forgotten maiden

the biggest mistake

Lily’s pov

I had just made the biggest mistake of my life it was too late. I could not go back home like this my parents would know .but neither was not going home the solution. The grand dowager was the only solution but I had to make sure that she did not notice the blood that was dripping from my legs .so I quickly took an arrow then struck myself. Then went lipping to grandma she was the only knew how secretly I loved to hunt so she would do anything to protect my image.so to her I went lipping there I was crying at her like a newly born child .she is so loving that she led me to my quarters I already had them since the palace was my second home. There I went to rest grandma new I needed my space so she didn’t send any maid to attend me .there I cleaned myself, my legs were heavy and I couldn’t forget what had happened his every move till the point I told him to stop yet he hadn’t .i didn’t know if I was just dumb or desperate or under a potion to believe he loved me. Still wondering in my thoughts a sharp pain both physically and emotionally stuck me and I just retired to my bed. The night was long filled with Alex as I could not believe what had just happened. I was shy on how I would meet him after what had happened. Another thought feared the outcome if my brother Lesley would find out what occurred. I had disgraced my family and I was mad at myself actually. No men would want a stained woman and I had allowed a man who had another lady at heart to disgrace me .it was a combination of regret and joy. I had not prepared myself for what had to come. My mother’s voice woke me up what was she doing here, I was hoping to spend the rest of the day in bed. I thought I was still dreaming and that guilt was making me think of her until a bucket of cold water was thrown all over my face. “Mom! Can’t a lady be allowed to sleep in peace,” I shouted angrily .that was when I was greeted by the most shocking news ever as she replied me back, “only those who don’t end up seeking the throne” she replied. Then she started being all formal with me. It seemed like I was the only one in the dark so I ran outside. The palace maids did respect me but this time it was not normal so instinct led me to Andrews wing only to be greeted by a half-naked prince thoughts of last night started flooding back and I was embarrassed in front of his eunuch.