𝐀𝐏𝐏𝐋𝐄 (𝐄𝐧𝐠𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐡 𝐕𝐞𝐫𝐬𝐢𝐨𝐧)

#3: 𝐌𝐘 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄𝐑, 𝐘𝐎𝐔𝐑 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄𝐑

Aontakarn Rakthai…Aontakarn graduated in communication arts from a top university. She entered the entertainment industry after being discovered by a leading agency. But she didn't reach her goal with that agency, so she was struggling to achieve her dreams by auditioning and casting for jobs. She worked as a VJ and broadcaster before landing a solid job as a sports newscaster.

Aontakarn had appeared in some commercials, but since she was not a well-known leading actress, the pay was barely enough for snacks. She lived with her mother, but she had died three months ago from heart disease.

[Toh: Karn doesn't have the heart to do anything right now, so she doesn't want to be in the who doesn't like her. She don’t want to be in entertainment business anymore. She wants to start her own business. She just made a last ditch effort after receiving a letter from her fan club just before agreeing to be our member.]

[Jeth: And Karn doesn't want to be our partner anymore. She said she can't work with someone who doesn’t like her.]

And everyone kept sending me 'angry' stickers without thinking about how much that would hurt my feelings. But that would be all. My pain was much less than that of Aontakarn, who had misunderstood me into thinking that I hated her. Argh. What did I have to do? I could not sleep...

Thinking about it, I ended up sitting up in the middle of the night. It was after 3 am. I opened the drawer, took out my apple-scented writing paper and stared at it. I should apologize to her... although I didn't know if she would forgive me. Let's just say she needed to rejuvenate my dying heart before I called her to apologize. Ah...what should she write?

Dear you... who is loved,

Please don't be surprised if you receive a letter from me again. I want you to know that I always follow your work and hope to encourage you to overcome any challenges you may face. If you feel too small for this world or too worthless for everyone, know that... at least you are. valuable to a fan like me.

Idolizing someone makes me very happy. You are my happiness... Imagine how sad your fans would feel if you were sad. Look... You are valuable and you are an encouragement to many people. You are my inspiration.

I love you.

PS I look forward to your future work.

From Apple,

In the end I couldn't sleep all night… And as usual, I left the letter secretly at the reception, wearing a cap and mask so that people wouldn't recognize me.

“Please give this to the newscaster, Aontakarn.”

I received a slight smile from the receptionist, which made me so embarrassed that my face turned red. So I quickly ran away, like I was running away from a time bomb. Could she remember my face? Aside from my mission to cheer up Aontakarn, I also had to think about what I should say to apologize to her. I was under a lot of pressure from my teammates so I was forced to crawl on my knees and if necessary, lick her toe and apologize.

Come to think of it... licking her toe was kind of sexy. It wasn't that bad. Hahaha What madness!

Finally, Aontakarn, or 'Karn', appeared according to the appointment I asked Tho to make for me. I waited for her near her office. There was a nice little vintage style cafe nearby. Japanese song was playing in the cafe that I couldn't understand. Every time the doorbell rang to announce the arrival of a client I was excited because I thought they were Aontakarn. My heart raced twenty times, until the twenty-first time, when my heart stopped racing, the small, sweet-faced person finally appeared. She is wearing a mustard colored jacket. She comes over to sit in front of me.

“Sorry for the inconvenience.”

She sounded a little distant. The sweet-faced woman appeared with beautiful wavy hair hidden behind her ears. It made her look sassy and sweet at the same time.. What good works did she do? Why did she have this piosonous beauty? So cute… Awww.

"Uh-huh,"

I pursed my lips a little before trying to start a conversation.

“I'm sorry I set up this meeting, so you can't go straight home after work.”

“Ah-huh.”

Her brief response makes my face tense. I was beginning to understand why she was in a bad mood and thought I didn't like her that much. I could be so annoying. Spank me. I was wrong... master…. Crazy... Why am I babbling? I should get to the point.

"Ah... I heard from my brother and his friends that you don't want to work with us anymore because you think I don't like your... face."

Did I said well?

“I want to clear up this misunderstanding…”

“There is no need for that.”

“I apologize for not being a professional. I used my emotions and sensitivities to make work related decisions, which made others uncomfortable. Actually, even if you don't like my face, it's nothing I should worry about.”

“Ah.”

Why did she have to be so cold? Obviously, tension was growing around us. I couldn't breathe. But I understood why the sweet-faced woman felt this way. Although she was being cold... She was also very cute.

“Let's say I will continue to be your business partner. I just told the rest of the team that... I'll let them know about that too. From now on, we can only talk about work. There is no need to chat in the chat. Let's talk only as necessary.”

“Ah…”

I tried to say a word because I didn't want the atmosphere between us to be so cold. I had intended to make friends with her today. But it was difficult for me to say anything.

“You don't have to feel uncomfortable, Chris. I won't do anything to put you in a bad mood. You do your job and I'll do mine.”

“In fact..”

I was trying to find an opportunity to say that we could talk outside of work, but Karn talked non-stop.

"But if I get this far and you're still not happy, then it's your business."

From everything Aontakarn had said, it was clear that she was very uncomfortable. She lashed out like a broken dam. That left me speechless. I could only say..

“Alright.”

As soon as I said that, the person in front of me sighed, as if she had had enough. She continued speaking in a flat voice to end the conversation.

"Then let's separate."

Aontakarn got up to leave, but I called after her.

"Can I ask you why you changed your mind? Ah, I thought it would take a lot to convince you to stay.”

I rolled my eyes, not knowing why I did that.

“My brother and his friends said I had to do whatever it took to get you back, even if I had to lick your toe. That sounds... extreme. However, you easily come back before I even starts begging you.”

“I only care about those who care about me.”

“Ah... my brother and his friends?”

A slight smile appeared on Aontakarn's face. However, it fades quickly..

“It is none of your business.”

And our conversation ended there. I didn't feel like saying anything else because my heart was broken....

“You go crazy as soon as you can see us. What's with inviting your friends over for drinks but putting your head on the table the whole time?”

I was without strength. It was like all the energy was sucked out of my life when the person I liked said to my face... 'it's none of your business.' Getting shot would hurt less. I wanted to cry...

“My heart is broken.”

I raised my head and looked at my friends before drinking some beer. Our meeting place was Meen's room. Because it was in the heart of the town, it was convenient for the rest of us, who came from all directions, to meet there, because it was not far for everyone. I normally didn't drink because I knew that when I did I became a different person. It made me a very scary person. It was like I had a dark side hidden inside me, waiting to be revealed.

I once said: -My name is Rung... I am the double personality of Masutha.

“Yeah. You really are acting like someone who is heartbroken.”

Meen extended her hand to circle my neck and caress my shoulder.

“Are you heartbroken as soon as you can see? What boy were you in love with?”

“There is no boyb…”

I said this in frustration, poured the beer into my mug, and sank in agony. My friends looked at each other and encouraged each other. I knew what they're thinking.

“Don't try to trick me into saying anything because I won't.”

“Your split personality will do it.”

“I didn't bring her with me today. I just want to drink and pass out. Argh.”

And everything happened in an instant. When I woke up I was in Meen's room with all my friends. They were looking at something on my friend's desk. But... wasn't I drinking with my friends just now? I fainted?

“What are you guys looking at?”

When I made a noise, my friends turned to look at me and smiled at the corner of their mouths. They pointed to the laptop monitor for me to see.

"We are looking at this woman, Aontakarn."

“Hey!...”

My heart fell to my feet. Yes, all my friends nodded and smirked.

“Did my dual personality tell everything?”

“Ah-huhhhhhhh.”

My throbbing headache didn't embarrass me as much as having my secret found out.

“Everything... Your split personality told us that you were an i***t. You admire and adore her, but you don't dare to express what is in your heart. The latest development is, she told you to your face, 'it's none of your business' And that's why you invited us here for a beer.”

Well. My split personality did its job perfectly. I didn't have to say anything to the audience. Damn...

“By the way, did you also dream about her? It's really amazing.”

Ern put her hand on her chest.

“So fascinating.”

“Did I tell you all the details?”

“You do it very badly. No wonder... you suddenly asked us about fandom, an idol's agenda, supporting someone, etc. You were acting like the owner of the purple roses, who tried to do good without being noticed.”

Nat talks about someone I didn't know.

“Who is the owner of the purple roses?”

"Haven't you heard of her? The crystal mask? In it, the protagonist wants to be an actress and auditions for the role of the red witch. Where have you been?”

“What glass mask? I only watch Sailor Moon.”

Ern said this while she scratched her head. Yeah, we're all scratching our heads, except Nat.

“The owner of the purple roses is the male protagonist. He acts indifferently in front of the female protagonist. He acts like he hates her face. But behind her back, he always sends her purple roses like an avid fan to support her. He is exactly the same as Chris, who writes Aontakarn apple-scented letters of encouragement.”

"Oh, right."

Meen nodded. I shrank my neck embarrassingly and began to think about seriously taking care of my split personality. I really had to stop drinking. My split personality was very scary.

“But the owner of the purple roses likes the female protagonist. How about you? You are acting like a secret admirer and are distressed when she says harsh words to you. Do you like her?”

“How crazy! I'm a woman.. Why can't you imagine Jongin calling you stupid?”

"I would cry a lot because I don't think he could speak Thai."

Ern seemed surprised, but in a dreamlike state rather than hurt, as she intended her to be.

“I think you should tell her frankly that you are not good at expressing your feelings. You don't hate her. That is the simplest solution to this problem.”

“I want to do it, but when I'm with her, I'm not myself. I wish I could express my admiration for her, but all I could muster was an ah-huh. I don't dare smile too much because I'm afraid she'll think I'm crazy. What's happening to me?”

I asked my friends' opinions and they all gave me the same answen

“You are crazy.”

Ah... that's what I thought..

“But it's okay. Let her hate me.”

I said it timidly.

“At least she didn't withdraw from our project.”

“Right now, I get the impression that... you are acting like someone who is secretly in love with someone without wanting anything in return. Oh? Or do you like her romantically? Chris! You like woman.”

Ern grabbed me by the shoulder and looked me in the eyes, with Meen and Nat for backup. Everyone was very interested in my matter.

“Yeah! Your condition is too serious to be anything else. Since when did you realize that you like women? Speak Now!”

“Moron. I like men. I simply admire her... It's admiration.”

“Hey. We are all future thinkers. You might like women.”

Meen pressured me.

“I won't talk to you anymore!”

I lay down and turned my back on my friends. Even though l pretended to be asleep, I could hear my friends still talking about Aontakarn.

“I think Chris likes her, for sure.”

“But she probably doesn't like Chris either. She is too beautiful. She must have many options.”

“Wow. Are you forgetting something? Remember how popular Chris was during high school? She just wasn't interested in anyone. And when she chose one, Toy tricked her.”

They were gossiping behind my back. However, I tolerated it. Until they reached the key phrase:

“Do you think Chris will know how to do it if she likes a woman?”

“Idiots!!! Aontakarn and I work together as always. We don't talk much to each other. Apart from work, we didn't interact much either. I think... Karn didn't want to talk to me anymore.”

People started recognizing our website because Puth regularly promotes it on f*******: and Pantip through banner ads. Additionally, our content included a well-known female announcer. Therefore, we were growing rapidly. Small stores started sending us products to help promote and review them. Some gave us the product, while others gave us some money. Although it wasn't much, it encouraged us to know that what we were doing would not go to waste.

And finally... We had our first big sponsor, who wanted to buy a banner on our website for 7 months at the price of...

“600,000 baht. My God!”

Puth, who successfully closed the deal, screamed as if he had been burned with hot water. We all clapped happily. We were finally making a substantial income.

“We have to give credit to our announcer and the editor... The clips are interesting, that's why the sponsor came in. Congratulations to both.”

Jeth clapped his hands to congratulate Aontakarn and me. However, the sweet-faced woman showed no signs of joy like the others. She just interrupted out of nowhere.

“Why did they contact us?”

“They wanted to sell something. Because?”

“Well... I have something to say.”

The little woman seemed uneasy, so Puth asks worriedly.

“You can tell us anything. Do you feel uncomfortable with something?”

“I'm worried that the person who made the deal could be... my ex.”

“Huh?”

“Huh?”

“Huh?”

Everyone seemed surprised. Just me, I listened in silence without showing any emotion. My feet sank into the ground as I listened in frustration.

“Your ex?”

“Wel... the marketing for this project was done by my ex. So I'm afraid there's something strange.”

Everyone looks at each other and started to worry. It was 600,000 baht and he was our first big sponsor...

“So they didn't contact us because our website is very good…”

I said this because I could feel the little girl's concern. I had to help her.

“Buy an ad to reconcile with a woman. Wow...what a great use of company money.”

This time, all eyes were on me, while Aontakarn just glanced at me a little and left the room frustrated. That made everyone show their teeth at me.

“Calm down, Chris. You're belittling us. And how do you think Karn would feel hearing that?”

Oh? Devils. I wanted to help her, but it turned out that what I did was wrong. I was starting to worry about the little girl who ran away from her, so I stopped the conversation and went after her. However, before I could say anything to her, I heard Aontakarn talking to someone on the phone.

“What are you doing? Buying an ad is not a coincidence, right?”

The little girl walked restlessly while she spoke sternly.

“Don't help. I don't want your help. Do you realize there is a team member who doesn't like me? You doing this makes me look worse in her eyes.”

That was me... No, I don't dislike you...

“Please... don't do anything that will put me in a difficult situation. Let's end everything once and for all.”

I quickly hid and waited for the little woman to leave before realizing I had to do something. That is, steal the phone number of the sponsor Puth dealt with from his phone when he went to the bathroom, I run back to my room and call that number. To be honest, I didn't know what to say. I just knew I had to do something. However... what was more surprising was that, when I called that sponsor, the name came up...

“Toy?”

I seemed to have seen a ghost when the phone showed my ex-lover's name. And since I couldn't hang up in time, the person on the other end of the line answered my call.

[Chris? Hey... What a surprise!]

Wow... WHAT a surprise. Her ex-lover was my ex-lover....