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Kabanata 4

KABANATA 4

I opened my eyes slowly, tila may sumisilaw sa'king paningin kaya nahihirapan akong idilat ang talukap ng aking mata.

Sinag ng araw ang sumakubong sa'kin kaya napapikit muli ako at iniwas ang gawin iyon. I hugged my pillow besides me. Napangiti pa ako ng maamoy ang kakaibang aroma ngunit bango parin ito.

Kanino bang perfume ito? Should i but the perfume same as these? Ang bango talaga..

I opened my eyes again slowly, still smiling. Nanlaki ang aking mata, ha ang nakatingala sa kisama.

What the.. what the..

My eyes grew bigger when i roamed my eyes around. Napahawak ako sa'king kumot ng mahigpit at biglaang pag kabangon. Napadaing naman ako ng maramdaman ang sakit ng aking baywang maging ang aking ulo.

"Omy gosh!!" I squaled when i saw my clothes! Iba na ito!

Biglaang pag bukas ng pintuan ng may kalakasan na nag agaw ng aking tingin. My lips parted when i saw the man in front of me!

"S-sino k-ka! Anong ginawa mo sa'kin!" I shouted at him.

Nakakunot ang supladong mukha nito sa'kin. He's wearing a shirt maging ang simpleng short na may kahabahan na hanggang tuhod niya. He's chest are broad, halos yumayakap na sa kaniya ang kaniyang damit.

I gulped hardly while he's still staring at me. Mas lalo kong umusad sa head board ng kama.

"C-comvient boy! Oh God! Anong ginawa mo sa'kin!"

"Try to remember what happened yesterday night" he said boredly.

Bahagyang umawang ang aking labi ng bigla s'yang umalis sa harapan ko. Malinis naman ang kwarto at sapat lamang ito sa kaniya. Maging ang kama ay may kalakihan rin.

Napahawak ako sa'king damit, hindi naman kasya sa'kin ang damit. At mukhang mag isa lang s'ya rito, kaya duda ko'y wala sino mang babaeng narito!

Napapikit ako habang nakaupo na sa gilid ng kama, habang pilit na inaalala ang pangyayari sa kagabi.

I was.. drunk..

At, pumunta ako sa building ito, just for the fresh air also the view. I gasped when flashback appeared on my mind, naalala ko ang pag alalay niya sa'kin maging ang pag kalasingan ko.

Tangina!

I slapped my forehead. Oh god, what did I do?!

Kumuha ako ng unan at sunod sunod na hinampas sa'king mukha. Afterwards, i buried my face on it, at tumili at nag papadyak pa ang aking paa.

"Kumain kana"

Napatigil ako nang marinig ang boses na iyon. Unti unti kong tinggal ang unan sa'king mukha. When i met his eyes, mabilisan kong winaksi papalapit sa'kin ang unan.

"P-pwede bang.. kunin ko nalang yung damit ko?.." i said.

Tangina! Nahihiya ako ss pinag gagawa ko! I didn't remember at all, ngunit ang pag tulong niya lamang sa akin pababa sa hagdanan!

He's crossing his arms in front of his chest while staring at me. Nakasandal ang kaniyang isang braso sa pintuan.

"You remember?" His voice are low.

I gasped and shook my head. "K-kaunti lang.. m-may iba pabang nangyari bukod sa pag alalay mo sa'kin?"

Tumaas ang isa n'yang kilay, kumibot ang kaniyang labi na tila pinipigilan ang pag ngiti. He cough and looked away.

"I'll handed your clothes, wait here.." aniya bago ako tinalikuran. Sinundan ko lamang s'ya ng tingin.

Halos maihi ako sa kinakatayuan ko dahil sa hiya. Bakit ganuon ang ngiti niya? Saka bakit nga ba ako nandito? Oh great! Hindi niya alam ang bahay ko and maybe I'm asleep last night! Nakakahiya! Lupa eat me now!!

"Thanks.." aking saad bago s'ya umalis muli sa'king harapan.

Mabilisan ang aking ginawnag pag bihis at agad na nilisan ang kaniyang kwarto, wala naman akong ibang dala kahoon kundi ang wallet ko lang.

He's in the kitchen, nakatakip ang iilang plato sa lamesa.

"Uhm, aalis na ako.." aking sabi.

He glanced at me. Nang humarap s'ya sa'kin, tila may sasabihin pa s'ya ngunit pinigilan niya ito. Aligaga ang aking mata dahil sa paraan ng kaniyang pag titig.

"Salamat.. zaimon right?"

He nodded at me. I noticed too his tattoo behind of his ears.

"I thought you're gonna freak out" he statement, opening for topic.

Napakamot ako sa likod ng aking kilay at sinalubong ang kaniyang mata. "M-may naalala naman ako.. tinulungan mo ako hindi ba?"

Tumagal ang kaniyang pag sagot. "Yeah.." he said. "Hatid na kita sa labas.." tumango ako at naunang nag lakad sa kaniya.

Tahimik lamang kami at walang imikan hanggang sa maka labas ng main gate nila. Halos mapa pikit ako sa hiya ng biglaan kong maalala ang pag pasok ko rito ng walang paalam.

He looked around kaya napatingin ako sa side profile niya. I can see his sharp jaw, maging ang matangos na ilong niya, hindi rin nakatakas sa'kin ang butas sa kaniyang tainga ngunit walang hikaw.

Tumikhim ako, "s-salamat nga pala.. sorry sa pang aabala.."

He just nodded. Nahihiya akong tunalikod at nag lakad papalayo sa kaniya.

Damn! It's my fault! That's why our paths crossed again! I was thankful na pinatuloy niya ako ngunit hindi ko parin makakalimutan ang pag halik niya sa'kin! Hindi ko alam kung ano magiging reaksyon at magiging turan ko sa kaniya, dahil he helped me too!

Baka dun nako nakatulog sa rooftop sa kainitan at baka may tumatambay at kung ano pang mangyari sa'kin!

Then, what should I do now? Then maybe, i should or must forgive him for kissing me that night!?

Napatampal ako sa'king noo, while I'm here infront of my house. Kabado kong binuksan ang gate, at dahan dahan pa ang aking ginawa.

Tagumpay akong nakapasok sa loob ng gate, ngunit makapasok sa loob ng bahay. Ang papa kong nakaupo sa sofa habang nag babasa ng dyaryo sa sala. May tasa pa ng isang kape sa table na nasa gilid niya.

Binaba niya ang dyaryo kaya nag tagpo ang aming mata. Napatigil ako sa pag lalakad.

"Lumabas ka?"

"P-po?"

He examine my face. "Pumasok kana sa kwarto mo at kumain, kagigising ko lang kanina ng hindi kita maabutan. Akala ko ay tulog kapa"

Nahihirapan akong lumunok at halos kapusin ako ng hangin dahil sa sinabi niya. Akala ko ay magagalit s'ya sa'kin at pag sasabihan ako, o kung ano mang salitang masasakit.

I forced my self to smile. "Nakipag kita lang po ako kina mae sa c-complex.." rason ko.

Sorry papa.. i lied to you.. alam kong hindi mo rin kakayanin at malaman na nakitulog ako sa isang bahay na hindi ko naman kakilala. I'm lucky tho, that he helped me, but hindi koparin matanggap dahil sa ginawa kong kahihiyan.. .

Tumayo s'ya sa pag kakaupo matapos tupiin ang dyaryo. "May pasok kapa bilisan mo.." last thing he said, bago iniwan na ako.

Huminga ako ng malalim at pinakawalan ito. Nakaramdam ako ng ginhawa at agad na pumunta sa'king kwarto, i eat first at naligo.

"I called you last night sio, what happened?" It's enzo. Hindi kami naka video call at naka call lamang.

Pinaglaruan ko ang aking daliri, "nakatulog lang ako ng maaga.." hinga ko.

I heard him sighed. "Anong oras ka nagising?"

Napatigil ako sa kaniyang tanong. Why all of the sudden he's being like this?

"Enz, kakagising ko lang.." tamad kong saad at tunayo sa'king kinauupuan. Kinuha ang aking twalya.

"I'm going to take a bath na.. mamaya nalang.."

"Okay, I'll call you later.. i love you.."

I sighed. " I love you too" i hang up the call. Napapikit naman ako at bumuntong hininga.

--

"Oh god, what happened to your hair?" Mae said.

Gulat na gulat naman ito, kaya napairap ako. "Nag paguput obvious ba?" I seated on my chair.

They're still staring at me. Napa parte ang labi habang nakatingin sa buhok at mukha ko.

"Nag kilay ka bakla?" Saad ni Tiffany.

I nodded slowly, nakakahiya but i want to learn and wore make up.

"Triny ko lang, saka ano kaba, kinapakalan ko lang nvayon... Bagay ba?" I smiled.

Tiffany nodded at me. Her eyes went down to my lips. Her eyes widened. "What happened to your lips?"

Kumot ang noo ko, "huh?" Tumingin silang lahat sa'kin. Now their eyes were now on my lips.

"Anong meron?"

"Labi pa rin naman tif? Anong problema mo?"

"Boang ata 'tong batang 'to" tawa nila.

Nakatitig lamang si tiffany sa'kin. Lumipat ng upuan si mae at ngayon nasa harapan ko na s'ya at parehas na silang nakatitig sa'kin, habang nakasingkit ang mata.

"Nag momol ba kayo ni enz?"

"What?!"

Napatigil ang iilan, at nakatingin sa biglaang pag sigaw ko. I pressed my lips together at nahihiyang yumuko ng kaunti.

"Ano bang problema sa labi ko? Para kayong tanga ha.." I chuckeld

Nag katinginan silang dalawa at tila nag uusap ang mga mata. Sabay silang tumingin sa'kin.

"Kailan kayo nag kita ni enzo?" Mae asked.

"1 week ago na.. bakit ba? Ano bang problema?" I asked, confused.

Nag katinginan silang muli, ngayon naman nanlaki ang mata.

"We will talk later huh.." mae warned.

Tiffany nodded at me, tila nnag babanta na kung ano. They both stood up at bumalik ea kinauupuan. Napaisip tuloy ako sa kanilang sinasabi, that's why i get my mirror on my bag, at tinignan ang aking labi.

It has.. a cut?

"Aw you two! What's your problem huh! Kanina pa kayo!" I hissed at them. Nakahawak sila ngayon sa mag kabila kong braso at hinila hila na ko kung saan.

"Gosh scarlet! Anong ginawa mo huh!" Si tiffany.

"What did you do?!" Si mae.

Nag tataka kong sinlubong at dalawa at tumigil sa pag lalakad kaya natigil din sila.

"What do you mean?"

They're staring into my lips again.

"We've been doing it since we stepped our foot in college, well it's started ngayon lang pero! I know that!"

Mae nodded. "And what did you said earlier? Isang linggo na kayong 'di nag kikita ni enzo?"

Anong nangyayari sa dalawang 'to? What they are talking about? I nodded slowly. Nag tataka parin sa dalawa.

Parehas silang napasinghap. Mag sasalita a lamang sila'y narinig namin ang musika, na malapit sa'min.

Parehas kaming napatigil when guitar started to play.

I don't want a friend (just me)

I want my life in two (my life in two)

Just one more night

Waiting to get there

Waiting for you (all night)

I'm done fighting all night (waiting for you)

Himig ng isang lalaki na kay lamig ng boses. I was stunned on my feet in the ground na tila dumaan ang tinig sa mag kabila kong tainga at umiikot sa'king utak.

When I'm around slow dancing in the dark

Don't follow me, you'll end up in my arms

You have made up your mind

I don't need no more signs

Can you?

Can you?

I gasped. Who the hell is that?

Give me reasons we should be complete

You should be with him, I can't compete

You looked at me like I was someone else, oh well

Can't you see? (Can't you see?)

I don't wanna slow dance (I don't want to slow dance)

In the dark

Dark..

I noticed it was two voice. I blinked twicr at tumingin sa paligid. Ang lahat ng tao ay nakikinig narin.

Used to be the one (used to be the one)

To hold you when you fall

Yeah, yeah, yeah (when you fall, when you fall)

I don't f**k with your tone (I don't f**k with your tone)

I don't wanna go home (I don't wanna go home)

Can it be one night?

Can you?

Can you?

Can't you see?

I don't wanna slow dance (I don't want to slow dance)

In the dark

Dark

In the dark

Dark

The ending ended smoothly. I noticed it's one voice in the end.

I touched my lower all of the sudden. Napatigil lamang ako ng biglang mag humawak sa'king pulso at hinila ito.

"Zaimon and vioxx did a great job! Have you planed being an vocalist zaimon?"

My eyes widened when i heard his name! So it was him and that asshole vioxx?

Wow..

"Nah, I'm good with my drums.." we heard him chuckled.

"That's good bro.."

" I agree.." singkit ng isang lalaki.

Zaimon chuckled again. "Vioxx was great songer.."

"Duda na'ko pre, parang ikaw na-"

"Aray naman tangina vioxx!" Hiyaw nito at lahat sila tumawa.

Gumawi ang tingin ko sa dalawa. Naka awang ang labi at tila hindi na proproseso katulad ko. Parehas ko na silang hinila at agad na nag lakad papalayo ruon. Nag pahila naman ang dalawa na wala parin sa huwisyo kaya napailing ako.

Nang makarating sa room na wala pang professor. Lahat kami napatakip ng tainga ng biglaang pag tili ng dalawa, at halos tumalon sa kinatatayuan habang nag hahampasan.

--

"You didn't pick up again.." he frustratedly said. It was enzo.

Kaka dismiss lamang namin, at required ang pag bibigay ng phone sa professor tuwing discussion sa time niya.

Pagod na binagsak ko ang aking balikat at bumuntong hininga. "Enz, kakatapos lang ng klase ko ano ba.." i tiredly said.

"What's with enz, scarlet? Why you're not calling me with our endearment?"

What the f**k?

Kumot ang aking noo, "what's your problem enzo?" Using my serious voice.

"What's your problem scarlet? Why you're always like these? I've been asking you a week ago, why you're acting like this?"

"Acting like what? Jusko enzo, parehas tayong nag aaral. I'm so exhausted, I'm tired doin' my plates here!" Hindi kona napigilan and i just burst.

Huminga ako ng malalim ng parehas kaming natahimik sa makalipas na ilang minuto.

"Then don't study scarlet.. mag sama na tayo. I'm sick of these, i want to hold you, i want to be with you all the time.."

My lips parted. "What the f**k enzo?"

"I'll hang up the call, itigil mo na 'yang pag sasalita mo, so what's tge point telling me these? Na huwag mag aral? Mag pakasal sa'yo kaagad? No, I don't want to be burden to anyone else. I'll still choose my dreams over you enz, always remember that" i hangp up the call.

Nanginginig na halos gusto kong itapon ang aking phone dahil sa inis! What's with him? What's wrong with him?! Telling your girlfriend na huwag na mag aral? He's so selfish!

"Ugh! f**k it!" Sabunot ko sa'king buhok.

"Tss, problematic queen.." ibhead a man voice.

Napatigil ako ss pag hila ng aking buhok. At dahan dahang lumingon sa kaniya. He's smiling at me.

"Nice to meet you again.."

My eyebrows furrowed, "what are you doing here?"

"Wala naman, nag papahangin.."

"Seriously here? Are you an architect student?" I asked.

He shook his head. "Nah, BS legal management" sagot niya.

Nakakunot ang aking noo habang nakatingin sa kaniya. I sighed and looked away. I saw on my peripheral vision he walk towards at me, ngunit may espasyon parin.

"Your boyfriend?"

All of sudden he asked.

I didn't looked at him, i just nodded and sighed. "So you have a boyfriend? Did you tell him that you slept last night into guy's house that you never know?"

I looke at him, our eyes met. "What do you mean?"

He smirked. "Did you tell him that you kissed someone last night?"

Naguguluhan ako sa kaniyang sinabi. Mag prprotesta pa lamang ako ng maalala ko ang sinabi ni mae at tiffany sa'kin.

Kiss? Hinalikan? I-i kissed him?

'Yon ang pinahihiwatig ni mae at tiffany? So they're talking about the guy's they're kissing? And the cut on my lips ay kagagawan niya?

I stepped back from him. Sunod sunod na pag iling. Flashback and all of what happened last night appeared on my mind.

So.. fuck.. it's true then?! Hinalikan ko s'ya?!

Zaimon smirking at me. While his hands were on his pocket inside. He stepped forward.

"We almost make out, if someone didn't caught us.."

"W-what?.."

Smirked never left on his lips. "I have cctv footage.. wanna watched" kinuha niya ang kaniyang phone at pinakita sa'kin, it's raising infront of me, and it starts playing.

Halos mapanganga ako when i grabbed his nape that's why his lios crushed into mine. Halos manlamig ang buong katawan ko ng simulan niyang halikan ang pabalik.

He put his phone inside of his left pocket on his jeans.

He's into serious face now. Habang ako naman at hindi parin makapaniwala.

What.. what.. the..

"Be my personal assistant, scarlet, be my slave.. if you didn't, I'll send this to your boyfriend.."

He smirked. "Not sorry for kissing you in the first place, and the second one you're the one who kissed me first.."

"And.. I like your hair.."