the day you looked my way

Chapter 7

Knock knock

Someone knocked at the bathroom door but I knew it was Danny

“ Go away Danny I busy “ I said coldly

“ Busy with throwing up or cursing at yourself “ Danny said, of course he knew how much I despised the scent of French toast and bacon . I stood up and opened the door and saw him packing up the broken plate pieces

“ Just leave it I would do it later “ I said going to my bed to lay down

“ You know, you could have just told her no instead of making her cry” Danny said still picking up the pieces

“ I didn't make her cry I just slapped a f*****g plate out of her hand which she was shoving at my face. Why I'm I even f*****g explaining myself to you.”

“ You know you've been like this ever since that incident ten years ago and I get why but involving Stella in it is not cool and I least expected that from you” Danny said in a disappointed tone but I couldn't careless

“ Just shut the f**k up and leave”

After that uneventful incident the time passed by and it seems I had successfully passed the message that I don't wish to be bothered by anyone. Eventually time turned into days and days turned to weeks there I was still cuffed up in this dreadful place of a home, Stella avoided me like the plague well I wouldn't blame her actually, after that encounter if I were her I would avoid me too, Daniel was occupied with video games, Tom was always at the office or home with my mom and Mom kept on trying to bond with her two twins every time she got off work early or on a day off which was suffocating, the way she smiled like nothing ever happened and all is well was truly annoying and of course Danny boy was her muse they both hit it off perfectly every time she would decide to go shopping or have dinner Danny and Stella would keep her company and me off her interests for a while . Daniel was a pro person pleaser which meant he was good at pleasing people around him by hiding his emotions and feelings behind a smile which was annoying but In a way I envy him, being able to push off your entire feelings and pretend to be ok was hard even super hard for me but somehow he always does so I envy him alot.

It was a cold day and I was out of the shower again for the time being. ‘ I didn't know Canada was this cold, at least Tom would have thought to build a sauna too ‘ I thought, don't get me wrong I loved the cold days but this was worse than California. I decided to listen to an audio book while wrapping myself in a blanket.

I opened my eyes and there I was back at the scene that taunt my days, my entire existence as it was , blood all over my body dad destroying the house in search of every nickel he could get , his last dreadful wicked glance at me before fleeing leave the door open for me to freeze to death “ ah so Canada was always this cold” then everything went blank again.

I woke up shivering and terrified , everything was coming back again, the memories that gave me sleepless nights and days always came inviting and unwanted, those last wicked dreadful glance, the blood at the scene, the cold air that embraced and the black out . The scene that haunts my entire existence making it impossible for one to get a simple shot eye without waking up in despair.

I took my jacket and went straight to the one place that helped me clear my mind

The gym I had found comfort and pleasure at throwing my fist at something anything and currently the boxing ring was my go to place.

I entered the gym house, only to find my mom's husband there and at the one place I least expected him to get the ring. I was about to turn and make my leave but it was too late

“ Hey Dian” he had already seen me

“ That's Diana to you” I said wanting to keep the relationship between us formal

“ Come on in, come box with me”

“ No thanks”

“ Oo come on Dian don't be like that . I know that's what you came here for right. You love boxing”

“ What” I asked curious to how he knew

“ I come here everyday and I see you here” he chuckled then continued” I must say I was extremely surprised at first but you kept on coming like it was a daily routine of yours , so I figured you must love boxing” he smiled slightly and said “ it's ok I love boxing too, at least that one thing you and I have in common”

“ Thanks but to be precise I don't love boxing. I just love any activity that involves me throwing my fist at something and you and I are nothing alike”

“ Okay then come throw your fist at me “ he said

“ What?” I looked at him puzzled at whether this dude has completely lost his mind or is he just insane

“ Well you and I know very well that you've been wanting to throw a punch at my face the first day you saw at your house ten years ago and I know you still want to so come on”

Well he wasn't completely wrong I've already wanted that

“ Fine” I said tossing my jacket aside , I grabbed a glove 🥊 and jumped on the ring

We started boxing and then I realized this dude was a pro, we've been at it for almost an hour and I still haven't landed a single blow , He hasn't either but I was sure he was just holding back, at this point there was no scores kept but I'm completely sure I was losing here .

“ Time out” he said going to grab his water bottle

“ You've boxed before” I asked completely out of breath

“ I told you I loved boxing” he said passing me my water bottle “ what impressed”

“ No” I said taking a sip

“ I used to compete in matches back in college and high school”

“ You were studying law and was also a boxer” I asked around

“ Well yeah. What did you think paid the bills”

“ What. You're kidding right” I said surprised. I thought this dude was born rich

“ No, wish I was thou but no , wait don't tell me you thought I was born rich Dian” he chuckled “ you completely thought that”

“ Wait does my mom know about this”

“ Yh of course she does. But don't tell her I told you thou” he said stepping back into the ring “ I struggled to become who I'm today kiddo and you can do the same too” he said wanting to pat my head but I slapped his hands off

“ Don't touch my hair again” I said coldly and jumped down from the ring “ I'm heading inside”

“ Wait”

“ What. Make sure to come down for dinner today, your is beginning to white hairs worrying about you”

“yh no thanks, I'm good” I said leave the door

“ Come down for dinner or I will drag you down” he yelled behind me but I didn't reply, like he would dare