Wings of Destiny

Ch - 11 |Xander|

Everyone looks at me,

She does not

Her attention,

Is what I sought.

Xander

I slammed my head on the steering wheel as I thought and re-thought what I did in the cafe.

Date Me? Alexander you have gone freaking nuts. You don’t date and not Freya Morenson.

And since I asked her, she had been ignoring me for past two days. But today she can’t, today was our history lesson. It is not like I was anxiously waiting for it but I wanted to see her react now that I wanted all date me on her.

It was all that stupid Haylien’s fault. Not only he was too friendly to Freya, he had the nerve to kiss her head. Who doesn’t that? He had known the girl for almost few hours. I debated between getting his ass kicked by my team or challenge him for a basketball match or something to humiliate him but he is always around Freya.

Should I just go to his place and beat him to a pulp?

“Here, Lex, your history notes.” Josh handed me a notebook which was definitely not mine.

“My history notes?” Since when did I make history notes.

“Yeah, Freya gave it to me saying you left in class. I was thinking, is she Mother Teresa reincarnate?” He joked handing the book to me.

I flipped it open and realised it was Freya’s notes. She sends it over through Josh. This made me angry, angrier than the time I found out she sold the phone I brought for her. So she decided to avoid me, to this extent?

I got up furiously and walked out of the cafeteria.

I saw Haylien talking to some girl who was flirting with him but he looked..Constipated. Did he really like Freya that much? It heightened my anger even more.

“where is Freya?” I asked him in a harsh tone.

He frowned at me and then smiled after a minute.

“Are you missing her that much?”

“Haylien , answer the damn question, where is Freya?” I clutched his collar but he seemed calm and collected.

Gently I must say, he lifted my hands away from his collar and dusted it airily.

“Do you even know her a bit? If you did, you might have known already where she might be.” He was mocking me.

Was she in the library? Was she skipping lunch because of me? Argh, I don’t even care.

“Where is she?” I repeated my question.

“At basketball court since it is empty now.” He finally answered and I rushed off immediately.

I saw her sitting with a sandwich in her hand, scribbling something in a book. Her hair was tied in a high messy bun unlike the ponytail she usually made. I walked towards her but the anger was gone now, replaced by something similar to relief.

“I didn’t know you were a coward.” This made her turn her head towards me.

She didn’t look pleased.

I sat down next to her on the stairs and she snapped her book shut.

“I am not a coward.” She defended herself.

“Well, your actions say otherwise. You skipped our lessons and sent Josh with notes.”

“I am sorry about that. I volunteered in teaching kids so I have to prepare for that. I didn’t have enough time so I made notes for you.” She offered with a small smile.

Thump, thump, thump. My heart sounded weird and fast to me when she smile. How can she smile at me? I was her bully.

“Are you mad?” I asked her, a bit annoyed.

“Huh, why?”

“You have school work, you have job at barney’s and now you will teach kids too?”

“It is a church initiative my mom told me about and I want to help. Didn’t your family organised the charity ball to help people?” She was innocent, kind and sweet.

Three things that I was not. It was a good thing that she ignored me, I should far away from her but her ignorance was eating my head.

“I will fail in history.”

“No you will not. These notes are good, I promise.” She took the notebook from my hand and tried to show me some important points but all that was numb, I was just focused on her.

“What did you think about my offer?” I asked out of the blue and she stiffened beside me.

She remained silent and took another bite off her sandwich.

“Ignoring me is not the solution fiore.” I was a little exasperated now.

“I didn’t think about it. Why would I, it’s insane.” She looked at me with a scowl.

“Okay, let me rephrase it then. Hang out with me.” Date was too big a word and I am sure she was scared with all the physical aspects that come with it.

I should start slow.

Or you should just let this go and leave her alone.

“I don’t want to hang out with you.” Her reply was blunt and it kind of hurt me.

No female has ever refused to hangout with me.

“Why?” I asked even though I knew why.

She gave me a pointed look.

“Did you forget I can make your life hell if you don’t agree with me?” It seems only my threatening works on her.

“One minute you want to hang out and the next I am being threatened. What do you want me to do?” She was as confused as I was right now.

“What part of I don’t want you don’t understand?”

This was not going anywhere and before I could try another approach she walked out of the place.

She was infuriating me to the peak.

***

Her notes were effective and I did learn from it but I was feeling torn and agitated by all this. She opted to choose some kids over being with me.

My team mates dragged me out to mall just because they had nothing better to do and their girlfriends were going. But imagine my surprise when I saw Freya, Michael, goth girl and Haylien eating at a food joint. Freya was laughing at something , her head leaned on goth girl’s shoulder.

My mood went sour and I wanted to cry out loud or hit something. She never laughs with me, she not even comfortable around me. What was so wrong in hanging out with me? Why was my popular status useless on her?

Because you acted out like a child and bullied her.

 I saw her get up and walk towards the hand-wash section, I got up and followed her.

“I thought you were too busy to hangout.”

She turned at my words, shocked.

“Tessa dragged me here for shopping help.” She had an excuse for everything.

So the goth girl was Tessa. I saw the chance and pulled her in the employees only lane, no one there right now.

“Alexander, what the hell is wrong now?” She whined and tried to wriggle out of my hold.

I pushed her against the wall and placed my hands on either side of her waist and leaned in.

Her eyes widened in shock and panic.

“You are making me angry Freya.” She gulped and bit her lower lip.

She was making it harder for me.

“What did I do?” Her voice was low and scared.

“You can laugh and smile with everyone, even that Haylien but not me?” I asked through gritted teeth.

“You didn’t gave very much of a nice first expression.” Her eyes now casted down as she was looking for ways to escape.

Unintentionally anger surged through me and I punched the wall making her flinch.

I stepped away from her, from her proximity, her fragrance that was clouding my senses and saw her sigh in relief.

“So you will keep ignoring me?” I sounded desperate even to myself.

She didn’t say a word as she was trying to pull out of the shocked state. In a matter of saying she was still ignoring me.

“Fine, you will regret this fiore.” I tried to sound as menacing as possible.

First she made me feel all weird and crazy and I am pretty sure heaven was warning me to stay away from her and now she is hell bent on testing my patience. I should probably stay away from her but I decided I will not.

“What worse can you do?” She looked at me with angry eyes and pained expression.

She knew as well as I knew that my threat was hollow. What could I do?

***

I passed with freaking test with a B+, all thanks to some infuriating girl. She was still avoiding me and it has been five whole days. She passed me in corridors and never gave me a second glance, in our classes she would find a seat furthest away from me.

The hole in my heart was aching more than ever. I don’t know how it was connected to her but she seemed to affect it somehow.

I did plan to trouble her but I was running short on ideas. Suddenly she walked in the basketball court and I swear my heart skipped a beat. What does that mean?

She noticed me, her eyes widened and she was about to leave. Calling her out would be too weird with all the guys around so I did only that was possible to get her attention. I realised that is what I needed, her attention. Why? I didn’t know it yet.

Maybe because she was giving to other guy easily while I had to strive for it. I never had to strive for anything.

The ball flew out of my hand and it hit the back of her head. People around me laughed at this and I try to kill the guilty feeling building in me.

“Give me the ball back.” I shouted and guys snickered.

She turned around and picked up the ball. And suddenly I felt someone claw out my heart as I saw red liquid trickle down her nose. She threw the ball with all the force and hurried out the place.

And you wonder why she doesn’t want to socialise.

I screwed up again and throwing away the ball I hurried to catch up after her. But for now she was nowhere in sight and I yelled out in anger, scaring half the student population in the hall.

***

I waited in the parking lot for her to step out of the school so that i can talk to her.

“You are obsessed with her.” Josh said in a serious tone.

“No, she just agitates me.”

“because she ignores you and you want her attention.”

I never knew Josh was such an observant person but he was wrong, I was not obsessed with her.

“And it makes you angry to see the new guy around her.”

“Okay, that’s enough Josh. Why don’t you start writing novels for career?” I glared at him but he just gave me a look as if I was hopeless.

Suddenly Freya walked out and this time she was alone. She clutched a tissue to her nose. Not caring what Josh would observe I walked towards her and saw her cringe.

“Are you okay?” I blurted out the question.

She showed me the tissue soaked in blood and gave me a dry look, “Does this look okay to you?”

“But don’t worry I will live through it.” She stated flatly and started walking.

Damn Alexander, this is what boys meant by chasing after a girl.

 I literally followed after her like a lost puppy.

“I didn’t mean to hurt you.” I muttered.

“What time, you hurt me zillion times already so please be specific?”

Atleast she was not ignoring me.

“why were you running away when you saw me in basketball court then? I told you I hate being ignored.”

Just apologise and stop grovelling.

But it was not that easy, I have never apologised.

“And I told you I don’t like being around you.” She snapped and then closed her eyes as if trying to calm herself down.

“And yet you asked to help me?”

“Because I am that way, can’t you see I like to help people if I don’t like them.”

That I did know.

“Now leave me alone.” She started walking faster.

What should I say?

Suddenly a car stopped in front of her and Haylien peeped out. I want to be civil but this boy was flaring my temper.

“Get in, you are injured and I won’t let you walk. By some twisted fate I am being the guardian here.” Haylien said glaring at me.

What the hell?

I made a split second decision and grabbed on her wrist.

She groaned at looked at me with a frown but I couldn’t ignore the blush on her face.

“Ride with me.”

“Are you mad or just this impulsive?”

Well, it might look like that since last time I asked her to date me.

She pulled her hand away from me and walked away.

I felt the loss as she walked away, what was happening to me? I want her gone then the thought irks me, I want to trouble her and then want her attention. I wanted to hurt her but her injuries made me feel worse.

I am a certified bad boy but I have the asinine desire to protect her.