THE GANGSTER'S DAUGHTER

chapter 6- Issues

KATANA'S POINT OF VIEW

it had been almost a year now my father hadn't gotten any better, in fact he was still in the comma. I began to lose faith in him, what happens if he never gotten better, what happened if I have to live this life forever. everything was just complicated. in fact it wasn't so good for me to explain that position, I hadn't paid the bills for a while now I don't even think I can stay in the house in longer it was this morning that I found out something very amazing. it was near 3:00 a.m. and I decided to stay up late finish a Home Economic project. I eventually fell asleep after 12:00 p.m. when I awoke up that morning it was after 2:00am. I had just saw the mail man drop the mail into fence and left I didn't hesitate to go for them, I sprung outside as quickly as I could grabbing Mails out of the fence then run back inside.

as I stared at the Mail it began to taunt me, "should I open it, I feel like I should." I began to open the mail, my face began to shine bright as I saw the bill of the house it was reduced, I don't know how anyone one had pay the bill... the bill that was which $9,000 and more had now been reduced just $30. "but who, who could have paid that much money only to help me." whoever they were, I'm grateful, I'm really honestly grateful

I was happy from working so much only to make money for the bills, now im happy I have $900 in my pocket to supply for myself. before I knew it my phone was in my hand and there was Yui's number on speed dial. I was happy to tell her the good news.

Yui's point of view

my life had been at ease knowing that katana's Bill had just been paid and that she didn't have to worry about making money for herself... tomorrow was the last day of school before midterm, I had not told katana about my father, and I was too scared to tell her. I was afraid that she would distance herself like everyone else in fact that was the main reason why I was friendless. I wasn't ready to tell her about my father, I wasn't ready to tell her about me, I wasn't ready to tell her that I had feelings for her. everything was like at a point where I couldn't manage to hold on to any more secrets. it was 2:00 a.m. when Katana had called,she was happy. she told me that someone had paid her house bill for her and that she could take it easy on the working, of course she could. she's only 15 how could she even manage to take care of her own self, she worked for hours and was paid $50 every hour so katana didn't make much money. everything was devastating for her, her father is in hospital, her mother in a different state and she had no other family so her life was like a ship on the rough seawater. at one point I felt as if she had gave up..

tomorrow was the last day of school before it was winter break, I decided to ask katana to meet me at the front gate at school. today was going to be the day I told her every little thing from the tiniest secret to the biggest one I hid. that meant I had to tell her about me and my father, the i relationship i held in society and the relationship I held abroad. everything was a little nerve-wracking but I had to stay strong and tell her the truth I couldn't keep lying to her, it felt wrong. at that time I had heard my father's car pulled into the garage,he sounded furious as he slamed the front door shut, I could hear his heavy footsteps marching up the stairs and heavy panting. he stopped in front of my bedroom, was he mad at me,“Yui!!" he shouted as he opened my door.

“Did you take up any of my money?im missing 40k." he ask folding his arm

I know it's bad at lying but I had to try this time, if I told the truth it would have made it worse if I told a lie you wouldn't know until. I shook my head slowly,“no father I didn't, I thought I saw it on the table the other day you had it in a black bag." my father couldn't looking me as if he knew I was lying but he only turned around and walked away. I can remember was falling asleep again.

the morning grew strong and the sun had just rip off the Band-Aid. the road was clear and everything was bright, something felt off not that it was like my usual morning I felt as if someone was watching me I stood up from my bed I called out to anyone but there wasn't any response,guess i was home home alone. I began to prepare for school knowing that I had promised katana I had to tell her the truth. ignoring the feeling of someone watching me, I began to prepare for school my uniform had just been ironed and my shoes just been cleaned I quickly put them on and headed to school leaving my lunch money and my lunch at home. it was fine I already had money on me, it was enough to get a new tattoo as well. I was at least a mile away from school when I had gotten a strange phone call, I ignored it but then they called back, I ignored it again. the process began to repeat itself over and over they called and called but I only seem to ignore the call.

As i finally have reached the school gate and katana was still waiting, I called out to her then a big smile across her face. she raced to hug me, and I did the same as well. Her empty-less pale eyes had become so bright, there was no share of darkness in them. her smile had felt so real I didn't feel as if she was pretending. katana had looked happy for the first time in a long time, I didn't want to tell her about my father I wasn't ready yet. She places her hand on to my cheeks and I began to burn up I was blushing way too hard.. The first Time in forever i knew who I was supposed to be, and I felt happy. her smile had placed joy in my heart I couldn't, I couldn't bare to see her sad again. She smiled even harder, and I felt as if she was putting me into a trance I felt light.

suddenly before it all ended a car pulled up extreme close to us and katana dropped her hand quickly, we both stared into the car. the tinted dark window revealed a shape, a male. katana and I shared a look before we stared back into the car. the window began to slowly wind down, and there was my seated father. he stared at me in and then stared at katana afterwards. I could see the disgusted look in his face, he wanted to say something but he couldn't. I grabbed katana by her hand and pulled her into the schoolyard ducking her into our empty classroom, slamming the door shut i turned To katana, as i was about to grab her by the waist and kiss her, she pulls away and stares at me “what's wrong?" she asked. I shook my head gesturing to her nothing was wrong, I stared into her eyes and the bright beautiful eyes now became dull in color.

the unsettling silence goes stronger and I became weak, suddenly katana's face turned blue, “ is it true?”she asked.

I couldn't say anything else..

“what?!” i responded back

“your family, why didn't you tell me,you know you could get me in trouble."

I held Katana's hand in my hand and stare her into her eyes they were bitter blue.

Did I break her trust?

Do she hate me now?

What should I do now?

katana pulled her away from me and turned her face away. she muttered under her breath,"I can't believe your family with a." she paused. I stared into her eyes once more and then walk away,"im diffrent why dont you see that, I guess your like everyone else!" i said

"look yui you and i should stay away from another. i thought the rumors about your dad was just a lie but i just it was right, and the way i see things, your going to become a juvenile like your father." i stepped back and turned to the door. "i thought you were different,i thought that could be together, but i was just delusional." I then headed to the door then left the classroom. My heart had just been Shattered,I couldn't think straight. I Quickly grabbed my bag and ran as fast as i could to the mall. The tattoo shop was my only sorce of mentally putting myself back together. As I entered the tattoo shop, May Lee greeted me as she normally did. she smiled at me harder than she would normally, “You look sad, boyfriend broke yo heart?" she asked

I sighed then nodded,“no,not really. is kajim working today?" I asked. May's face turned sour and she nodded,"no, im sorry to tell you this but, his wife called yesterday, he passed."

I got weak, my energy felt drained, my body began to loose posture. "You sure, are you playing with me?" I asked. May began to stummer as she explained everything, i got weak till my knees dropped to the ground.. may lee seated me on a chair at a corner. she began holding me as i tears began to roll down my cheeks.

Kajim was like a brother,he was only 30 years old, he had everything he wanted children,a beautiful wife a nice job a beautiful home and a loving family. some time he made me feel like I was apart of it. I became emotionally attached to him, although he was my dad's friend he didn't think twice on letting me get tattoos. especially the ones matching his. kajim was a father to me than my actual dad. at that moment I broke down.

I couldn't cope with kajim's death.

I lost myself in sadness.

who was I to be like my father.

I was soft and father called having a heart a weakness.

And you know what, he was right it was a weakness.

A weakness that would mentally break you.

And right now i will try to get rid of my weakness.

dad once said to me,“If you love, dont give it your all because it will hurt the moment they leave." ill remember that and ill also remember kajim until I die..