The Last Female Alphas

TANGLED EMOTIONS 2

I felt some movement around me and remembered how I slept last night. Before I can wake up properly and know what’s happening, Thor takes over and starts talking with Ray. I applied full force to break the cage he locked me in. I can’t hear them or understand what they are doing. I am terrified she will call him a monster. He lets me listen to snippets of their conversation, stupid smug beast. He is gloating that she is smiling in his company.

“You were worried about nothing. She is my strong, confident, and defiant Bluey.” He gloats triumphantly.

“Yes, you were right. She doesn’t know the truth yet. So don’t get your hopes up.” I slowly informed him, so he is not heartbroken in the end.

He literally blocks me out and enjoys his time with her. I start to panic about what is happening, but I know deep down he would never hurt her. I have no idea what they are discussing, Thor has blocked me out completely. When Thor finally gives me control back, she is relaxed and lying in my embrace happily. I don’t think he did anything, but I rushed away from her trying to explain my actions. She just smiled as if nothing happened. I put some distance between us, trying to control my raging heart. I already love her so much; Thor and I have loved her for a long time. I don’t know how I will handle her rejection when she figures the truth out. I am lost in my thoughts when Blake mind links me.

“Blaze, we are all heading towards the community hall for breakfast. I thought if Ray was awake. You both can join us.”

“Yeah, sure. Let me ask her.” I said, looking at her.

“Is she awake? Is she feeling better?” Blake asks nervously. All of us are nervous about how she will react when she figures everything out.

“She seems better, I think. She woke up last night, and we had dinner together.” I told him honestly. I don’t want to explain her panic attack or that we slept together.

I asked Ray what she would like to do. When she asked me to stay here, it made me stupidly happy till I realized I had nothing good in the kitchen to make a decent breakfast for her. I told her to go freshen up while I made us something to eat. I told her everything in here is her’s and silently added, including me. I informed her about the clothes I picked up for her, so she didn’t have to worry about anything for now. She grabs a jumper and leggings. She looks a little upset when I mention Stacey. Now I am confused about what Stacey did to her. She has never met her. Thor replies to that,

“She is jealous. Now who’s a mutt?”

“Why would she be jealous?” He just rolled his eyes. I let him be, he’s being ridiculous. I grab the kettle of hot water from the fireplace and take it to her. She might enjoy a warm bath.

I walked in on her like an i***t without thinking anything, when she was removing her top. Thor growls with so much lust, and I just stand there staring at her. It got me aroused so fast that I ran back to the kitchen apologizing that I didn’t see anything. Thor is behaving like an i***t again. I kept rambling, saying there was nothing to see and more stupidity like that.

“Go in there. She was checking us out. She wants us.”

“No, you mutt. We can’t do that. She deserves better.” I growled back at him. He is behaving like a teenage boy.

He just huffs and blocks me out again. I get a sense that if he doesn’t agree with me on anything concerning Ray, he is going to block me out. Great, just great. My damn wolf has lost his bloody mind.

I went back to the kitchen looking for things to cook. I found eggs, pumpkins, and anchovies. OK, I can make an omelet. I found some bacon in the stuff Ritz left for us and made her some of that too. I cut the flatbread and put some hand-churned butter on it. I found some pickled olives and nuts, so I put them on the table too. I got her a small flower from the front yard and put it in a glass of water. Making the table look just a little pretty for her. I think she will like something from this. I feel embarrassed that I don’t have much to feed her. I just hope she will eat something, or we will go to the hall and eat with others.

When she comes back, she looks amazing in wet hair. A freshly showered look agrees with her. She smells like essential oils, and it makes her scent even more enticing. I can die a happy man if I get to see her like this for the rest of our lives. I am just staring at her, checking every droplet of water dripping through her beautiful hair. She breaks my concentration when she distracts me.

I cleared my throat, trying to avoid looking at her again. I apologize to her for not having enough to make a decent meal. I promised to get her anything she likes to eat later. She just tells me she is thankful for everything I did for her, even though I know it’s not enough. I felt like my eyes were watery, so I just nodded at her. I don’t trust my words right now. She doesn’t complain or anything, looking at the food. I am a little embarrassed about what I made; I know I am not the best cook. We are lost in our thoughts when everyone comes in. Oliver is running as if the house is on fire. He is being his usual self, ready to say something inappropriate when I look at him.

Roy warned me of the incoming a minute late. “Oliver is running towards you.”

“Yeah, got that,” I say nonchalantly. We have all known for a long time that Oliver is like a wrecking ball, nothing can save you from him.

When he points at whatever I made and starts yelling. I feel more embarrassed than anything else, I am not providing for her well. They go back and forth regarding something, but I don’t hear anything as I am lost in my pity party. She surprises me yet again when she simply eats what I made even though they got her actual food from the kitchen. It makes me stupidly happy. Oliver kept complaining like always but sat down on the floor to eat with everyone. He is like an adult child, with no filter to his thoughts. I would be surprised if he could keep a single secret in his life. You give intestines stew to someone once in your lifetime, and they will never let you live it down. This moment makes me feel content, everyone I care about is here. And finally, Ray is with us, safe and sound.

Ray feels spaced out looking at everyone. I don’t understand all the emotions that cross her face. I am at a loss, not understanding what to do to make her feel better. Thor grumpily explains.

“She feels left out. She feels like a stranger among us.”

“Of course, she does. I never introduced her to everyone.” I mentally slap myself for being stupid.