Breaking My Shell

The Party

Looking out the passenger window music muffled through the speakers of Zack’s car, I turn my head around and see that Bear has his headphones on and turn back around and face the front, feeling awkward I take a deep breath and speak “so how was your first day?, you like the school so far?” I questioned Zack “ it seems pretty chill so far” he answers “thanks for taking us by the way…..would” I sigh “I mean what kind of hobbies your into or interest?” I widen my eyes feeling like that was a dumb question, I wanted to feel less weird around Zack since he was friends with Bear and getting to know him or just knowing something would help feeling less weird around him “ that’s a hard question I do like to read” Zack replies, the rest of the ride to the house the party is at we talk about books and lots of other things by the time we get there I feel like I know Zack a little more and have found we have some common ground and I have even suggested a few series for him to take a look at. As we pull up and park I turn and wave to Bear to get his attention letting him know we’re at the party, he unplugs his headphones and puts them away “y’all ready to party!, let’s go get f****d up and get laid” I laugh and open the door “ Common Zack” I hold out my hand and he grabs on, we walk to the front door arm in arm and open it.

Music is blaring out the house and I look over at Zack “ imma go get a shot of something” and wave letting go of his arm and walk towards the kitchen, pushing through bodies I make it there and find a shot glass, I find the whiskey and pour myself a shot and quickly throw it back feeling the slight burn in my throat, I toss back two more to get my buzz going and to work out my nerves, feeling the liquor buzz through my body I head towards where the music is the loudest and see boobies of people dancing, getting into the vibe of the room and the music flowing I move my way into the crowd and start dancing by myself.

I hear “Salt shaker” come on “oh snap” I say to myself, quickly looking for Bear I spot him and wave him over, once he’s in front of me I yell so he can hear me “this my jam!” He smiles at me knowing what’s about to happen and I step away and start moving my body to the rhythm and start to do some of the steps I’m that I could remember, shaking my arms in front and shaking my ass at the same time when it gets to “shake it like a salt shaker” I laugh a little.

The song ends and I stop dancing needing something to drink I hear whistles and applause from a few people and I bow laughing, grabbing Bears hand we go get a drink and then go back to the crowd when we finish getting our cups full of beer, getting back into the groove I start dancing again just enjoying myself, mid song I feel someone come up behind me and start dancing with me I turn around and see a guy that’s in my home room, I’d always thought he was cute so what’s the harm in dancing with him turning my body in his arm I place my arms around his waist and start grinding the front of my body against him, leaning in closer while I dance so I don’t have to yell I say “ I’m Hannah, you’re in my home room right?” Feeling his hands on my ass cheek he cups it “ Yes, I’m Owen” he responds I giggle a little bit “ sorry about that, there are some many in there it’s hard to keep track of whose who” we flirt back and forth for a little while while dancing with each other, turning my body so I can grind my ass against his front I feel his hard bulge against me, feeling more bold then I usually am thanks to the buzz going I turn my head and moan in his ear, he leans his head down and kiss my lips sticking his tongue in my mouth I can’t help but feel disappointed his kiss is sloppy and his touch doesn’t thrill me like Zack’s touch does I can’t help but compare the two and I try to push past it and just enjoy the feeling of his lips, he starts kissing down and feeling more off I stop him and move away “ I’m sorry, I can’t do this“ he grabs my arm tight and pulls me against him “common baby we’re just having some fun” I try to move away again but he has a tight grip on me and it starts to hurt “let go” I tell him, he starts to speak opening up his mouth but the next thing I see is a fist punching him in his jaw, I stumble from the force and feel relief when I’m let go, I look down and I see Zack towering over Owen punching him, I rush over and grab Zack’s shoulder stopping him when he notices, “Zack” I hiccup, looking back at me with rage in his face he stands up, I back up scared and his look changes, with a soft look on his face he reaches over towards me “are you okay Hannah?” He ask in a soft voice, feeling my emotions go wild I jump towards Zack and hug him feeling a tear on my cheek and the material of his hoodie against my face muffling me a little “ can you take me home please” Zack hugs me tight and kisses the top of my hair “ of course Baby girl, let’s go” pulling me out of the hug and close to his side we walk out the house towards his car opening the door when we get there and puts me in the passenger sit he closes the door and runs over to the driver side getting in and starting the car he looks over at me and notices that I’m shivering he takes off his hoodie and hands it to me “Thank-you” I mumble in a soft tone, I put on feeling the warmth from his body on his hoodie I sniffle and close my eyes pulling my legs up near my chest hugging my knees in the seat.

The ride back is completely silent and I feel the car stop I open my eyes and see that we are at my apartment, Zack gets out and comes over to my side, he opens my door and unbuckles the seat belt and he gently scoops me up lift me in his arms I try to protest but he stops me with and finger to my lips “ I gotcha, baby don’t worry” he winks at me and I give up on fighting him and he carries me to my apartment, apparently Bear had given him a spare key he opens the apartment door re-locks it once where inside and carries me to my room and places me on my bed,kneeling down he takes off my shoes and the choker I was wearing and places them somewhere, I look up at him and give a small smile, he tuck a piece of my hair back behind my ear and then pulls back the covers on my bed and he tucks me in my blanket and kisses the top of my forehead “goodnight Hannah” he stands up and just about as he reaches my bedroom door “wait” I say he turn around and looks at me and I sit up “your hoodie” he skates his head “no it’s fine you can wear it” I blush a little “okay thank you, for everything Zack” he shrugs “anytime Hannah” he tries to turn back but I speak up again “Zack” he looks at me “yeah?” I bit my lip feeling nervous a little “could…could you hold me please, I’d feel safer with you here” not answering me, he walks over to my bed and sits back down, shucking off his shoes he wraps his arm around me and lay me down coming with me I turn my body to the side and we get closer me little spoon him big spoon I grab his arm holding close to my chest wrapping my fingers in with his and snuggle in and he wraps us both up and I sigh feeling safe, comfortable and protected in his arms as we both lay there snuggling.