Zayn Pov
He is not dead. He is not dead. He is not dead.... It was three in the morning and that was the mantra I kept saying so that I can stay strong for my soon to be born kid, to stay strong for my pack so that I can still be a vigilant leader and for my family that has been with me through this. Amoux is not doing so well and neither am I and the only thing that keeps me afloat is that he is not dead. Adrian is not dead! The nightmares were gone because every day I get up I get to live in my nightmare. I needed something to drink so I went to kitchen to drink water, I would have went for whiskey or something stronger but my friends and Livy had threw all the alcohol out because they knew I would be a spiraling alcoholic. Yes Livy is back, she came back three months ago with her ne
