Chapter 16, Him
2075 Words
Rosaleen's PoV
Ryder and I stepped back on the train as the doors closed, I sat down as Ryder sat next to me leaning back and threw his arm on the seat piece behind me and I shuffled slightly as the train jolted to life and made me fall slightly into Ryder. He chuckled gently, allowing me to sit back up again, his eyes straight forward as I put my hands in my lap and we rode in silence.
The train screeched to a stop suddenly and I fell the other way and his arm moved and caught me around the shoulders, blushing coated my cheeks as I stared at him now and he winked slightly and my brows raised as someone cleared their throat.
"Are we interrupting something?" A familiar voice huffed and I jumped away from Ryder, my eyes wide turning to see all Alan, Cara, Leo, and Sho standing staring at us and I shot out of my seat leaving space as I held my arm slightly not meeting Alan's eyes. I didn't know what to do.
"Alan. Was wondering when we would meet again, how are you doin?" Ryder asked standing and resting a hand on his slender hip as he smiled slightly at Alan who just glared at the blonde ghoul slightly as he huffed and the rest of the crew got onto the train, I sat alone away from the crowd as I tried to get my mind to understand what that vibe off Alan was.
"You okay Rose? You're mighty quiet." I jumped, turning my head to see Cara had come and sat next to me and I smiled softly and reached up patting her on the head, and I sighed softly, shrugging softly as I leaned back on the soft seats.
"I dunno... I am just tired as hell from this mission. I dunno it's hard to explain." I quipped softly, not entirely sure what to say or do as I ran a hand through my hair and looked over at the group of boys that just sat and glared at eachother Alan noticed my moment and looked over at me slightly, his deep gray green eyes met mine and he studied my features as he looked away now. Angry as I huffed and looked back at Cara who stared at me confused, I shrugged gently my black eyes stung slightly as I leaned back and ran my hands over my face.
"I like Alan... But... Ryder... He's cute too... I think I like them both but I cannot figure it out." I admitted, Cara hummed in thought as she looked at the boys again as she looked back at me again.
"Alan likes you. He wouldn't stop talking about you during the day, he kept your chat window open on his phone he didn't know what to say. I think he may worry that you don't like him." She suggested head to the side and I shrugged gently, as I ran my hands over my face in exasperation.
"I don't know..." I mumbled into my hands, my stress and exhaustion getting to me as I wasn't sleeping well, my body screaming at me still. I wanted to cry just from the stress. I sighed softly as Cara patted me on the back gently.
I leaned back on the train seat, my head leaning back on the back of the seat. I stared up at the ceiling of the train feeling the train come to a halt. My hands were played with my sleeves as I stood instantly and walked out of the train without looking back.
I could hear someone calling my name but I didn’t stop, my head was full and full of noise that I couldn’t get to stop. My legs carried me straight ahead towards the Frostheim dorm, my heeled combat boots hitting the floors.
“Rosa-” I kept walking ignoring anyone who tried to get my attention, only stopping when I turned a corner and ran right into the last person I wanted to talk to.
“Jin. I am so sorry…” I scrambled out of the way immediately, my black eyes wide as I looked up to see the chilling angry glare of the Frostheim captain that glared down at me.
“Watch where you’re going. Stupid…” He muttered as he stepped around me ignoring my disheveled looking facial expression. I sighed in defeat walking into my room, sitting down on my bed ignoring my phone. I kept my face in my hands, my breathing heavily in anxiety.
I let out a shaky breath trying to get my brain to simmer down enough so I could look at my phone, multiple messages were displayed on the screen and I sucked in a shocked breath.
Ryder
Ryder
I clicked on the chat box, my hand shaking slightly as I bit my lip and typed into the messenger app.
Me- Yeah… I am fine, just tired, and confused. Trying to get my brain to work right.
I clicked send and switched to the next chat window, my eyes flicking over the message as I held my breath.
Alan- Good Evening Flower, I noticed you seemed upset, are you okay? Do I need to come to you?
Alan- You haven’t read my message… It still says delivered, Headband said that you haven’t read it. I am coming to you now.
The newer message was sent 3 minutes before, my eyes widened in slight shock as I stood up quickly. Throwing my phone onto my desk, a knock at the door made me jump as I yelped in shock, I heard a gentle knock again before I heard loud voices.
“What are you doing here? This is my territory, Mido. Leave. Now.” I heard a demanding voice snap and I knew who it was. Jin Kamurai and I went stiff in unease.
Rushing I went and opened the door, Alan and Jin stood staring at each other. Neither turned to look at me and I stared between the two, my eyes wide, my anxiety skyrocketed as I tried to decipher the tension of the two.
“I came to check on Fl- Ms. Dervila after our first mission, and to make sure she is alright.” He said stiffly Jin still glared at him. Icy cold eyes flicked to me as I stared back, pretty much completely unaffected by his anger, feeling my insides clutch slightly as he glared at me now then moved his eyes back to Alan.
“1 Hour. If I come back around and you’re still here I will personally remove you.” He huffed turning and walking away, my eyes widened slightly as Alan nodded stiffly.
“How-?” I asked but Alan cut me off, stepping past me into my own room and I let out a noise of confusion.
“Are you okay? You didn’t read my messages, I had to make sure you were alright.” He said looking me over his eyes reading me as I stood, awkwardly. His hand hesitantly reached out as his eyes met mine, I could see some of the emotional turmoil that swirled in the depths of the gray pools. His hand froze just before reaching for my arm, my eyes were wide and the confusion swirling in me wanted to cloud my mind, I sighed and stepped towards him allowing him to touch me.
“I am okay, just… Busy mind tonight I needed to. Breath.” I hummed and he stared down at me now, his eyes bouncing between my eyes as I stared back at him. His jaw ticked as he flexed his jaw and I stayed where I was, staring up at him.
“Are you sure?” He stared at me and I crumbled slightly, the walls around my heart faltered slightly upon hearing that.
“I don’t know…” I mumbled out my voice almost indiscernible, my throat closed slightly as I tried to contain my emotions. My eyes burned slightly as I stared at him trying to understand what he was feeling.
“Well. Tell me. What is wrong.” He started pulling me towards my bed gently, my brows raised as he sat down and pulled me down gently, next to him.
I sighed softly as he leaned back slightly, watching me as I turned my body to look at him my black eyes meeting his and I shrugged slightly. My heart clenched slightly as I bit back my words, my hands shaking slightly.
“Flower…” His voice came out softly as I tried to process what he wanted me to say, I tripped on my words slightly, my voice choked slightly, my mouth closing as I sighed gently.
“Nightmares, Ghosts, Unknown situations. I don’t know anymore…” I admitted softly, my usually confident tone now deflated and broke down slightly.
Alan watched me as I tried to make sense of how I was feeling, my hands scrambling slightly, my breathing becoming anxious as he reached out and touched my shoulder. My eyes snapped to him as I met his gaze and worry was somewhat clear in his eyes.
“What. Why are you breathing so heavily like that? Are you okay?” He asked worriedly as I leaned into his touch welcoming the comfort.
“Anxiety…” I mumbled softly and his eyes widened as he brought me closer to him, hugging me tightly and I remained unmoving, my hands shaking gently.
“You’re not in danger, Flower, I can promise you that.” He said softly into my hair, making chills run down my back as I hummed gently, trying to focus my thoughts.
“I am right here Flower, I am not leaving until you’re feeling better, unless you want me to leave.” He started firmly, gripping my shoulders now as he pushed me back to look me in the eyes.
“I’m just… Super anxious… I need to just relax…” I mumbled out softly, he nodded gently in understanding, rubbing my shoulders gently, my black eyes unreadable.
“Well then… Nothing else though? Ryder didn’t do anything? I didn’t do anything? What happened on the train? You didn’t seem okay…” He asked and I stiffened slightly as I calmed down, thinking of what happened earlier seeing the anger in his eyes.
“I… Uh… Well…” I stuttered on my words as I tried to understand, He watched me stumble on my words like an i***t as I finally huffed and gave him an answer.
“I haven’t been sleeping well Alan…” I said softly, my eyes stared up at him flicking over his features trying to read his emotions. As he stared back at me.
“Okay. Well if there is something truly wrong… You would tell me right?” He asked, reaching and grabbing my shoulders now and I froze under his grip my eyes staring up at him.
“Yeah… I can…” I whispered softly to him, my voice barely audible as I stepped back and out of his grip making him drop his arms to his sides as he stared at me silently now.
“I worry about you Flower.” He said and I sighed and smiled gently at him, as I patted his arm now as I reassured him.
“I am okay, I promise. I need to sleep.” I spoke softly. His eyes narrowed as he sighed and nodded taking my answer as I gave it, I smiled tiredly my flaming hair was run through from me constantly running my fingers through it as I sighed.
Alan looked me over again before he sighed heavily and walked to my door, I yawned gently as I turned and watched him leave. I really don’t want war happening between Frostheim and Vagastrom.
“Good night Rosaleen.” He said over his shoulder, his eye catching mine as he stepped through the door and left.
I laid on my bed staring up at the ceiling, my brain was loud and I couldn’t understand why my subconscious wanted them both, I whined softly digging the palms of my hands into my eyes.
“For god sake, Ryder King and Alan Mido. You got me acting like a crazy person.” I stared at the ceiling, my black eyes glittering in my lamp light.
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