Let’s Be Together

Calmer Feelings, I guess?

My alarm goes off at 6am and I can hear Drav groan from the loud beeping sound.

His arms are wrapped around my stomach but I need to get up and get ready for work. I honestly wish I could stay here all day.

“Drav, I need to get ready for work." I whisper in his ear and he opens his eyes immediately.

"Damn girl you need to brush those teeth." He teases in his hoarse morning voice.

"Shut up. Yours is way worse. I was just kind enough not to say s**t about it" I tease and he lets me out of his arms and turns over to lay on his back with his hands under his head.

"My breath always smells good. Plus you need to relax on the cussing." He says. I'm not sure if he's serious or not.

"Hmm why?" I ask a little unsure about why he would say something like that.

"Because you are cuter when you don't cuss all the time. It scares the hell out of me. Especially when you're mad " he says biting down his bottom lip.

"I'm not cute. I would never describe myself as cute and I don’t think I’ll stop cussing. Especially to make you comfortable. " I reply.

"You are cute and damn, you wouldn’t? I thought I was special." He says biting down and teasing.

"Aww look at you being all mushy." I tease back, softly pinching one of his cheeks.

"Stop it." He laughs and pulls me on top of him. I rest my knees on his sides,with his hands on my thighs.

He rakes my body with his eyes from top to bottom,then bites his bottom lip down. He puts his hands under my shirt and my body floods with goosebumps as he traces his fingers on my thighs and stops them on my waist.

"The things I want to do to you." He says with a dirty smirk.

He places me on top of him, sits up and places me on the bed and lays between my legs. Pressing his hard on against me and proceeds to he kiss me. I bite down my bottom lip and grab on to him as he tortures me with soft grinds against me.

"I can't wait to be deep inside you." He whispers in my ear and gets off of me.

"Mmm why did you stop?" I sound pathetic but I want him inside me. I want him to pound me.

"I want you to crave me a little.” He says and I’m left speechless. I wanted us to f**k, not this. I get up silently and head to the shower.

Why is he torturing me?

I clearly want him as much as he does.

I take a quick shower and walk back into my room to look for something to wear.

Draven watches my every move and looks at me in a way no one ever has. It's exciting and scary too.

I pick a white button up shirt with dark blue slacks and nude heels.

"How do I look?" I stare at him as he scans my body.

He stands up and places a kiss on my forehead

"You look good. You always look good." He says and I feel myself get extra shy. I like this side of him. It’s very soft and it seems like he’s trying to put in the effort. I like that.

"Someone’s being extra sweet." I say and smile at him.

"You’re extremely beautiful, I can’t help it." He says with a splash of embarrassment on his face.

“How did you sleep?" I ask again

“I didn’t sleep much. I couldn’t sleep much actually.” He responds and scratches his head.

“How come?” I am a bit concerned.

"I don't know. I just couldn't." He is very uncomfortable and defensive by this conversation.

"Does it happen often?" I press. I know I shouldn't but I'm quite curious.

"Don't get all therapist on me." Clearly annoyed by my curiosity.

"Aye I was just trying to help."

I raise my hands in defeat and he wraps his arms around me and tries to pull me back in bed.

"No no no. I need to finish getting ready." I say even though I would love to be here with him all day. He’s really trying and I’m trying to trust it but I gut isn’t allowing me to.

"Finish getting ready. I have to leave too. I have a s**t load of work to do." He says.

"Take a shower while I finish up and then we can leave at the same time." I suggest, more like a demand.

"Okay let me go before I make you stay here with me." He says and pinches my nose and heads to the shower.

He comes out the shower 15 minutes later. Grabs one of my black t-shirts and pulls his jeans on. We both leave my apartment building and head out to our cars.

"Can I see you this weekend? You can come over and hangout." He says

"I don't know whether I'd come to your house after what happened the last time I was there." I say and mean it. I know it’s over but that s**t really messed with me. My heart was literally crushed when I saw him with her.

"I get it. Dinner?" He suggests

"Dinner?" I ask.

"Yeah like a proper date. So I can get to know you more." He says and he is right. Drav and I have basically been coupled up since we met and it's moving pretty fast even if he thinks it isn't.

He is already sleeping over and treating me like his girlfriend but he wants to take things slow? I don't get him but I'm not complaining either.

"Dinner it is." I finally break off from my thoughts.

"We will confirm everything else later this week." He pulls me in for a long hug and kisses my forehead.

"Okay." I hug him tight. I know Saturday isn't far but I'll miss him. A lot.

"I'll miss you." He says and I smile and look at him

"I'll miss you more." I respond and kiss his lips and he kisses me back holding me tightly in his arms.

"See you on Saturday. Text me after work." He lets go of me

“See you on Saturday.” I walk to my car and wave at him as he gets in his and drives away.

•••

My day goes by pretty fast and it was nice to see all my clients gain some sort of positivity.

I am still worried about Frank because I haven't heard anything from him and Suzy still didn't give me any information on him.

I know I should never have a favorite client but he is my favorite.

He is the nicest guy you would ever meet and he has a big heart with enough space to love anybody but after his wife died, he has been flooded with dark thoughts and all he feels is depression.

We have made so much progress over the past month and I hope he hasn't given up on himself and his family.

"Jasmine." I hear Suzy voice in my office and Thank God she broke my thoughts.

"Hi Suzy, I was just about to leave. Have you heard anything from Frank or his family?" I ask and I can hear the worry in my voice.

"That's why I am here. Frank's family went on a surprise vacation with him. That's where he is right now. Everything is great. He is great " Suzy assures me and I let out a deep breath of relief.

"I'm glad he's okay. Thank you Suzy." I respond.

"But that's not all. The C.E.O called today we are going to be on a short break for the rest of the week. Starting right now. She's doing some small renovations around the office." she says with a huge smile.

"That's so awesome. Thank you for telling me. Have a nice week and see you on Monday." We hug goodbye and I pack my s**t up and leave.

I get in the car and the first thing I do is call Draven but he doesn't pick up. He said he had a ton of s**t to do. So I'll wait for him to call me.

I drive up to the nearest store and grab a few things. I haven't talked to my friends about the situation with Draven.

"Jazzy" Shan answers her phone after I dial her number

“Hey babes, you alright?” I reply

“Yeah I’m okay, you okay?”

“Yeah just got some news.”

“What news?”

"Draven and I are on again."

"Wait. What the f**k?! I am coming over and I'm bringing Aaron this is an emergency." And she hangs up on me.

I drive back to my apartment and I know how much these two shitholes will judge me but they just have to accept it.

I kinda believe Draven. Even though he has already shown me so many reasons not to trust him but I like him and he has shown me that he is ready to work for what we have.

I get to my apartment and these fools are already outside my door.

"Jaz what the hell?" Aaron yells at me while I unlock the door.

"He literally slept with someone." Shan practically screams at me and they walk in my house.

"He didn't sleep with her. She drugged him and I need y’all to be my friends right now. It sounds crazy but please hear me out." I am getting frustrated by them. They aren’t even taking the chance to listen to me.

"You were f*****g crying on Sunday over him." Aaron speaks

"Jaz I have seen you in this place before." Shan says and I turn to look at her after putting the s**t I got away.

"Excuse me?" I say hoping she doesn't repeat the stupid s**t she just said.

"You are coming up with excuses just like you did with Hale." She says and I feel anger build in my body. I haven’t heard that name in a long time and she knows he’s a trigger.

"This is why I don't tell you s**t. Here your stupidass is talking about a f*****g relationship that literally ended me. He was drugged and thats all you need to know. If you don't believe it,there’s really nothing I can do. I’m not going in blindly at the same time I’m not allowing myself to just let things blow off. You are so f*****g quick to bring Hale up but don't forget that your ex did the same thing to you and you still went back to him. Now get the f**k out of my house. I’m not going to be disrespected by y’all." I tell them both, they know better.

I’m sick and tired of both of them trying to act like they have perfect relationships.

"Jaz." Aaron tries to calm me down.

"Shut the f**k up Aaron. Shut up. Get the f**k out of my house." I scream at him.

"Jaz that was just f*****g low. I am looking out for you. Here you are bringing up my f*****g ex when you know how complicated my relationship with him is. That's just f*****g low." Shan says and she's sorta right but she can't put the blame on me when she brought this s**t up.

"Don't play victim here. How do you think I feel when you bring him up? He f*****g destroyed me and you know that. Why the f**k did you bring him up? You’re not gonna act like you had such a good relationship too and I’m not repeating a pattern.”

"Because he.."

"Shan stop." Aaron stops her and I'm confused by this.

"What does she have to stop?" I ask

"Let's go Shan." Aaron ignores my question.

"Oh. I see. You guys are keeping s**t from me now? Okay now get out of my f*****g house." I respond.

“It’s not like that. You need to cool down and be kinder to the people around you.” Aaron says and they leave.

What the f**k is wrong with them? Why can't they just be understanding. They always bring up that stupid man.

Why can't I be happy?