Boss Lady

Chapter 13

Caleb

Now, as we stand three feet apart and stare at each other, I feel the full distance that comes with spending so much time apart, a moment filled with the electricity of a first meeting and the uncertainty of strangers. Until that moment I had not understood that this was a story about l only people, about absence and loss, and that that was why I had taken refuge in it until it became confused with my own life, like someone who has escaped into the pages of a novel because those whom he needs to love seem nothing more than ghosts in habiting the mind of a stranger.my wife felt like a stranger to me, if I try to touch her, she might refuse or for just a short while.why do you look so worked up? " Elisha asked.nothing I said, taking a sip of my whiskey.where is madam? " he knows. She was barely home. " I saidis it why you look tired?" he asked.she is a different person when I came back " I said man, you know women they are moody" he said I hope that mood changes because I miss my wife " I saidHe laughed ,he left after an hour.I was off today I wanted to spend time with my wife but she wasn't anywhere to be seen. . she came back around 17.hey, " she said," Mi amor, " I said." You are drunk, " she said, getting the glass from my hand.why do you smell a man's perfume " I asked you are drunk " she said am not drunk to tell that you are wearing a man's perfume" I said I met an old friend; he is the one who I hugged " she said oh ok" I said she went to take a shower. later she prepared supper for us.Caleb I am tired " she said when have you been tired having s*x with me, your husband? "I asked. I am tired today," she said Sharon is a s*x freak, and I know how much my wife enjoys sex." But her refusing was really worrying me.where are you going?" I asked am going to see maria, her baby isn't feeling too well " she said let me go with you I take a look at the baby" I saidshe already took him to the hospital " she said what time will you be back" I asked 2hours time " she said she kissed my cheek and walked away.I started planning for her birthday, since today was her 27th birthday, I was planning a surprise party for her ...I thought she was with you " I asked maria.me " she answered surprised maybe I didn't get her " I said maybe '' she said the weird part was that the boy, she was talking about was running up and down.it's really nice that you are planning a party for her, too bad it's only for the four of you " she said I needed some family time " I said anyway, I wanted to see her, tell her that I came to see her " she said I started planning for our dinner, I cooked and set the table with candles and flowers.daddy am sleepy mummy is not coming " he said she is let's wait a little bit longer " I saidok but am tired " he said yawning.Sharon took longer than expected. after giving the boys they food, I took them to bed... I decided to go to bed as well ... I have a history of making decisions very quickly about others. I have always fallen in love fast and without measuring risks. I have a tendency not only to see the best in everyone but to assume that everyone is emotionally capable of reaching his highest potential. I have fallen in love more times than I care to count with the highest potential of a man,rather than with the man himself, and I have hung on to the relationship for a long time (sometimesfar too long) waiting for the man to ascend to his own greatness. Many times, in romance, I have been a victim of my own optimismthe pain I felt after what Sharon did was unbelievable.

SHARON

What do you do when the one person you want comfort from the most is the one who caused your pain? How can I want so desperately for him to wrap me up in his arms but also want so much for him to leave me alone? Love is never supposed to hurt. Love is supposed to heal, to be yourhaven from misery, to make living f*****g worthwhile. I did the searching and remembering, shedid the disappearing and the forgetting. The shattering of a heart when being broken is the loudestquiet ever. To make one person the center of your world is bound to end in disaster. There are toomany factors outside your control. It hurts to love. It's like giving yourself to be flayed and knowingthat at any moment the other person may just walk off with your skin.as I entered the house, I found my birthday cake on the table. there were gifts on the table next tomy cake, I opened the first box, it was a beautiful dress and matched shoes ...oh my God " I whispered.I went to my room and found him sleeping peacefully. I got a call from Andrew.hey " I answeredhope you got home safely " he asked yes, thank you for the best birthday" I saidyou deserve the all world my queen" he saidI want the world" I giggledI will get you that my queen " he saidam sleepy my love, can we talk Tomorrow " I saidI love you" he saidGoodnight" I hung upI took a shower and joined Caleb in bed, how am I going to explain to him. I woke up very early and prepared jr for school. I stood by the bus station as we waited for the bus.mummy. Where were you? " he asked when darling " I askedyesterday, daddy planned a beautiful day for you " he saidI know baby I saw it " I said it.the bus came and picked him up.as I was about to walk away a car stopped.hey beautiful" he saidhi " I saidwhere are you heading to? " he asked home," I saiddo you mind taking you?"" " he said no, thank you, sir. I am already home," I saidam Anthony. "He said okay Anthony" I said," What's your name? " " " he asked , " I said. Do you mind giving me your line, Rose? " he askedI have somewhere to be " I saidyour number and I won't bother you " he saidI knew this man wasn't going to give up so I gave him my line and I went back home. I foundCaleb watching TV.morning babe " I said he was quite babe," I said he got up and I followed him.babe please hear me out " I said hear what Sharon that you lied about you being with maria, maria was here looking for you " he said oh sheet " I thought to myself.where did you go? " he asked okay fine, I went to the boutique" I said boutique didn't I get you people to help you with the boutique " he askedyes, but you want those girls to steal from me " I askedI trust those girls " he saidare you sleeping with those girls? " I asked excuse me " he asked.you have heard " i said Sharon even if you starve me forever, I wouldn't go looking for anybody to satisfy me " he said.I know I cheat but I forgot the rules that never make your partner feel left out ...let me go watch soccer I have work later. I grabbed his hand and I pinned him to the wall.I started kissing him ...the s*x I gave him, I doubt he will work properly.I was thinking of having another little one " he said Caleb why " I asked mi amor, look I even told you when you were pregnant with malumbo that I want a lot of kids " hesaid stroking my hair.a baby will ruin my life now.am not ready for a third baby " I saidwhen. will you be ready? ''he askedI will let you know and you know that I will be going for attachments soon " I saidyour attachment won't you be doing them here" he askedI was thinking kabwe" I saidfor how long" he asked.a month" I saidthat's far amor, you know you are a mother what will happen to the boys " he askedit's not like you won't be around" I saidSharon you are not going anywhere, are you going mad, malumbo is 3 he is still a baby " he saidhe is a boy, baby you can't take care of him, why are you selfish" I yelledhe got up and put on his boxer and looked at me.it's not fair " I saidSharon you call me selfish, I work my butt off to put food on the table, to take you to school. youdrive an expensive car, your clothes, and you are here saying am selfish" he asked when Caleb is upset, he will call me my name ...I can't go for attachments because of my kids really am going to kabwe" I said you are foolish Sharon " he said I slapped him.never in your life call me that, I sacrificed my family because of you and here you are calling me foolish "I saidI miss my wife this woman right here is not my wife "he said walking out.I broke down, when I calmed down, I got ready and went to the mall to meet maria.chitalu has grown" I said looking at her son.you don't want to come and see him, next time you will hear that he is married" she saidI have been busy " I saidwith what " she asked life " I said my phone rung and it was Andrew, I ignored it.you fought with Caleb" she asked I nodded instead of talking to him you are here ignoring his calls " she said he doesn't want me to go to kabwe " I said what's in kabwe " she asked.my attachments" I said Andrew kept on calling.why can't you do them from here " she asked kabwe is better " she said Sharon do you want to find another woman taking care of you family" she asked God forbid will that happen" I said wait, you will know God " she said the reason why I want to go to kabwe it's because a man I met last week works in kabwe and I wanted to be with him."Babe, what's going on, I haven't seen you in a week. I am going crazy please call me back, I miss you so much," Andrew.I clicked my tongue. I didn't start sleeping with him because I wanted love, I slept with him because I wanted just wanted to for fun.