"Can't hear you! Hahaha!", Ben teased Beau then laughed.

"Ugh!", Beau shrugged in annoyance. She took her phone and put it into one of her pyjama's pocket. She took her walking stick and starts to get ready to walk until she gets to her room upstairs. Walking with a stick is not a problem for Beau. She is glad she can do it alone and does not need to ask for anyone's help. She feels bad if she will burden her family. Her mother is worried when she found out her sprained ankle. Same goes to her father. But she calmed them down by telling them not to worry about her, that she is going to be okay.

As she got into her room, she continues watching Piano Boy's videos. Oh, how she wishes this boy is in her life. She wishes she would have a boyfriend with a voice like that. She wonders why she would be stupid enough to fall in love with someone that she never met and have a hope in meeting him someday?This is just awfully hopeless! That voice would calm her when she is sad, would make go to sleep when she could not do so, that voice would save so many lives, that voice could cure depression and anxiety, that voice is just everything. She misses him although she has never met him. She secretly has a crush on him although she does not know who the hell is this guy.

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Mrs Felicia walks into the dancing hall to see a teenage boy who seem like a senior student who is alone, is busy typing on his laptop's keyboard, seeming clueless and stressed out looking at the screen at the corner of the empty dancing room. From the far, she could see his perfectly thick shaped eyebrows frowning angrily looking at the laptop. Mrs Felicia is confused as she has never seen the student before.

"Hello?", Mrs Felicia broke the ice on him. Nomi who heard the voice turned to look up from his laptop to see who it is. Nomi could feel his head wants to blow up from focusing too much then suddenly someone called him. He widened his eyes to see a woman who he guesses is in her 40's came up to him with a confused face.

"Are you a new student?", Mrs Felicia asked. Nomi feels so blurred from the eventually simple question. He could feel his brain stops functioning. He just gives her a confused look and dropped his jaw a little in confusion. After a few seconds of his brain went blur, he could finally give a response only by affording to shake his head. Nomi's eyes studied her features properly. She has crinkles on her face, black hair and ocean blue eyes.

"Then?", Mrs Felicia asked in confusion. Her eyes itself scanning the boy's features completely from head to toe. Messy black hair, perfectly shaped thick uni brows, tired and sad looking brown eyes, wears a pair of glasses, tanned brownish skin, dried lips, moustache that is not so obvious looking as she can tell maybe he has shaved it, same goes with his beard.

"I-I don't go here. I-I c-came from m-Malaysia.", Nomi said timidly with his voice shaking with how the teacher acts. He could tell she is strict just by looking at her stern face.

"Oh, so you're the boy who's gonna be with Beau?", Mrs Felicia begins to understand who is this boy. Nomi just nodded shyly.

"Welcome here, then. So you know that we are changing the scripts, right?", Mrs Felicia asked while crossing her arms.

Nomi felt surprised when Mrs Felicia said that. He has no idea what is going on. He raised his eyebrows in shock. "What?", he asked in curiosity.

"Oh you don't know? We're changing the scripts. Your teacher never tells you about it?", Mrs Felicia asked.

"No.", Nomi immediately shakes his head in confusion. His heart begins to race at the thought of how longer they are going to edit the scripts.

"I know you're new. But you should be prepared. How can you not know? We just had a meeting. And we're thinking of changing the scripts to make your jobs easier. No talking, just musical horror show. Like a silent movie.", Mrs Felicia explained with an irritated face. She starts to look down on Nomi as she does not like how he looks. Nomi started to feel regret and stupid after Mrs Felicia expressed that on him.

"Oh.", Nomi feels relieved as he begins to understand but in the same time feeling sad by Mrs Felicia's words. He feels happy now that at least he does not have to talk. He smiled a little to Mrs Felicia who has been nothing but acting cold towards him.

"Yeah, it's a good news for you guys right?", said Mrs Felicia, being sarcastic.

"Thank you.", Nomi thanked Mrs Felicia with an awkward smile. Mrs Felicia does not say anything to respond to him.

"Come here by 8 a.m tomorrow. We're having a rehearsal.", Mrs Felicia said simply and straight away walked out of the dancing hall. Nomi kind of feel hurt by Mrs Felicia's actions on how cold she was. He feels like she talks to him as if he is no one. It is only the first day he is in this school and he already feeling demotivated by her. 'It's okay. I'm fine. I'm used to it.' , Nomi's heart spoke in order to make himself feel better. It is true that he has always been treated like by most of his teachers so he is trying to be okay with that.

Nomi saves his assignments. Nomi does not have a mood to do it anything anymore. He took out his phone and dial Mr Haze's number to call even he knows he is not supposed to because Mr Haze is in a meeting with Mr Greg and the school's principal. Nomi could not think straight after talking to Mrs Felicia. Surprisingly, Mr Haze answered his call because Nomi thought he would not.

"Hey, what's up Nomi?" , Mr Haze asked in a friendly tone.

"I'm not really feeling well. Can I go back to the hotel?", Nomi asked.

"Omg why? What's wrong? Are you alright?" , Mr Haze's tone immediately changed to concern.

"I don't know how to say it, teacher...I'm alright. But I just don't feel good right now..", Nomi said slowly.

"That's too bad...Mr Greg wanted to invite us to have a lunch with the principal. The principal wants to meet you." , said Mr Haze in feeling sympathy.

Nomi wishes he could tell Mr Haze he is feeling suicidal right now, but sadly, he does not know how to tell him. He does not know how to explain what he is feeling to his teacher. Of course, he does not want to let his teacher knows that he is suicidal and he is feeling it right now. Nomi does not know how to explain his feeling to Mr Haze without telling truth.

"Oh..", Nomi said sadly. He does not feel like having a lunch with anyone nor to see anyone. He just wants to go back to the hotel and meets his small pair of sharp stainless steel friend, his scissors. He does not like it when people want to distract him from meeting his little friend.

"Are you still at the dancing hall? I want to see you now?" , Mr Haze asked in concern.

"Yes.", Nomi said.

"Okay, I'm coming now." , Mr Haze said as the end of their phone call conversation.

Shortly after that, Nomi decides to go back to the hotel alone. He does not want to wait for Mr Haze or anyone. The urge of him wanting to hurt himself is building up even more and more and he could not wait anymore. He really hates himself that he wants to punish himself.

He walks out of the dancing hall quickly. He could see there are a lot of students at the school hallway when he got out. He noticed some students there gave him a look that made Nomi uncomfortable. The anxiety is building up in him even more, he could not bare the fear of having to face them as he is "new" there. He has been trying to avoid meeting them which was why he has been in the dancing hall alone all day, so no one knows he is there. He could feel his heart beats as fast as it can, he could feel his bloodstream getting cold and he could feel his legs shivered when he walks. He feels like he wants to faint immediately. He is that scared to face them. He is afraid that anyone would talk to him or even worse, bullying him.

Nomi is so close to cry when his heart had to suffer from beating that fast. He was okay before Mrs Felicia came by and ruined his whole mood. He could not breath properly. As he got out of the school, his phone rings in his pocket. He took it out and it is Mr Haze. He does not want to pick up his phone as he is having anxiety thinking about if Mr Haze would get mad thinking that he is running away from all of this.

There is a taxi nearby the school and walked towards the taxi. As he walks, he could feel his body loosing energy and strength to walk. All he wanted to do is to punish himself when he gets back to the hotel. Nomi's feel his phone vibrates in his pants pocket but he does not feel to pick up his phone. He could feel himself loosing his mind at the moment. He got into the taxi and asked the driver to drive to the hotel. He just wants to go to his room. In the car, he feels hard to catch his breath. He tried to inhale his breath from the air but he could not do that easily. His body keeps shivering but he tried to control as he does not want the driver to notice him. He tries to hard to hold in his tears. His face is getting red as he is trying to handle his tears from dripping out.

As Nomi arrived to the hotel, he quickly ran towards his room. He is glad that his mother is not there as she is attending a business meeting with her pen pal. He unlocked the door and shuts the door loudly. He tosses himself onto the bed and cried. He then turns his body to face the ceiling and he continues to cry silently. Tears could not stop running down to his face. His heart feels like it is getting stab as he cries.

Nomi's mind feels lost, he looked around the hotel room trying to find his scissors. He took his pencil case from his bag and took out his scissors. He tosses his ringing phone onto the bed and he begins to take off his clothes. The clock shows it is already 3 p.m. He decides to take a shower and in the same time he is bringing his 'friend' in with him.

Nomi has been feeling pressure since this morning that he could not complete his assignments with ease. He feels like his assignments are so complicated. He does not know why he is the only one who has to feel this way when his other classmates could do their assignments easily and everything could go smooth for them. He thought why he could not be like them? Is he too stupid? Is he just meant to be a failure in everything? Why does everything has to be hard for him? 'What is wrong with me?' , he asked himself.

Nomi tends to question himself when it comes to situations like this. He could not accept the fact that he has so many flaws. He always questions why everybody else could do it but he could not? He feels like he is just good for nothing. He feels worthless and stupid which is why even Mrs Felicia whom he had never met before would hate him at the very first time they met. He tends to find where did he do wrong, he always thinks that he has done a lot of sins that he thinks God hates him which is why God makes everything feels so hard for him since he was little.

Nomi turned on the shower and cries in there. His tears feels really warm as it is running down his cheeks. The sound of the water coming out of the shower makes him feel at peace to cry. The water feels warm. Suddenly, all the flashbacks from his past hit his memory. He still blames himself for everything. He still blames himself that his ex-girlfriend left him because he could never be enough for her no matter how much he tried. He suddenly remembers how most people have treated him badly before. He remembers every mistakes he has done in his life. He feels like he is good for nothing but doing mistakes and be stupid constantly.

'Ya Allah..I failed. I failed in my studies, I failed in love, I failed in being a good person, I failed everyone around me. I failed at everything. I tried to be good. I tried to work hard..but maybe I'm just a failure. I'm so dumb, right?' , Nomi's little broken heart speaks.

'I can't do this. I hate myself. I f*****g hate myself. I deserve this. I deserve this punishment.' , Nomi thought. He took his scissors and put out his arms that are already full with messy bruised-lines carved by himself.

'f**k you! You're stupid!' , Nomi pressed down the sharp scissors onto his skin and pull it out from the skin.

'You're ugly!' , again, Nomi cuts his skin. All the negative thoughts keep hitting on his head that makes him doing the activity to his skin repeatedly.

'Go f**k yourself!' , Nomi thought as he continues to cut his lower arms. His scissors then went down to his thighs. Same goes to his arms, his thighs are already full with scars. He adds some more scars to his thighs. He continues to cry and curse at himself silently.

After 30 minutes of breakdown, Nomi finally stopped. He lets the water keep flowing as he leans againts the bathroom wall. Tears could not stop running down his cheeks. He feels extremely tired and weak. His hates himself so much that he feels satisfied that he already gave a punishment to himself. In the same time, he feels really stupid that he hurt himself like that. He could feel the pain after all the cuts. He feels like he deserves the pain. He feels like he does not deserve anything in this world but death. He always feels like he should not be alive anymore. He always wondered why is he still here.

Nomi slowly gets up from the bathroom floor and continues to take his bath like nothing ever happened before. His body feels more in pain when he lets the water dripping down his body after he cut himself.

Nomi feels like it is so hard for him to walk as he legs feels painful. He changed into his sleeping clothes. He feels so weak and tired after crying for a long time. He checks his phone to see 15 missed calls from Mr Haze. He knows he is being disrespectful towards his teacher but he feels too depressed to respond anything to Mr Haze. He is out of words to think about what to say to his teacher. His mind is all blurry now. He laid down onto his bed and closes his eyes. He slowly gets unconcious and he fell finally fell asleep.