A love like yours

Stuck with me

Amber

Smiso's been doing a excellent job at making me forget about you know who. Even saying his name give me shivers down my spine. I chose not lable

Smiso as an opportunist because us living with him is a good idea. Rey will look everywhere for us and with find us. He's not taking my daughter anywhere with him, that's for sure. If he thinks I can't fight dirty, he has another coming! I slept like a baby in luxiourios Egyptian cotton sheets and pillow soft blankets and then woke up to breakfast in bed. My stomach was already grumbling when it was brought to me because of its delicious smell. I shouldn't mind living like this for rest of my life, a life where you're forbidden from getting out of bed and told to "Just relax" sounds very appealing to me. Not having to do anything for the rest of the day because someone hot it is what a true princess like myself deserves, to be pampered.

It was selfish if me to just leave my family without giving the any explanations. Yes, I was drunk, but I should've at least drink dialled my mom or dad to let then know. Should've ...

As if one had the option to control what they do or say when they're heavily under the influence of alcohol. I turn me head and panic when I don't see see Royalty. Where's my child? I ask Smiso fired up. I found her a school. He says like he didn't just make a major decision on his own.

And who gave that permission?

Smiso: You can't be serious! You're being serious? Children's start day care from as early as six months old and you're complaining that I found your three year old a school?Do you know that she gain sharpness, mentally from that? Or were you just quick to answer?

Me: Did you even bother to check back for any signs of tears? Or sis you just shove money in her hand and leave her just like that? Because my child does not do well without me. I shouldn't have come here! I puff.

Smiso: And what a pity it is that you're stuck with me babe.

Amber: I have parents that love me! That are desperately looking for me even right now! You think you're that special huh?

This i***t looks amused as I take my phone our and attempt to dial my mom. I'm taken aback when I learn that the call did not even get forwarded. I try again, same thing but the third time around, I notice a small, red arrow in the corner, right there where the network bars are. There's no signal?? I have to rock myself back and forth because I'm frightened now. He brought me to a place with no signal? Where am I supposed to get help in case of an emergency? What if I get sick here and die while he's at work or something? That was the last chance? That one when I was too drunk to clearly see anything... That was my last chance to talk to my family? Tell them that I love them? How cruel can this man be?

I don't want to see you hurt, he says in an almost hurt tone. I love you Amber, why don't you see that? I loved you from the very first time I saw you, right there and the. I knew I had to make you mine.Why can't you see that there no bad intentions intended here? I loved you, still love you and will continue to love even after I'm no more.

Me: Can't be too sure about that. I was certain I had that. once upon a time. Look where I am now.

One thing about me is that I suck at hiding emotions. and right now, I'm very dissapointed and a wee bit heartbroken.

Smiso sees this too, I assume because he clenched his jaw tight and makes a fist with his hand, although I'm not sure if that's meant to scare me or to contain his anger.

Me: I think I made a mistake by coming here, can you take me back to my parents' place? I'm pretty sure you took the opportunity to bed me a long time so... Now that you've gotten what time wanted, I'd like to get back home please.

Smiso: Did you not hear everything I just said to you? You know what? Forget this! You're not going anywhere. Where are you gonna go?

Careful not not find me hung up in a tree knew if these good days. Don't push me to do something that you'll live to regret.

You wouldn't leave your daughter.Besides, I've already managed to trap you here so what makes you so sure hat I'll do right by your little brat?

Everybody's sins catch up to them somehow. I say, staring at at nothing, thinking about how deceiving people can be. I thought he's one of the good guys, wanted to get back at Rey, make sure he doesn't win but ended up throwing myself into the pits of hell. I can tell that life isn't going to be any kinder towards me from here on out. Maybe my daughter live to see herself out of here if I one day run out of strength and fail to do that for her as her mother.