Secrets Glasses

more than a dream?

Usually i don't remember my dreams. They are like hidden values inside me. They are more than my real life. But i remember my dream last night. It was a tunnel. And in my dream i thought i'm dead. A grief filled me with a strange feeling of relaxation. I think it's my subconcious theory about death. That it's not full of secrets. It's just a full relaxation. Maybe the grief was my mother's as she has strong connection with me. Weaker it gets as i grow up. Funny i don't consider myself as a grown up yet. Grown ups universe is full of thoughts about money and i don't like it. Money can be interesting but not in the way people think about it.

The tunnel's walls were full of symbols and paintings. It was a portrait from a man i saw yesterday in an internet meme. He was so confused, like portraying my feelings about life. There were birds and other animals in cages. And surranges all in some corners of the place and i linked them to the animals in my mind. I tried to picture the animal with the funniest facial expressions but then I found out my favorite animal is deer which is remotely serious all the time. I think that was the moment i figured out death is following me inside the tunnel. There was a lot of noises and voices inside my head and i couldn't figure out wether they were generated inside or they were real. Technically they weren't real as they were in my dream. I think that was different from what i imagined as my death moment. I thought it silent and heavy. But it was light. Full of light.