Enshrined love

Chapter 15

Nate's POV

I spent the last 5 days living a dream as today is that I never thought I would want again. I know I can love I've lived it before with Hannah I remember myself being smitten to the point of no return that I thought I would marry her. I didn't care if we were still young but the goal was set and I aimed to achieve it. Hannah evoked immense emotion on me, I loved her truly. Up until Zoe showed up she still somehow occupied my mind not as much as before but she did. I remember there were night where I could lay awake beating my self up wondering if I was ever enough. I did everything for her, she would have asked me to lay down my life and I would have done so why then did she leave me? These thoughts would play on my mind on those night and I would literally lose sleep. The saddest thing about this was I truly believe I could have made her happy but I guess she wasn't mine to begin with. I accept that. Looking at myself now I'm okay with it. I wouldn't have been who I am today if I have never gone through that s**t. Although I was hurt I've come to the realization that I want to try again with Zoe and for that I'm willing to risk the heartache again after all no true love is free of hurt.

Zoe and I have been communicating through text the whole past week although I have to admit after that one kiss my mind can't free me from the shackles of wanting more kisses from her. Everything about her called out to me at that party. The way she fit right on top of me as she straddled me, to the way her neck skin felt below my lips and how I would just die to be embraced by her. She felt soft to a touch and the way she pulled me to her as we kissed made me feel so wanted. I honestly loved how her responses to me were genuine and not prepared.

I would always keep our chats light in order to make her comfortable. I wanted her to trust me and be free with me. She will often tell me about her life back in Kingsley how she wasn't popular and how her fellow school mates would treat her and how that has taken a toll on her self esteem. My mind couldn’t comprehend how other people would not see the germ that is Zoe and choose to hate on her instead, I just couldn’t understand. Yeah granted she is beautiful maybe they felt insignificant to her so breaking her down might help themselves feel more elevated but then to what extent because she is still going to be more beautiful that those people. It really angered me the treatment she got. She also told me about her best friend back home Lisa and how she made everything worthwhile, that at least brought a smile to my face. I guess the most surprising thing from our chats was that the kiss from the party was her first. I was so shocked by this on Tuesday when she told me that I called her right away wanting to hear it from the horses mouth, to say I was blown away when she confirmed it is an understatement. I went on to ask her how it was and would she feel comfortable if it happened again. To which she said she would be glad if it ever happened again. did I not die and resurrect that moment. Look, my girl can talk her mind even if something is embarrassment she still says it which I appreciate. This also let's me know I can always be real with her and expect the same also from her. I spent most of my time on my phone on nights talking to her whether through text or actual phone calls at most night I found myself falling asleep to the sound of her voice to which she has already called me out for obviously. You can't really blame me wher voice is melodic making it hard not to fall asleep to, she is not boring if that's what you think is a reason for my falling asleep. I just love her voice and everything that is her. That's why I preferred phone calls with her. During school I seldom text my girl unless we are in history class or during other free periods like study period. I don’t want to distract her from her education. obviously we do see each other the whole day after all we share most classes. We also talk physically whenever we can. I have been thinking of ways to tell her that I like her and would like to take her on a date. I've opted to just tell her that I like her over the phone but asking for a date... well that I prefer to do it physically so maybe at school one of these days and I honestly cannot wait. I looked at the clock to see its 8pm I've been day dreaming for an hour while I have 3 take home work to do. f**k I hate homework why can't we just complete all the work at school then go home to just relax and start again the next day. I'm busy pushing through my last math question when I hear my phone ping. I go to pick it up I know its Zoe we normally talk around this time because by then both our households have eaten dinner and we are usually done or almost done with our home work.

Zoe: Hey Nathan, are you done with maths already.

Me: Nah not yet just busy with the last question. Why? what's up?

Zoe: well I'm having a tough time with the last equation. Can you help if you don’t mind?

Me: I would be happy to.

Zoe: let's switch video call so you can explain.

Me: cool.

Looking at my screen my girls face come on, that face gets me all the time.

“Hi Nathan” she says. I love how polite she is every time. “ Hey Zoe” I say causing her to blush. I watch her face as its plated full on the screen, God she is one beautiful lady. The way her cheeks dimple every time she smile, her dimples are lightly prominent just enhancing more of her beauty. We worked through the question together to the end. I know my girl is smart I've seen throughout this week in class. “Thank you, Nathan” She gratefully says. I look at her with a smile of course she doesn't need to thank me. Which I wanted to tell her however instead “I like you Zoe. Like as in I really really like you” came out of my mouth. I see her freeze for a moment before the brightest most beautiful smile grace her face. “Took you long enough” my girl chants out causing a smile on my face. “I really really like you too Nathan” she taunts and I couldn't help but grin like her fool, however our little conversation is interrupted when she is called by her mother. We said our goodnight and put down the phone. Tonight I go to bed a happy man knowing tomorrow I'll ask my girl to a date and I'm looking forward to it the most.