CHAPTER FORTY-ONE TRISTHE SMELL OF bleach tingles in my nose. I stand next to a mop in a storage room in the basement; I stand in the wake of what I just told everyone, which is that whoever breaks into the Weapons Lab will be going on a suicide mission. The death serum is unstoppable. “The question is,” Matthew says, “is this something we’re willing to sacrifice a life for.” This is the room where Matthew, Caleb, and Cara were developing the new serum, before the plan changed. Vials and beakers and scribbled-on notebooks are scattered across the lab table in front of Matthew. The string he wears tied around his neck is in his mouth now, and he chews it absentmindedly. Tobias leans against the door, his arms crossed. I remember him standing that way during initiation, as he watched us

