Chapter 9
I knew:
The care and touch of another man—I couldn’t bear it. At Ausbreck College, during my freshman year, I was minding my own business, studying my notes on Walden for an exam. Upon leaving the library, heading back to my dorm, I was pressed against a brick wall by a student who was taller than me. A brawny man who played on the Ausbreck football team, a linebacker. He knocked the wind out of me as he bounced the back of my head off the wall. He shoved his hand down into my jeans and found what he was looking for. He placed his tongue against my neck and then my lips. I felt threatened and violated, used and controlled. I felt…
The care and touch of another man—I couldn’t bear it.
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I knew:
H. Maximiliani came to visit me at the cabin. He looked blue and hurt. I t
