Intertwined by Soujirosh

Chapter 6 - Being Confused

She fell asleep in my lap. I am touching her head. She's not so hot anymore. I think the medicine is effective.

I am stroking her hair with my fingers. I don't know why I felt this kind of emotion. She's a girl and she likes a girl too.

Am I gay too like Niran?

I got home without saying goodbye to Faye. I am so confused with my feelings. I may be looking for love because of my recent heart break.

I don't want to hurt Faye because I am not sure yet with my feelings. I don't want to hurt her the way I got hurt by my most trusted person.

Kiet never texted me since then. Maybe he never really loved me. While Niran was still asking me to meet him.

I am not ready to meet him. I still hate him for using me as a cover hole on their secret affair.

Kiet introduced me as her girlfriend even I am not then he courts me until I fell in love with him. I didn't know that it is just a show for his friends and family

I hated Niran because he knows the true intention of Kiet and he let him use me. He and my one and only best friend, Niran cheated on me.

A MONTH LATER.

I started working again in my cafe. I do love making coffee for customers even though I have my own staff. My staff's birthday is today so I gave her a day off. I am a cashier, waitress and coffeemaker today. I wanted to become busy so I can stop thinking about Kiet, Niran and Faye.

"One Hot Americano, please."

I heard a very familiar voice. I turned around and I saw Faye. She smiled at me. I missed her smile. I really wanted to visit her but chose not to bother her while my feelings were confused.

"Ah... ok… anything you would like to order, Ma'am?"

"That's all." She smiled again. "Can we talk?"

"I... I have lots of things to do..."

Faye looks around the cafe.

"I think, I am the only customer right now. Don't worry I just need a few minutes... if it is okay?"

"Ah... ok. I'll make your coffee first."

"Sure. Here's my card."

I tapped her card as payment.

While preparing coffee, I saw Faye take a seat to the farthest corner. She maybe likes to have privacy when we talk.

"I have surely missed her. Most of my time, I am thinking of her and not on my ex-boyfriend.

I wonder what she is doing. Every day I pass by Me Amore Salon, enough to see her by far. I like her because she always smiles.

And I got sad, thinking that she never misses me. It was a month ago when we saw each other."

I am afraid my feelings are not real. But now that she is here, I now understand my feelings. I love her. My heart never stops beating so fast when I am with her. I felt excited and happy every time I saw her.

I prepared her coffee. I bring lime cheesecake too. I am walking slowly as I can because I am so nervous.

She smiled again. I almost spilled the coffee when I put down the table.

She pulled the chair for me. I sat down.

"How are you, Yoko."

"Huh? I... I am okay...How about you... are you... ok?"

She laughs as I struggle to answer.

"Well, I am feeling well. Thank you...Are you free tonight?"

"What?! why??"

"I just want to celebrate my birthday with you."

"It's your birthday, today?!"

"Yup. My birthday is today." She repeatedly.

"Yes, I am free." I forgot to think. I just said yes. Oh my God. What I am thinking.

"Great! see you tonight, 10 PM at the bar!"

I closed my Cafe at 5PM so I got time to buy a gift for Faye. I went shopping at the mall, but I don't know what to buy. I don't know what she likes.

Then I remembered there was some yellow smiley stuff in her apartment. Maybe she likes Smiley but where can I buy it. I went to the department store in a gift section.

I saw a Smiley yellow round pillow. I got this one. And I saw Smiley Cups. I bought two. Just in case I went to her apartment, we have a couple cups. Thinking of that makes me blush.

I looked around at the jewelry store. I saw a silver chain necklace with a lock pendant and I thought of her. This will fit in Faye's t-shirt attire.

I asked to wrap my gifts.

Exactly 10PM, I arrived at the Bar.

I made myself beautiful. I dressed up simple but sexy. I am wearing white dress with a thin strap around my neck.

Showing my slender shoulder. My breast is not big, so I don't have cleavage to show. But it is ok. It is dark in the bar. The V-neck with ruffles makes me elegant.

I tied my long hair and I put my curly hair in front of me. I removed my eyeglasses and put the contact lens instead, showing much more of my mixed Chinese, Vietnamese, and Thai eyes. Yes, I have mixed foreign genes. I used my 2 inch sandals that I rarely use. I hope not to go on a trip while walking. This is the second time I made so much effort in dressing.

I entered the bar. There's no customer as if the bar is close. Then I heard a guitar starting to play.

The lights are not bright unlike before. They used pin lights at the corner only and some lights in the bartender's area.

Then lights open to the singer's area. I saw Faye in her long white dress. As if we talked about the color of our dress to wear. We are a perfect match.

She's elegant in her long silver earrings. Her hair is curled too. She smiled at me. She is not just beautiful, she's talented too.

She continues singing love songs. I know it is dedicated for me. I sat on the chair in front of her, listening to her song. I smiled back.

Every day I see you looking at me.

My eyes are also on you.

My heart stayed with you.

But you left, it is ok. it is ok.

I am waiting for you.

Please come back to me.

I promise to stay if you promise not to go.

I missed you, I needed you coz I love you.

My tears fell. I felt sorry that I stayed away from her but now that I realize I missed her too and I love her too even a short time that we were together. It is the feeling that I never had before.

But I am now sure of it.

She put down her guitar and she hugged me. Then she kissed me softly. I kissed her back and hug here. I closed my eyes. Kisses become deeper. It feels like the last time we kissed at the bar. I opened my eyes and realized that it was not a dream that we kissed before.

"Do you now remember? she asked while she smiled."

"Yes, I remembered we kissed here! Why didn't you tell me?"

"You didn't ask." she smiled again.

I blushed."

"I am sorry, I forgot our first kiss."

She giggles. "It is okay." We can do a lot more. She teased me again."

I got shy and covered my face with my hands.

"Are you hungry? Let's eat. Sorry, it passed your dinner time."

"No problem, I ate cake in a cafe."

"Okay, let's eat. I cooked this for you. I hope you like it.

She's so sweet. She put pasta on my plate. She fed me like a baby. She's playful too. She put the end of pasta on her mouth and the end of mine. We ate until our lips were near each other. She licked the pasta sauce on my lips.

Then we kissed again. We drink wine while we are dancing. We had so much fun. I am so happy to be with her. We don't know how we go to her apartment.