Wildfire

Chapter 20

Nothing.” He says not looking me in the eyes.

“I know you Blaine and I know somethings up. You’ve been giving me pet names, exploding at even the thought of me leaving, and you growled at James.” His eyes go black at the mention of that last part.

“He shouldn't have been f*****g touching you!” He snarls.

I just stand there shocked. He is angry again and visibly shaking. Not really sure what to do but I go towards him out of instinct and hold him. He finally starts to relax and wraps his arms around me holding me back.

“ s**t I’m sorry Kierra. I can’t control myself anymore when it comes to you.” He says softly.

“Anymore?” He sighs.

“ I have to tell you something.” I look up at him and nod. He walks is over to the couch and sits us down. He sighs again and rubs his neck. I can tell he is super nervous.

“ Hey it’s ok. I’m here for you no matter what.”

“That’s just it I’m scared to tell you because you might not be anymore.”

“Blaine nothing can break our bond.” I tell him with a smile on my face, he takes a deep breath then nods.

“Ok sooooo oh s**t where do I start... f**k um ok so let me start from the beginning.” I mentally chuckle at his rambling.

“Soooo many many years ago the Moon goddess blessed my family with a gift. We were favored by the moon for always being loyal in a time that others were not. The gifts she granted us were soulmates. Over the years the pairs she created made our pack grow through strength, finances, and power. My ancestors always made sure to stay humble and to always try to give back in the best ways we can so we did not disgrace the gift that the moon gave us. Our mate is our other half and part of our soul it's truly a remarkable gift. When we met as merely babies we instantly connected. I was lucky to have found you so fast and not only that but to become such a huge part of your life. Clyde and you though had an instant connecting and your love for each other grew. I was a coward and at a young age,so I let you go. I don’t regret it though my love.”

When he says those words I could see it in his eyes that he truly meant it.

“I love you so much that your happiness meant more to me then my own. Clyde made you happy and I accepted that. Honestly I was just happy being apart of your life. I also believe the goddess gave me gift to ease my pain when you were with Clyde. I believe she took away any jealousy and pain that I had. Kierra please believe me when I say that my heart broke when Clyde and your pack died. I wish it was me instead. I wish I could have taken all the pain away.”

He’s crying. I reach my hands over wiping the tears. He brings his hand up and wipes my cheek not realizing I was also crying.

“ When you left I accepted it. Accepted the fact that you would come back one day and we’d just stay friend but it wouldn’t matter because you would be back with me. What I didn’t expect was to feel our bond become so strong, I believe the moon lifted the gift because my feelings are alot more stronger and so is my possessions.” He sighs letting go of me looking worried.

“I’m sorry for being a jealous freak my love but I’m becoming more territorial with you around and I can’t control it, not as well as before now the you’re not mated anymore.” He looks down with guilt and sadness. Like a sad puppy.

“ I don’t want to loose you again. Even if it’s just as friends for the rest of our lives. I love you and need you near me Kierra. The thought of you leaving me again for a 3rd time kills me inside. I promise Kierra I’ll try to control my feeling better. I promise! Please just don’t leave me!” He’s crying and shaking. I bolt up and hug him. I can feel him shaking.

I still don't know how to feel. Angry? Sad? I have so many mixed feelings. Angry he never told me the truth and sad because he saw his mate fall in love with another man then left for four years. Was I ready to even move on completely? Truth is I loved Clyde with all my heart and I always will, but no matter how hard it sucks I know I need to continue to live my life like he wanted me to. One day we will be together again in another life. Then there’s James. We aren’t in a relationship but I do care for him and I know he has feelings for me. I need to end things with him before I begin things with Blaine. But honestly I know deep in my heart that I am in love with this man and I do accept him.

“I still need to kill the rouge king Blaine. Before we can ever settle down he must die by my hands.” I tell him. Then I put both my hand on each of his cheeks making him look me in the eyes.

“I’m so sorry you had suffered all these years. You are truly an amazing man Blaine and I love you so much. I accept you as my mate. My feelings for you are also strong especially since I've came back.”

He just looks at me with so many emotions mostly shocked,lust,and happiness. Wait lust?Suddenly I realize im straddling him. Catching me by surprise he grabs my face a pressing his lips against mine. I was extremely shocked that I didn’t know what to do for a second. Then I closed my eyes and kiss him back. It was amazing, his lips were soft, and I could feel so much passion and emotions in his kisses. Suddenly he stops a put his forehead against mine.

“I love you so much.” He said with a husky voice. Damn I’m turned on now. Out of pure instinct I kiss him again fiercely. He graps his arms around me while we kiss. Things are starting to get steamy until someone decide to knock on the f*****g door.

“ We are ready to continue the meeting!” Yells Johnny. Then we hear his footsteps disappear.

After a moment of silence we both look at each other awkwardly. s**t. I can’t help but blush.

“Ummmm.” I start to say nervously.

“Well that escalated quickly.” Blaine says and we both bust out laughing.

“ We can talk about this tonight.” I tell him. He nods. Once we are both done fixing ourselves up we head down stairs and return to the group. My eyes go to James who has no emotions on his face. Damnit I’m a slut. Before today ends I need to talk to him.

“So what’s the plan.” Says Dom.

“ Deacon and Milly will head to the pack in Oklahoma. James you and Dom will go to the pack in Mississippi, Dom I know your sister is there and you want to keep he safe.” I give him a soft smile and he nods and smiles in return.

“Sam an Sierra will stay here with me and see if we can track the rouges that ran and interrogate the ones we’ve caught. I’ll also stay here and watch this pack. The rouge king is coming but we don’t know what he plans to do next now. We need to split up. We know where he’s attacking so we have the advantage here.”

My team nods understanding the situation.

“I’ll call the Alphas letting them know you’ll be on your way to help.” Blaine says.

“We need to communicate regularly. If no one answers after 24 hours then we know somethings wrong. Also when arriving to the packs explore the outside of the territory. They are smart so they are probably scouting the land.”

“And please everyone be careful.” This is the first time we are all going to be apart and I don’t like it. But I push those feelings aside knowing this is what’s best.