We talked till late at night before he realized it was already late, “ Ohh shoot, it's already late,” he said as he checked his watch for the time, “We’d better get inside,” he demanded, “Ya, that's right,” I agreed, he helped me get up, yes, my legs still shook, we slowly, gently walked back to the house, his hands around my hips, I couldn't help but think of earlier, then we became awkwardly silent as we came nearer to our room. Is he going to spend the night with me? I wondered, maybe not, we opened my door, helped me sit on the bed. “Do you need anything else?” he asked nervously. “No,” I responded quickly while shaking my head, yet deep down, I wanted him to stay, spend the night with, wake up in his chest or while rubbing backs. Except his reaction made me not mingle further.

