CHAPTER TWO
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Finally after an hour the mindless gossip finished and I happen to be at home now. My room consist of one king size bed and some basic furniture. A simple one basically because Aditya doesn’t like so much in one space. Usually before marriage I always had this dream to decorate my bedroom with lots of romantic lamps and flowers with some matching curtains and some roses 3D type bed sheet etc… but when I discussed this dream of mine with my husband he straight away rejected it to be a childish thought of mine. It’s not that one girl marry twice I just had this kind of bollywood spices thought. But I guess they will never be real anymore. I don’t despise my room though.
Recently I have notice Adi somewhat ignoring me. I don’t know if it is only my thought or it is really happening to me. Every time I feel like I have to fight for his attention I never get his attention on his own. It sometime feel like I only want him , I only want to spend time with him not him. It looks like in am te only one in this relationship. It’s really taking a toll on me. I feel like if its me that is changed or its him. Sometimes I wonder have I become a nagging wife.
Its already 90’clock adi has still not arrived home. Now-a-days he does not even have a particular time to arrive home. Nor will he ever tell me when will he arrive. Is it so much expectations to know these things? Am I that much demanding? According to Adi –yes. I am demanding whenever I confront him of these thoughts.
“Come on Riya learn to give me space. I have my own life. I cannot always inform you of my every actions. You are suffocating me”.
That’s the end of every discussion.
That’s the end of every possible way to contact him. I cannot call him thinking maybe he will be in a important meeting or be with friends. I don’t remember the last time we only spend time together. No one between us. No dis respective talks. Only positive or romantic talks. I don’t know when I will get those times back. At least while talking to me in phone before marriage he used to be romantic. At least then he used to talk to me sweetly understandingly.
“Riya wake up.”
“Wake up I need to talk to you.”
I hear someone calling me. I don’t know when I fell asleep thinking those things.
“Yes yes I am up”.
I woke up seeing Adi standing near be still in his work clothes.
“When did you arrive? Let me bring your dinner.”
“Really do I have to wait hungrily until my sleepy wife bring me food or I will not eat. You don’t have any work during the whole day still you are sleepy. You cant even wait for me. Thank god there was mom or I have to sleep today hungry”.
“I didn’t know when I fell asleep. I was waiting for you.”
“I don’t when you will learn these things.”
While listening to this one sentence I don’t know what I will reply to him.
“Anyway mom was telling me today at kitty party you are not even interested to their talking” said Adi while removing his shirt.
“No I was listening”.
“Really??”
“Then mom was lying to me now. You are the only one saying the truth.”
“It’s not like that I…
“Enough of your nonsense. I know you well enough. You are not interested in any of this house thing. Remember you are not that college girl anymore. You have to take responsibility of everything. You should thank to mom. For her only you could contact everyone or you would be just a dump stupid girl without a tongue. You have to talk dammit. You have responsibility of everyone know.”
Adi is beyond angry now. I don’t understand what I will talk there. I was talking to them when I was asked or anything. What will I say in those excuses to talk?
“Do you even listening to me? Or are you day dreaming again.”
“No I understand.”
“I hope it wont happen again”
Saying so he goes towards the door wearing his pyjamas.”
“Where are you going?”
“I am going to sleep in the next room. I can’t sleep next to you. You are disturbing me so much with your sleep talk.”
I was astonished to hear so. The banging of door makes me blink. “Sleep talking” really. I have never ever heard from anyone I have ever sleep talked. I was known to be a peaceful sleeper. Then how do I become like this after marriage? How did I change so much in such a less time?
Sleep was far away from me. The first month was blessing to me. I was so happy with my Adi. I don’t understand what changed so much with us that we sleep in different rooms now. Is he my Adi who could not sleep without touching me? Where is he now? What have changed between us in such a less time?
- Writer
