My Son Or My Mate ---- completed ----

chapter 7

Phoenix pov

Blake is going crazy howling, sulking that our mate is scared of us. When she passed out I was so worried I took her home and got the pack doctor to check her out. He said she was fine just fainted from shock. I laid with her till she woke up. Hoping she would come round to the idea but she just started screaming. I left her cause if I stayed any longer my heart would of broke. I hate knowing she's afraid of me or Blake. We love her more than anything in the world. I mind link Laila asking her to come over.

"Phoenix are you ok. What's happened." She says while walking up to me in the kitchen.

"I told her what I am. I showed her Blake and she passed out in fear. She's so scared of me now I don't know what to do. Please can you help me. Can you talk to her. Be her friend" I cry out. I've never cried over a girl before but knowing she hates me and is scared of me makes me just want to cry a river.

"Of course, I'll go now is she in your room" I just nod yes and she leaves to find Lake.

Lakes pov

"Lake" she says shocked.

"Laila. Oh my god Laila. Please help me. I've been kidnapped by a wolf man. Please don't think I'm crazy" I cuddle her crying my eyes out. She strokes my hair and hugs me back

"Lake it's ok you don't have to be scared. I'm here to help you" I back off her slowly

"How did you find me?" I question "do you know that man out there?" I raise my voice. "Are you helping him keep me locked away" I burst out into more tears.

"Lake. Pheonix is my brother. I am also a she-wolf. Please calm down I will answer all your questions. Come sit with me" she pats the empty space next to her on the bed. I wipe my tears and calm down then go sit next to her.

"Ok what Is a mate. Your brother said I was his he also called me a Luna."

"A mate is a wolves other half. Your his soulmate. You two were made for each other he's been waiting his whole life for you. I have also a mate every wolf does. It's not rare for a wolf to have a human mate but it is rare for a alpha to have a human mate. And a Luna is the title you get when your matted to an alpha. You help him run the pack." She says softly trying to calm me down still.

"What if I don't want this. Isn't there something I can do to get out of all this mate and Luna stuff"

She shifts in her seat looking down. She shakes her head no. I can tell she's lying

"Your lying. There is something I can do to get away from this. Tell me I deserve to know. I have a right to decide my life and future." I plead holding her hand

She sighs and meets my eyes. "There's a thing called rejection. You can reject your mate and break the mate bond. Be careful though this isn't something to take lightly. A rejection can sometimes kill ones wolf. If he isn't strong enough to handle the pain you cause by breaking his heart." She pauses. Looking down at her hands in her lap

"Please tell me what happens if I reject him?" I ask curiously

"Because he's an alpha he will feel it 10 times worse than a regular wolf. When your rejected by your mate your heart literally breaks in half. The pain causes like a fire burning feeling to take over the whole body. If they survive that which some don't, they live the rest of their lives empty and alone. The feeling of the broken heart never goes. It can be so intense and painful, some take their own lives. Please don't kill my brother like that" she cries out. I wrap my arms around her. I know what I have to do. I really don't want to do this.

"Laila I need you to find Jake for me. I need you to bring him back here. If you don't I will reject your brother." I say sternly. She looks at me blankly, "He's 4 years old, brown hair, slim and a little smaller than your average 4 year old." 

She gasps and looks at me. "Who is he?" She asks.

"He's my son"

Her face pales and she runs out the room. what the heck was that all about. 

Phoenix POV.

While Laila talks to Lake I decided to head to the pack house and see what the guys have found about our rogue problem. It's a one minute walk from my house it's the building practically next door. I like to be close to the pack. But with all these attacks I think me and Lake should move into the pack house so we can protect the children.

I've been in my office for a few hours with Ethan, Ross my gamma and Paul. Paul is head of security. He is running the boarder patrol. I'm not happy these filthy rogues managed to get on my territory and kill a child. They will pay for this.

After they leave I sit alone and mind link Laila.

"Hey how is it going have you calmed her down?" I ask Laila

"Erm I had to pop out but we spoke and she's ok. She calmed down and has accepted it. She's still a little confused and has questions but I told her you would answer most of them"

"WHAT YOU f*****g LEFT HER WHAT IF HSE RUNS AND I LOSE HER." I scream

"Calm down trust me she isn't leaving"

I run down stairs and stop cause I can smell her coming from the living room. Wait she's in the pack house. I run towards the living room and stop when I see her playing with two young pups. The image melted my heart. She was actually smiling. A real genuine smile. It was the best thing I've ever seen. The young pups are showing her their dolls.

"Lake. Are you ok? What brings you here?" I ask. The young pups look at me and bow their heads "Alpha" they say as they leave the room giggling. She stands up.

"I'm ok. Sorry I left the room I just wanted to get to know this place. Where exactly are we" she ask

"I'm glad you didn't run off. I'm sorry for how I've acted these last few days. I ... that isn't me. I want to spoil you and treat you like the princess you are. I've just been so worried and with the rogues and the dead child."

"Wait what?" She asks

"We've hand a boy around 4 years old, brown hair die on our territory." She goes pale. Her breathing quickens. She's gasping for air. She falls to the floor and I catch her wrapping my arms around her. I cradle her and rock her back and forth.

"Count to 10 with me baby girl"

We both start counting and her breathing starts going back to normal. Just as we get to 10 the door opens and in walks Laila.

"Mummy" I hear and see this little boy run to Lake. She jumps up and grabs him hugging him.

I look at Laila confused, I turn my gaze to Lakes back. "You have a son" my voice started to break. How can she have a son? How could she be with another man.

Lakes pov

I ignore Phoenix cause frankly I don't care what he has to say.

I cant f*****g believe she found him. He looks ok he doesn't look hurt. My heart breaks when he pushes me away. I know he's mad.

"Mummy you left me. You don't want me. Is it cause I'm ugly and a loser. You hate me mummy? you hate max mummy?. You break your promises. What happened to always and forever." He just cried out. I cry with him.

"Jake. I will always want you and I love you more than anything on this planet. Your perfect to me baby never say them things again it breaks mummy's heart hearing you say that. I love you and max (I hold out my pinkie) always and forever." He just turns to Laila, takes her hand and leaves me sitting there crying on the floor. I hate my life so much right now. I turn to Phoenix my body filled with rage.

"THIS IS ALL YOUR FAULT!! My son hates me because of you. He's been living god only knows how these last three days because your a selfish prick. You say you love me huh. Love isn't drugging and kidnapping some one. Its sacrificing your happiness to ensure the one you love is happy. Give me one f*****g reason why I shouldn't reject you right now and make you feel how I feel." I hiss out at him. He looks down tears in his eyes. I look around and notice loads of people staring at us. They look like they want to rip me apart. At this point in time I don't care what they do to me.

"Lake I'm sorry I didn't realise Jake was your son. You never said. I'm so sorry let me talk to him" he cries out in a low broken voice.

"YOU NEVER GAVE ME THE CHANCE TOO, EVERY TIME I SAID HIS NAME YOU THREATENED TO KILL MY BABY. YOU JUST STAY AWAY FROM HIM..... AND ME" I storm out, as I leave a few growl at me.

I leave the house and go sit by a giant tree not too far away. I want to be there if Jake comes looking for me, but I don't think he will, he is so hurt and broken and he thinks its cause of what them horrible people said a couple of months ago. God please let Jake forgive me.