Meant to be but will never be

Thirteen

I drove home smiling, and my heart beating fast with excitement, I don’t remember the last time, I felt like this, maybe never but I liked every moment of it, loved how her face turned red when she was angry, embarrassed or angry at me of course I just loved the effect I had on her it was breath-taking and addictive, I wanted more, I wanted her next to me, and I was happy when she didn’t realize I knew where she stayed even without asking I almost expose the fact that I stalked her the last three days, okay at first it was innocent just trying to find out how the rings came to be, I followed her from work to her house, and she was a very simple woman, went to work and back home and I also found out Melissa was her only friend and as I found out more information about her I couldn’t help but dig up more and I also found out about her stupid uncle, and her childhood that was almost similar to mine we were both orphans at a young age, but it intrigued me that she never ever had a boyfriend, and that thought made me smile, made me want to possess her, yes I sound crazy, but this Tammy girl has driving me to edge of insanity within three days of knowing her, she’s so innocent, and I could mold her into any woman I want her to be, that’s the luck of having an untouched woman, you’re her first everything, you don’t have to prove anything to her, I thought grinning as I got out of the car parking lot at the hotel I was currently staying in with James, taking the elevator to the twelve floor the smile never leaving my lips, James was already waiting for me by the door with two glasses of scotch

“ How was your date with your wife!” he teased, but the fact that he called her my wife made me smile even more

“ Whoa! Man I never seen you smile so much in my life, what happened I hope you didn’t kill her!” he said, looking serious, but him thinking I could even think of killing Tammy made me mad as I glared at him!

“ I could never kill my wife” I scolded bringing his smile back in his lips

“ So how was your date then, are you In love already?” He joked, but it strikes a nerve I couldn't be could i? I couldn’t I decided I still loved Laura, and the son I never had a chance to get to know

“ it was perfect, she’s perfect, but I will never fall for her, I still love Laura, and don’t you dare question that again” I said, gulping the glass of scotch that immediately burnt my throat making me hiss

“ Laura is gone man, get over it, it has been ten fucken years, I’m sick of hearing about her, I know you loved her but you also deserve happiness, and I’m sure she will want you to be happy also, give Tammy a chance she’s a good girl” said James he was not wrong, but I just couldn’t let Laura go, she was my first love my everything how do you let go the only person who loved you unconditionally? You can’t that was my immediate answer!

“ I will always love Laura even after fifteen years, and I will I’ll never get over her or my son, you better get that through your skull,” I said, getting up to go to my bedroom angry he just had to ruin my perfect date up didn’t he?