Sarah's Journey to Love

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SARAH’S POV

            I can’t believe my friends just left me like that will I can. I see that Evan is looking at me, I look over at him and smile. I walk close to him, he is even hotter covered in grease. I take in his arms the way that his blue shirt is tight around his chest, he runs a hand through his hair, and pulls out a red rag from his back pocket. Still with a smirk on his face. I bite my lower lip looking at his. They look soft and inviting. I shake my head and walk over to him.

            “So, how is it going.” I say drawing out the o.

            “It is going, when was the last time you had your oil changed.” I walk over and open my car door putting my packs in, and as I thought about it.

            “I am due again here soon for other one. Why?”

            “Okay good, I was just making sure, I have to take it to the shop, you battier is died and I need to charge it, and I can change the oil while we wait.”

            “Is that the only problem with it?”

            He shakes his head no, and hold his hand out for me to grab, I take it he pulls me in close to him, as I stand in between him and the car, he grabs my hips turning me to face the car, he steps closer. I can smell him, and I take it all in, he smells like Axe, and grease, I feel myself lean into him. My back up against his chest, with one hand still on my hip, he points out a spot.

            “You see right that that is your radiator hose it looks like it has been cut, if you were to drive your car for too long it would over heat and burn up your car.”

            “Wait, it has been cut?”

            He nods, “Looks like someone cut it. Most people wouldn’t think about look at that kind of stuff, someone would up give you a jump and you would think you would be good to go.”

            He tells me that he will take it to the shop that is won’t take long to fix, we jump the car he tells me that it will be fine to drive it to the shop, as it is only three blocks over. When we get there, he parks the truck walks over to the car opens the door, I get out and he pulls it into the bay. I walk in, and see Mark working on a car. He gives me a quick smile and puts his head back under the hood. I hear a door open and turn to the sound of the noise, I see a man walk in that looks a lot like Mark the same eyes and hair color, he was a little short and a little wider around the middle, and older with graying hair. He smiles at me when he sees me. He walks up and puts a hand on Evan’s shoulder.

            “So, you finally show up to work.” He says.

            “I am sorry he is late because of me, he was helping with my car.”

            Mark walks over and looks at me. “He is just messing around, Evan already talked to him.”

I feel my face getting red, and I want to hide in one of my books, but I know that the girls are right I can’t live life in a book. I just smile at them. Evan grabs my hand talk walks me over to a table and pulls out a chair for me, he tells me that he is going to work on the car before he leaves, he asks if I need anything. I tell him no and he walks away. I pull out my phone and girls the girls telling them about my car, they ask how I thought cut it, but we all know who it did will not really who, but why, is was one of Isabella’s boy toys that she talked into doing it. I talked to them about how I don’t know why she thought one that Evan would want to go anywhere with him and two why it would even bug me if he did. But deep down it would bug me I am not sure why, but it would. Tina asked if I had kissed him yet and I told her no. But it did make me wonder what is would be like to kiss him, how it would feel. I am lost in thought when I feel someone standing behind me with their hand on my chair before I can turn and look, they lean down, and I can feel their breath on my ear.

            “Hey sweetheart. We are all done.”

            I turn to face him, his eyes looking deep into my eyes, and smiles at me taken a piece of hair and pulling it behind my ear. I smile at him, “thanks for fixing my car.” I tell myself that it is time to be brave, I lean forward and kiss him on the cheek.

            “I am just happy I could be of help.”

            He pulls out my seat and helps me up. He has even more grease on his face, and he looks hot, and I want to kiss him. But before I can do anything, he backs up when he hears Mark clear his throat.

            “Hey Evan if you are done, Ms. Millar is to get her oil changed.” We both turn to look at him with a smile on his face, Evan nods.

            He goes to pull my car out of the bay, and I walk into the lobby of the shop to pay the bill. I turn to see Isabella standing behind me.

            “Ms. Millar we are getting ready to pull our car in now.”

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            (The next morning)

            I didn’t have time to tell Evan bye yesterday, I am happy that he was there and able to help. I wish that I could have talked to him more, but he was busy with “Ms. Millar” I roll my eyes and get out of bed and jump in the shower. When I get out, I hear my phone beep. I look to see that I have a miss call from my mom which never happens. I call my mom back she tells me that they are going to end up coming home sooner than they thought. They will be home in the middle of next week. We talk for a little she tells me that things will be different, I roll my eyes I really don’t believe her, nor do I really care. I tell her I have to get ready for school and she lets me go. I head over to my closet and pull out a pair or dark blue skinny jeans, a teal tank top, and a black short sleeve button down to put on over it, after putting my clothes on I put on a pair of black biker boots. I pull my hair into a high ponytail, and put on some makeup on, and walk down the stairs. I pull into the school parking lot, Tina and Karen pulling in behind me. I wave at them and get out. We head inside to homeroom we are the first ones there, there is start five minutes before school starts, we take are seats. I find myself thinking about Evan and his body and his lips and how I would love to feel his lips and his hands on me. I think about the warm of his body, and how comfortable I felt with his body against mine. The bell rings bringing me back to the class.

            “He is so hot, and the s*x was even hotter.”

            “Did you really do it in the shop?”

            “Yeah Mark and his dad left to get some parts and stuff, and we did it in the bed of the truck.”

            Isabella was talking to Missy, making sure that we were listening to them, she looks over at me and smiles. “Oh, I am sorry Sar, you guys were together or anything right?”

            I could feel my face getting red, “Nope, I won’t want to be with anyone that would f*ck you.”

Before she could say anything, Mr. Schimt walked into the classroom. And Isabella and Missy take their seat. I look over and Karen and Tina, I wonder if they really did have s*x. I mean yesterday, he turned her down but who knows what happened. I put my head down feeling dumb for letting myself start to like him, I mean why would he like someone like me, I mean I’m sure that he would want much more then I was willing to do, I mean I have never really had a boyfriend and never kissed anyone. Karen leans over and says tells me that she thinks that she is full of s**t. That he would never be with someone like her. I don’t want to talk to anyone anymore I pull out my book and hide my face in it. I can feel tears building up in my eyes and I try to blink them away. As the bell the late bell rings I feel one slide down my face. Evan still not here. It not like I care, I won’t care if I ever see him again. I swipe away the tear that fall, and I read my book. The rest of the day passed away by I felt like I was in a dazed. Walking out of the school Tina and Karen asked if I wanted to go to the football game tonight. I said yeah it was better than sitting home all-night thinking about Evan.

I rolled over grabbing my phone and putting my book down, the game started in an hour and a half. I head down to the kitchen with my snack dishes in hand and wash them. Heading back upstairs, there is a knock on the door. I go over to the door and open in.

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            “Hey Sweetheart.”

            “What do you want?”

            Evan is wearing a hat and sunglasses today, he voice sounds different and seems to not care that I was just rude to him, he seems to be in a bad mood.

            “I was told that I need to come and talk to you. Do you want to tell me what’s up?”

            “Nah, you know I am good thanks though, I have to get ready I’m going on. Is there anything that you need?” I cross my arms; his jaw is tight I look down and see that his hands are balled into fits.

            “Whatever, I don’t need this bull s**t today.”

            He walks away, and I shut the door. I wasn’t going to let myself feel bad, I wasn’t going to let myself have feelings far him. I jump in the shower crying the only tears that I was going to cry for and once I was done, I would never cry for him ever again. I was done feeling dumb for likely and I was done feeling dumb for starting to let him in, I would never think about him again from this moment on. I jump out of the shower throw on a pair of blue jeans and a school t-shirt, and a pair of shoes. I pull my hair back into a messy bun and grab my wallet and car keys. I told the girls I would meet them at the game. It was Bobcats (us) vs Yellow Jackets. The first game of the season, normally I don’t come to the games, but I really didn’t want to stay home. Tina text me telling me that her and Karen are already inside waiting in line to get some goodies before the games starts, when I make it over to them, they are the last in line which is not a big deal see how there are only two other groups in front of them.

            “So, Sar did Evan come by and see you?” Tina asks hopeful, Karen links her arm through mine.

            “Yeah, but I don’t want to talk about him or have anything to do with him.”

“But its not true, Sarah, Evan really does like you it’s not true what that slut said. Tina and I went to go talk to him.”

            “Look I said I don’t want anything to do with him and that is that, so please let’s talk about something else.”

            They both look at me sadly, but they do as I asked. Tina started asking use what we want, when we get up to the front, she orders everything and pays for it. We head to the stands to find seats. We sit down shortly after the games starts. We spend the game cheering, and booing, and laughing, as Isabella almost fell on her face. When the game was over, we won, 21 to 7. Tina, Karen, and I head back to Tina’s house. Her dad was still up, when we got there, he asked about the game and how we were doing, before heading back to his office, this weekend was Tina’s weekend to work with her dad. We headed to her room, put on Netflix and watched The Office until we all passed out.