Losing Love

In my dreams

I had just started my new book and it was new for me. I was giving myself this chance to write something I was thinking about for myself using myself as the character and living my fantasy out through my book. And boy let me tell you so far this was a good one I was only in the sixth chapter and I just couldn't stop the words from flowing through my finger tips. I liked to live vicariously through my books be it writing or reading. It was the safest option for me not worrying about having to come clean about my fettishs and having to worry about someone judging me or no wanting to participate. I mean I am not like some super freak but I do like some kink and some fun. Kyle was never that type even when we first started this relationship and I was ok with that but it didn't mean that I didn't still want what I liked. I was human after all. I would never hurt Kyle's feelings because i knew that just wasn't him he was a normal guy who wanted his and he was happy so long as we both came he was good. I tried a few times to get him to try some stuff with me but Kyle just wasn't into it he never really had anyone ask him either. So this Dom book was something I initially started for fun but It had now turned into a serious thing and the words were coming to me freely. Kyle would die if ever got a hold of this one and I was pretty sure wouldn't so why not go on. As I was into my eighth chapter and the second time my subtress what's being tied up and blind folded my cell started to ring. I knew it would only be a small few who would be calling but I would bet on Kyle. Sure enough it was I had missed the call but he sent me a message. As I open I'm suprised to see Kyle letting m know his family will finally be here and we would be having a bar b que this weekend so I could meet them finally and they could meet me. It would only be his mom and younger brother his dad left when his brother was out a baby. I know thats a shocker married and all and never met his family. But as I said small simple and nothing to much. I guess I jut knew Kyle's mom would be ok just like him I wasn't sure about he brother though he was always off somewhere when Kyle and his mom talked over the phone.