FOUR SEASONS OF LOVE

It's what makes us human

It’s been a week since I started attending school, I manage to wake up early everyday thanks to my alarm clock. Very helpful, indeed.

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I decided to go to school and start looking for him, I didn’t take the bus because I wanted to try walking and do some sightseeing. When I arrive at school, it is very lively. It’s early but there are already students everywhere. “Where should I start? How should I start?” I asked myself while looking around, I woke up early and go to school early but I haven’t think of a single plan on how to look for Iza-chan. Kano Iza is the only name that I remember, I can’t even remember his face so I really don’t know if I already saw him.

“I’m screwed. I’m never going to find him.” I said while walking, I was covering my face because of frustration when I suddenly bump into someone, I’m so unlucky this life of mine is so miserable. Kamisama please take my life. (kamisama is God in japanese)

“I’m so sorry” I immediately said without looking at the person I bump with. I’m looking down while waiting for a response, but no one’s talking. I looked at the person and saw an angel, no joking I really saw an angel. “Am I dead?” I said while looking at this shiny human in front of me. “Who’s going to die just by bumping into someone?” he said, oh my gosh the angel spoke, is my wish came true? “I’m really dead, I’m in heaven” I said again and he smack me in my head. “Stupid! You’re not dead, are you crazy?” he said while frowning at me, this guy is so violent but he does look like an angel though. “What are you staring at?” he said again and I finally woke up in to reality and realize that I’m still alive, what a disappointment.

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By the way this guy is so scary and violent and short tempered but he’s such a good looking guy he almost look like an angel only if he doesn’t have that kind of attitude, he’s completely the opposite of Hiro-san. “What a waste” I said before walking away. Is it bad to admire someone’s beauty? What’s wrong with him, I keep on cursing that violent guy to myself until I reach our classroom.

I sat down and sigh, I arrive early but instead of looking for Iza I’m here, looking like a depress sloth. I don’t even know where to start, this school is huge! There are too many students I can’t just ask everyone if they knew someone named Iza Kano. “Ahhhhh” I shouted while violently rubbing my head, I heard the door opened and saw Hiro standing while catching his breath. “What wrong Hiro-san? What happen?” I said and I immediately walk towards him. “I heard someone screaming, I ran to see what happen” he said while holding his chest “Oh, I’m sorry, it’s me I’m just frustrated that’s why I shouted, I didn’t know that it was too loud. I’m sorry” I said while looking down, why am I always like this? Every time I think of how I can find Iza, I always get frustrated. He’s the whole reason why I’m here right now, that why every time I think of not being able to see him here makes me feel so frustrated. I worked so hard to get in this school and now I will get nothing? “No, it’s okay you don’t need to apologize. I just got worried, it’s not your fault” he said while smiling, ah that smile again. “Why don’t we take a seat and tell me why you’re shouting” he said while walking towards his seat, I face palmed myself when I realize how stupid it is for a girl like me to shout like that. I sat down at my seat and started telling him about Iza.

“I really need to find him, but I don’t know where to start, I’m starting to feel like it’s impossible for us to see each other again” I said while looking down, I’m getting depressed again. “Hey, cheer up Hayami-chan. Are you just going to give up just like that? You still have time and you have me too. I’ll help you” He said while flashing that lovely smile of his. This guy never fails to cheer me up, that smile is very effective on cheering people up. “Thank you so much Hiro-san” I said while smiling at him, I didn’t tell him anything because I want Iza-chan to be the first one to know about what happen “Ah, you must’ve miss him” he said while looking at me, why are you looking at me like that? Don’t pity on me, I’m perfectly fine. “Hiroshi-san, you have a visitor” one of our classmates said while looking at us, he immediately stood up to see who is it. I got curious so I tried to see who’s the visitor. “A girl” I said while my mouth’s half open, I may be exaggerating here but that girl is so beautiful. I can hear the girls on our class chatting while trying to look at the door. They really hate anyone who clings or talk to Hiroshi, that explains the deadly glare I always receive after class. If their glares were knife I might be dead by now.

“Who is that?”

“Maybe one of Hiroshi-kun’s fan girl”

“But they’re pretty close”

“Don’t tell me his GIRLFRIEND?”

“So pretty” I said while staring at her, I remember Iza-chan with hir hair. He used to have a long and shiny hair, my dresses look so good on him too. I wonder if he’s still wearing dress, I wonder if his hair is long like mine. I can’t wait to see him.

After 5 minutes the teacher arrive “Take a sit” the teacher said and we all get back to our sits; I can’t focus on the lesson. I want to go out and look for Iza, I wonder if he’s really here. I look at the window and saw the dark angel that I met earlier. He’s smiling, so he can smile huh? he really looks like an angel when he’s smiling but the way he talked to me earlier he’s like a different person. Do pretty boys always do that? Hiro-san’s nice, he’s also thoughtful and cheerful. You might think that he’s a real angel that has fallen from heaven unlike that dark angel right there. Smiling trying to hide his true colors. What a waste. I looked at Hiro and he’s sleeping, I smiled when I realized that he’s so cute should I wake him up? I look at the teacher and he’s busy writing something in the board. Hiro looks so peaceful; I can’t wake him up if he’s sleeping like that. He really reminds me of Iza, the way he talks and his positive outlook on everything. I don’t know if I just missed him or “What is it Hayami-chan?” I’m so shock to see him awake while smiling, damn I end up staring at him again. Maybe he thinks I’m weird? “Nothing, I’m just planning to wake you up but it looks like I don’t need to.” I said trying to sound innocent as possible, I looked at the window, I can feel my face burning because of embarrassment. He laughed while stretching his arms, “You’re so cute Hayami-chan”. What are you saying stupid? Now I feel so awkward, I looked at the board and act like I’m listening. I can’t believe he called me cute, why am I blushing? It’s not like I want him to say that I’m cute. I need to focus on looking for Iza, I have no time to flirt with this beautiful guy in front of me. What? In front of me? “Waaahhh” I shouted when I realize that Hiro’s face is so close to mine. “What are you doing” I asked while trying to hide my face, I’m blushing for sure. He laughed and said “You’re so focus on studying and I think you didn’t realize that class is over 10 minutes ago. So I’m waiting for you” What is wrong with me? 10 minutes? I looked around and our classmates are gone. I can’t believe this, why am I always spacing out! “Sorry Hiro-kun, why are you still here?” I asked while packing my things. “I’m waiting for you; we’re going to walk together. Right?” he smiled, he is so cute and handsome, no no I need to focus. “Oh, yeah I forgot” I said trying to sound as casual as possible. I can’t seem to erase his beautiful face on my mind. Wahh why did he have to stare at me and he’s so close! “Let’s go?” he said while waiting for me to step out of the classroom.

I look at the field and saw the soccer team, I remember that Hiro is part of the soccer team. “Hey the soccer team is warming up, shouldn’t you go?” I asked while looking at him, he just smiled. What was that? That wasn’t his usual smile. I’m used to see his comforting smile everyday that’s why I can notice the slightest change in his smiles. You don’t need to smile if you’re sad, you don’t need to act like everything’s okay. “I quit already, remember I’ll be in photography club” he said while smiling again, I don’t know what happen but his smile is really painful to watch. I looked away “You don’t always need to smile, sometimes crying is better that smiling. It’s not bad to show some emotion, it’s part of being a human.” I said before walking away, I laughed when I realize that I’m just like him, hiding my pain and sadness through smiles and laughter. “I’m sorry” he said while walking beside me, “I just don’t want to let you see me like this.” He said while looking down, I guess even an angel can get sad too.